回忆见

5年后回来看看我的回忆，一切都好青涩。
放心，我现在过得很好。
很健康，很快乐。
谢谢当初的你，敢爱，敢恨。
献上一首歌给还沉浸在回忆的你。
祝福你，现在也过的很好。
这样，所有思念和过去很值得 :)

不曾后悔有你的青春。

喜歡你叫我名字時微笑的嘴

i will miss you

6 Jan 15
终于吧把blog给ber看了，不知道他看见我内心的世界会不会吓到。这这样的心怡，你会喜欢吗？我自己卡看回去很旧很旧的那些post, 那些我爱过的人，那些我为他们哭过的人，那些我开心过伤心过的事，现在都不知道要抱着什么感觉去感受了。不知道ber看见看了，会不会很恨我，我喜欢过很多人也爱过很多人，到最后爱到我自己怕了，我说过我要你是我的最后一个，因为伤得太多了我也很累了，心脏很小我承受不起了... 不过谢谢ber给看了我你的心.. 我会好好照顾的，把它塞满那些很开心的很好笑的事，给他越变越大越来越肥，有一天，把它好好的还给你... 谢谢上帝今天又可以见到你，一直在家我好难受跑出去见你我好想哭.. 看到你我真的很想哭可是我不能哭，不可以这时候在你面前哭，你要找工我不可以那么自私让你担心我，所以只是抱了你，我也很开心了 ^_^ 因为我的笨蛋的抱抱很温暖哦！你到处去走到处去问，我就傻傻的跟在你后面，看你很努力的样子觉得很开心，这样的你特别帅 ^_^ 我就到处去snap，把我看到的风景给你看，我想的东西都告诉你，这样也算跟你一起玩了整体啊~ 走下走下你突然不见了，我有点害怕，我不喜欢自己一个人再那么多人的地方... 看着溜冰场抓着围墙发抖，又来了，肚子不好感觉上身体还没好完，觉得已经撑到极限了就坐了下来，sms你... 看你很累的样子我不知道应该说什么哄你开心，我怕说错话，所以只能乖乖跟着，给你看我开心没事的样子，我能做的只是要你不担心我，其实我已经走到很累了..你好像不开心，不知道要怎样弄你开心，想要亲你可是好像太多人了... 你要走了我就陪你去bus stop, 感觉上要累垮了可是现在不陪你以后就不懂要等到什么时候才能陪了，所以一定要撑下去！我懂我瞒不过你的，你也发现我累了，呵呵 很开心有肩膀靠 <3 很久没有这样靠着笨蛋休息了 ^_^ 突然很自私的想bus可以不要那么快来吗？我好想再躺久一点.. 还有多少时间我可以继续被你tickle被你抱... 知足啦心怡！一直提醒自己，我已经很幸福了！姐姐载我回家，我一回到时好后悔，我应该陪你啊！淋雨罢了吗那算什么，我之后是10天不能握你的手给你抱给你亲给你骂给你nag啊...？真的好伤心... 你安慰了我，还是你最会哄我了，叫我一声宝贝我就没哭了 呵呵 <3 睡觉突然被吓醒.. 好害怕，我找不到电话我找不到你，差点就要哭出来了，幸好你突然回来了，我觉得我好没用，没有你我真的很弱很弱... 晚上的心情很重，想太多了，想你想明天想未来，给你知道我一定又被骂惨了 > < 突然电视做夏日乐悠悠，很好看！很感动~ 没有那么伤心了，你的心情也好像比较好了，你笑的样子很好看 ^_^ 一直望着wallpaper发呆，就是我们prom拍的那张，很喜欢.. 好啦被你禁止超过1点睡觉，不要写下去了，我要去抱我的笨蛋睡觉了 <3 10天我会想你的！我爱你 伍斌航

SCARED....

5 Jan 14 

Sicky day at home. Morning wake up jiu keep finding berber le >< how lost am I without u.. Den chiong book of john. Whatsapp with ber and I'm kinda heavy head eventually slept.. Then I slept so long until ber came back and wake me up :P haha piggy me. Then lunch and continue chiong John. Video call with him hehe ^^ then both of us go nap again haha this time I woke first because jw suddenly send me the postcard photo we took when went lagoon hahah so long ady. So xing fen I woke up straight go her house and take. Night was kinda sick urghh but glad I'm feeling well now >< tmr last day le.. Scared TT

TIRED.

4 Jan 15 

Went church and brief Sarah everything.. Afternoon meeting gah so long... But happy God with me and allow me successfully ask for camp money.. Then very long only go home.. Reach le straight go nap and ber woke me up.. Then night sapu Luke.. Whole day chatting with berber hehe ermm feel loved la... And so long no walkie talkie and end up calling... Gah miss those late night talks.. We also chatted many things abt future... So bright haha may god look after us ..

HMM...

3 Jan 14 

Packing Isaiah luggage the whole morning~ and I'm not done yet TT then finally after so long he woke me up from nap, miss that feeling so much ^ ^ night went pavilion, shop n eat.. sad to hear mom say my by must be Christian.. I do hope too but ... Haih dk la.... compromise need to be done... worry that I cannot finish Luke and John bible, God give me strength pls..

SURPRISE DATE YAY

2 Jan 15 

Thank God for today. Yesterday was like 赌气 with ber then morning open his msg saw he say going Sunway outing and come find me before going off. Then I rush out to fetch him and bring him see jinwen and back to popo house. After breakfast brought him upstairs and hugged. Today was last. Feeling so down and 不舍的 and suddenly he hugged me from behind and asked me not to worry.. eventually it turned out to kisses then French kiss.. gonna miss this so much.. Stupid ber.. Then we went pyramid and he go cello outing I go bag hunt while whatsapp ing jinwen. Went SS15 Chemistry caffe and lunch with jinwen then we keng le a lot.. Later my heart asked me I shud go back to find him.. Then I was at popular finding present suddenly he came up n shock me > < then suddenly his juniors n yz came n yam sui us. Then he brought me to eat cendol ^_^ hehe then suddenly yz called up n usher me to call my parents to ask me stay for movie, miraclly mom allow ._. So we went watch Seventh Son, wah yz hen geng hor gave us two seat tgt then they sit below us a row > < then we curi curi below chair hold hands until very tight /// then also play with penguin until like our baby haha x) then wait his juniors back and I feel so unwell until wanna vomit.. Then mom ask me eat liao only go back hahaha so dinner mad with him XD then he hugged me and pat me tell me not to worry again.. and suddenly kiss me so softly shocked me until now still can remember d feel.. kiss me in public /// ah go home whatsapp ed whole nigh so tired ady..really thank God for today giving him whole day with me I feel so happy.. appreciate it very much.. thank God.. I must faster come back and hug him!!

HIIII 2015

1 Jan 15 

HAPPY NEW YEAR YAY ITS 2015 ady haha finally can say bye to those sad stuffs in 2014 ^_^ but today wasn't too happy coz he's was having fun with pmo ians while I were out there shopping for white shirt in tiredness. And he quite busy with fren and somehow I took it as neglected me.. Was so sad and cried before nap then decided to switch off my phone for the rest of the day. But then night going out so need turn on phone, the sadness still engulfing me so I turned on music with Taylor's song, it helped quite well. Went to jays one and night turned quite well. I wish we could date here next time :) night went home and read bible then only on data. He left msg n I guess he slept. Little disappointment but decided not to take it to heart, he must be tired that's how I convince myself..

2014 END :')

31 Dec 14 

2014年对我来说真的有许许多多起起落落，去年的跨年我和教会的人一起，今年的跨年我和华乐的人一起。2013年的最后一天我爱着姚净钟，2014年的最后一天我爱着伍斌航。早上就搭巴士去midvalley买sausage, 然后跟着他send给我的照片搭巴士去ioi。谢谢上帝让我很快等到巴士，又有一位aunty刚好也要下ioi，我就没那么害怕下错站了。在ioi的mcd跟他吃早餐然后玩summonerd war. 之后我们搭巴士回家，原来蛮靠近的。他爸爸在家，我很awkward的在客厅玩电话，之后爸爸走了就去玩他哥哥的电脑开他Twitter看 哈哈。除了是2014年的最后一天，也很有可能是我在去以塞亚见面的最后一天。所以很珍惜在一起的时光，很开心..亲到一半他突然说"心怡我爱你"，我还以为我听错了 ，吓到我了，可是真的很感动.. :') 之后他哄我去睡觉，第一次终于不是虚幻的goodnight kiss了 /// （也有亲得很急的时候，可惜mark fail le）累着累着就睡着了~ 突然妈妈回来之后妹妹回来，我还是继续睡，直到他来叫醒我，拿到了morning kiss <3 之后yl就来啦，我们出去买冰然后开始搬东西，yl叫我加油，哈哈 谢谢<3 虽然我已经成功了，不过笨蛋说上大学后才公开 > < 对了，笨蛋竟然在电话力里把我的名字放成ben dan =3= 哈哈没关系我也是 <3 人陆陆续续的来了开始烤啊吃啊拍照啊 我一直很累。加上他很忙家人又在 没有什么理我 我就没什么精神和chu在一边聊天。之后喝sparkling看他们玩five night，然后大家一起玩card against humanity. 这时候他丢了枕头给我抱，玩玩下就跑出去准备倒数了，我给了他那10封信，这只是我能做的.. 之后就跟他们挥手道别，着sekni车回家去~ 有少少伤感啦因为大家都要分了，会很想念大家特别是他。不过想到今天下午我们亲了那么多，要知足了！！以后还有很长很长时间在一起的，要这样努力很相信着！心怡2015年加油 <3

DATE HEHEHEHE XD

30 Dec 14 

What a day. Morning went for the hobbit hehe not bad d but dk why thorin kili wanna die ): before that went every single supermarket that available in mid for bacon hahaha. Ah still waiting until my face reach the maturity that can hold hands in public also nth d > < I'm 18 next year pls! So long no meet me miss his hug so much..very solid and safe d feel.. And also kisses haha *shy* but still not dare to make mark. Reach home tired die I even slept at bus and took nap after bath. Night was disaster, literally fought with Amanda over little group thing zzz feel so weiqu kena her indiret tweet dao wth like I killed someone n u very kind forgive me wtf. Haih I hope I can handle the roads tmr. Xinyi jiayou!