Tanjung Sepat with PMO ♡

13 June 14

Oh dear HIIII it's qing gong yan today! hahah more rather PMO trip whee :3 Suddenly many people no show up sho sad ): chuting yongen derrick sick, weizhe parents x let, peh prom video, tiensing yongzheng marching. but anyway it's still very very fun! pardon i no write dairy yesterday because too tired :P so here is it. Morning woke up early to continue pack my luggage, last night the lights broke out so very cincai pack only. Then WA with ber jinwen wenyi before i leave. LOL ber now only know i got go haha :D we bus A bus B. All form 5 bus B wheee :3 sob the guys are sitting at the back, other we sat at front~ starting it's kinda boring because jinwen went to chat with sooyee then i FA with my own. Only sometimes alvin and zinmun talked to me~ then when i sat inside the eat.  (purposely) Yoongliang went forward and began his duty of 导游 XD then ber came and sat beside me, thought i was a form 1. He used my phone to whatsapp wenyi fat ugly those, oh dear hahaha. and even snapchat my ugly face TT arrived our homestay - Hock's house. Jinwen Ber them, these people ah once saw the 麻将 table straight away take out poker card and chor dai di liao. then we went to beach wheee :D by sitting lori! first in my lifetime! hahaha it was very very fun and ci gek :P keep shouting and avoiding the palm tree's leaves! sandy beach cool breeze, that's how holiday should be! off sandals run to the blue blue sea! hehehe nice nice :3 i was pulled down into the water by ber TT dranked so much salty water ewww. then we just randomly played in the sea water, selfie here and there, photo taking session everywhere!  later HC lao shi invited us to catch fish using net! i tried once in the shallow water, nice experience :D fun screaming with le pmo-ians! hoho we caught many small fishes, prawns, crabs and other weird creatures! HC lao shi banyak like the left-mouthed fish haha and also showed us the sea-maintainer creature. Lesson: pretty fish are mostly poisonous! second round fishing course in deep sea hohoho, i rushed beside ber :P (purposely) i was continuously zat ed because of my height lol eventually i no need to walk because the waves can support my weight and i just 漂 with the waves only haha! asked pei hua if i could just hug her so i dont even had to walk, ber said why cant u hug me? oppppppps x) then i replied with behh d 眼神 saying ur sista behind u only dont teach bad kids~ so like that banyak close distance 接触 :P hehe her sister menang look like him oh! very thin, pretty and 斯文。 as white as him lol. after that i no go 3rd time catching fish ler. i sat down in the sea with ber. both of us alone is the middle of the sea. there's another big big group at 2m away. then we chatted a lot a lot sambil splash each other water and mud :P i cried in front of him, not because i'm touched or what just because the sea water enter my eyes so salty! i heard a group of juniors behind us calling "bernard, cannot ahhhh" then bernard 翻 them 白眼 and said "crazy people" haha somehow touched? ;) then we sat even deeper down the sea because the water is getting hotter and hotter. i saw Jamie was taking photos of us, nahh no care hahaha. i told ber idk how should i let other know abt this. it's kinda troublesome n hurt what happened when alvin and yl made fun of him out of jong this morning. So he told me that, if i dont know how to tell then dont tell, eventually they would find out. I also told him abt Anna Chua. He say actually i cant fully blame on jong because jong's side dont really have any guy who mature enough to talk to him, it's normal for him to find a girl and talked about our problems. LOL ber is now more likely my chem teacher, energy booster, mood reliever and mental counsellor x) went back hotel for rest and bathe! they da bao ler pao for us. oh dear the yam pao is sho nice! but my stomach is not feeling well so i took a longggg time to finish it - 1hr like that. selfie with ber :D when we once check in, f5 was so amaze that we got this family suite! where we all form 5 will sleep together XD sooyee said she no mind boy girl cham yayyy wheee :3 then daycare daddy mommy - ber and yl fan us everyone to nap x) haha awhh so caring ♡ i actually slept before they group napping haha! i was middle between changkoon and sekni! lol we sleep dao half suddenly HC lao shi came in "冤枉咯咯咯咯~" and he took a pillow slammed sooyee so hard! hahaha then rest of us quickly wake up xD night BBQ the seafood we caught this afternoon with 番薯 :3 before that also banyak photo taking sessions. my form 2 juniors very very like sooyee lol. then HC lao shi played a very lame game haha, i no play :P stomach really not feeling well lol, keep fell like throwing up D: ber's leg was getting buried while gan en yu's whole body was buried. many many mosquitoes at night TT kena sting so much, glad our 导游 uncle applied something on those swollen bit, straight away no itchy le :D he also forced me a cup of vinegar + sprite + water, to help cure my stomach. Thank God it did works, i farted a lot. sitting lori at night was quite scaring, because of the palm fields, and raining. we supper at random makmak store and walk back to homestay :) Narnia was on HBO and we played 谁是卧底 in room. the game was fun but we play dao quite boring. end up everyone watching Narnia! ber fell asleep beside me before Narnia ended, i eventually fall asleep too. dont know whether izit nescafe's fault, i cant sleep well and woke up on 3am. but ber sleeping calmly like a pig, beside me ♡ he stole all the pillow himself, i no pillow sleep sobbb. before that when we start sleeping, we was like 背对背睡觉 while sharing a pillow and blanket. then when turned around facing each other. so close. so closeee. not even longer than a 15cm ruler distance, his face enlarged in front of me. how can i be calm under this situation? he keep kick and step my leg, dont know is on purpose or not. can hear him snoring too hahaha! i heard someone took a photo while we're sleeping, heard the camera's KACHA sound, too lazy to wake up and see. when i woke up at 3am, ber sleeping piggy and suddenly yl is beside me. hmm i remember before i fall asleep beside me right is wenyi wor. i tried to sleep back but i couldn't so we watched Around the World in 80 days in HBO together until 4.30am. I also got open whatsapp and saw alvin and ruo yi not sleeping. ber woke up at 4.30am and chatted with me. Lol he actually wanted to go down mak mak there for fifa but yl declined. ber asked me if i'm inosmia i said ya, he then actually hong me to sleep ♡ we slamming my dear yellow pillow on each other's face to shut each other up and sleep. i saw sometimes he's shivering, is he scratching or? suddenly someone's alarm rang! everybody was so lazy to get up and shut the alarm off but i'm really annoyed by the long disturbing sound. until i really really beh tahan le i poked ber. he turned to me, i ask him go turn off the alarm, he just woke up and did it o.o without hesitation or even zat or behh me. so i went off bed sleeping tight with him beside me ♡ u know what? the most happy and comfort moment when i woke up and open my eyes, his face just appeared in front of me :) giving me somehow kinda 安全感 :P so i was actually peeking him all night. When i couldn't sleep, he just chatted with me, like so freely, taking care of me, really feel happy.. ♡ morning when waking up, i actually woke up earlier then him. But i just sleep back hahah piggy me. then when they pulled the curtains off, he woke up, i woke up after him. but he just gave me his blanket and cover my face with pillow and ask me continue to sleep. somehow touched of caring? is this caring? ^^ then he asked me if i got some sleep, yeah thanks :) but then time after that i was not really in a good mood? dont know why ): just very less interactions ler. they played King's game after back from breakfast :) ber keep pairing up with girls lol. He fed sooyee cup of maggi mee and coke haha. awhh really kinda sweet nia. yl and songlynn put hand inside fridge 30s haha! jinwen huiyin haorui pillow fight 1min! check out and group photo then byebye Hock's House! Ber sat with sooyee automatically, which kinda make me take to heart. went lover's bridge people buy souvenirs, then lunch together at seafood restaurant. Now he treating zin mun nicely and made me D: but zinmun also got come n pei me :) jinwen la totally 抛弃我 ady. at bus continue played King's game lol. Ber and Sekni hold hands walk down the bus path. okay. okayyy. then songlynn sit on yl's leg for 5 mins. more and more, mine very lame with hao rui. songlynn asked for sun bathing but we can't do it so she changed to do sexy pose LOL. then we played sleep mode killer :D i kena yuan wang for every turn lol! very fast jiu reached school and say goodbye to this 2 days 1 night Tanjung Sepat Trip :) hehehe wait! not so fast, we're not going home so fast yet. some of us went in school together when going to pmo hall. in the middle of the road, we saw jong. ya we. but none of them reacted like what yl will do. eh xinyi your jong ah! nope, nth happened. but then alvin then came to me and asked me, just told him 没事的 没事的, ber used this to zat me again =3= went pmo hall and selfie with wenyi's hat haha. Then we played chor dai di and 骗牌 together, me jinwen alvin ber tiensing piang sooyee. haha first won the 骗牌! then still no get how to play chor dai di although i watched a lot turns. ber went off with "yay i go home, and you guys still here haha!! later tuition.." we all laughed so badly XD thanks to this trip, i met new friend - Alvin Wong, we loved to sing! infect tmr we are outing to chat more abt pink bubbles hehehe. And also creating many many valuable memories of mt and him alone :) LOL my first night with guy had taken away by Bernard! (sound so wrong) but it's really true. somehow glad i had this chance of boy girl same room in high school life. If college sure cannot, something bad might probably happened. piang memang semangat posted the photos tonight! haha really nice :) so unbelievable that this trip just ended like this. lol got one photo from piang's album is we all sleeping at night geh, glad cannot see my face! if not GG~ but i also seeking the photo of me n ber sleeping together :P haha and so yl just granted my wish by posting it in pmo form 5 group .___. oh dear everyone was $%^#(*^&)& and weizhe was asking why i'm sleeping with ber. heh dont know? :P but after that all those king's game d photos and video covered up our sleeping photos. glad our sleeping photos also cannot see dao my face, but can recognize is me, and ber is very clearly him. oh dear according to photo, we're sleeping really really close /// damnnn dont make me high i wanna sleep tonight too! my dear little yellow pillow is now full of smell haha dont ask me who;s :P oppss XD okay i shared my data hotspot to so many people especially koon and now the result is the credit before go trip : RM18, after : RM9, oh dear half gone .__. nvm, all happy jiu hao ^^

top student hw day

11 June 14 

Ello another holiday! Morning very guai geh do HKC's hw :3 afternoon watched Howl's moving castle, very very nice! Hehe so sweet loh. Then ex ex introduced me norigami, also not bad! Very funny heheh :3 night the electricity broke down, only started packing at 11. Hehe today v can say talked a lot :3 so i ady really zhi zu leeeer. Then kinda worry abt tmr. Since there will b no rooms for us. Sleep or not? I'm still bringing the sleeping bag la. And I wonder will I enjoy? Good questions. If not maybe I'll stick with jw. Since her C no go. Glad thank God B got go haha. Okay don worry so much! Ganbatte yohhh.

board then caffe bene XD

10 June 14 

HAPPY DAY TODAY HOHOHOHO. Woke up early to go school, actually not so early too. 7.15am haha yolo :P reach sch at 7-11 eat jinwen prepare for me d nutella bread breakfast, save money TvT then went canteen, chia phoong yongzheng there. Lol me and yongzheng asked same question. He no go qing gong yan because of marching, awh how wei da ): then v all start buat board. Half way went amcorp to buy materials. Gosh waited POPULAR for 2 hrs sien die! We chatted a lot, with yong en chuting and jing xia. Jing xia very cute leh haha. Walked in rain when going back to school TT soaked wet haih! Somemore I wear PJK clothes, die. Phone dying, this morning when I remove my phone from charger I x check. When I got in car and look, damn 17 battery TT what happened all night! I no bring dao power bank also cry. Glad xin jie helped me charge at bilik seni :3 hehe so we all continue sapu board :D hehe then suddenly all shou xi came. Was shock wenyi came school with fever haih. Saw cavell, he find me and ask me, I said I'm not the one who finding you. Damn. Before that I went bilik seni pass by scouts room and saw tex and ask him for cavell. Saw jong at tapak marching his juniors, he turned his head to see me but I turned my head away. Sadly weizhe n jiechee x going qing gong yan, jw must b sad die. Afternoon went porridge, first time try peanut with salted egg, not bad! Then devil chocolate, oh dear so expensive but really nice one! Home, rest and continue cheering wenyi up. Haih poor girl ): night chor mom's McD hehe then slack everywhere! Ber talked with me more frequently today :3 hehe memang a kou shi xin fei d people hoho. Tmr last day of holiday for me, must chiong hw liao, okay! Gar yao xinyi :)

happie dayyyy

9 June 14 

This morning I sapu le 10 episodes of mahouka xD oh no that bro sista lovee! Then afternoom nap. Was chatting with wenyi whole day and cheering her up. I know this is no good but seriously cavell deserves a punch in da face and he dont worth your hardwork at all girl! Ha.. I even go scold cavell at jong for wenyi ._. Nehh today was basically a happy day because mommy let me go qing gong yan wheeee! First in my life time omggg :D then ber dunno why afternoon so good find me talk :3 okiee hehe thank God for answering my prayers ♡ thank yoi for putting me through the hard time and made me appreciate the moments now :) tmr with le dear pipa group buat board! Wooots :D

guardian angel endd

8 June 14 

Hi sunday. Today is guardian angel day. Finally wearing my beloved skirt. Then today be ban chang :D dk? But I feel happy pnw ing with them ^^ then smth session like xian xin hui lol. Talk abt the most sad thing. Lol didnt really expect heng got mine haha. The activity was actually kinda boring, to me la but also got meaning geh. Dk why after church i lost my voice. And I was so down. Lunch also skip le jiu nap. Nap le 3-4 hrs wake up go badminton. Tired die. Night cried. Because they wouldn't let me stay at KL. I dun wanna miss qing gong yan. Dont wanna miss tuition. Dont wanna miss meeting too. I dont wanna miss my time with friend. Suddenly very good with wenyi. We chat a lot >< haih today ber.only 3 sentence. What can I do. I shall stop? I shall. I cant. :) just be like this idc lah. I knew u must've found out. Thats why. We ended.

meeting meeting so unofficial!

7 June 14 

Today was a busy and full day. I thought i will wake up late today actually no. I woke up naturally at 9am! Then went IKEA breakfast. Later Kepong ate nice nice d har mee :D and go church near there cut hair >< SO SHORT TT later practice PnW lo :) very fun haha. Played with heng's phone XD instajacked hohoho. And Twitter tweet vegeetham XD night meeting~ went out dinner at korean restaurant! And so meeting at ochado! Jiu talk lo, very rush. Then after that huanzong fetch me home, talked a lot in car >< haha happy heard many secrets wow >< then back home ady 12 like that. Whatsapp. Told ber. Haih. Still feeling.. sad? I will overcome it d :))

22 months end

6 June 14 

22 months ended today. Thank you for everything. I somehow forgot, the feeling of breaking up was so suffering too. Glad Sarah was there with me :) and others friends. Enough tears le, xinyi be strong. You can do it without him alright :) lol ber ignored me whole day fine ): many friends was shocked. But I'm so lazy to explain.. thank you ex for entertaining me :) I look so okay so normal so fine now, but if really someone asked me face to face, I think I'll broke down.. reread my blog from Jan to latest. It's been long. So long so much memories. 是我对不起你.. I'm sorry

对不起 再见

要怎么拥有一道彩虹, 要怎么拥抱一夏天的风.. 我们可以分手吗? 似乎已经没有感觉了.. 对你。但都是我的错吧。你..一直都很努力很努力, 这我知道。我都看到 。你为我做的, 怎么能比呢。有谁能够比你更好。只是。我不能再这样欺骗自己下去... 我怎么可以那么坏.. 我们分了.. 你一定找anna chua 好不好, 跟她在一起。这样我会好过一点.. 谢谢那些曾经很美好的回忆... 那些很yolo的时光。是你给我的勇气与鼓励, 伴我走过了中学生涯, 我不会忘记的... 我啊 .. 怎么那么笨呢 ? 这样不懂爱自己的人, 不是我 ... 对吧? 为什么 要伤害自己..? 我能够 真的可以看着他和别人幸福吗? 真的吗..? 分手过后 一定很孤独吧.. 我喜欢的他, 不可能跟我在一起 ... 爱很傻吧。。明知道 不会在一起 ,他也叫我不要爱上他了, 我却那么的傻。。笨蛋心怡。。。这次, 是给你一次狠狠的教训吧! 以后孤独, 是你一定要承受的... 别人的眼光,询问,批评, 不要去在意好不好? 想哭就哭, 做自己。很久没有单身了。。多久开始, 你就没有男性的好朋友了? 怀念吗 ?初恋 ? 他很好吧? 我现在喜欢的那个人 。 我是很自私的。不能祝福你。对不起。。。。可是我不会抢走属于你, 和你选择的幸福 。。心里这种很痛很痛的感觉。。够了。停止吧, 我不行了。我崩溃了。放我走好不好, 让我哭, 流泪, 让我发泄 。。。不要囚禁我 。。

GOLD SLIVER

5 June 14 

Congratulations PMO A team got sliver and B team got gold :) only one honoured gold this year, but everyone like not so happy, hope they're fine >< watched maleficent today! Awesome. Told yaaaa now every movie going frozen way. Girl power. True kiss also no need guy hoho. It's quite a heart warming movie :) first time movie with jw not bad lah. Caffe bene after movie we chat a lot. Ahh but I feel so sick after it. I wonder izit caffeine d problem. Feel dizzy shivering, and stomach very uncomfortable somemore feel like vomiting. I thought sleeping will make me feel better but end up waking up with same problem which worsen. Felt better now, not fever also. Heart was pounding so fast today, I wonder why. I mixed up feeling. Seriously cant think anything properly now. Should get some sleep. I'm worried abt ber. Really worry. Hope you're okay. God bless you all.. please be fine dont cry :)

EUFAT LEONG

4 June 14 

Boring day. More rather drama day! Watch drama keep spam saja. Pmo-ian today start off to penang. Have safe trip yo! Still maintaining everyday must talk with him once d routine lalala. Yay tmr maleficent!! Finally ♡♡♡♡ okay tmr tuition sob TT yay I done playing all signing parts of 知足(Y) so happy, can start new song liao :3 craving for chocolates.. hmm tmr go buy caffe bene la :3 although i broke le but still. Have to treat my sadly me a drink d. Okay sleep tight. EUFAT LEONG haha ♡

koon ffk D:

3 June 14 

Today went pmo. Memang two hours jiu gao dim zap yeh go home. Ahhh koon sick liao no come sob, get well soon okay! Sendiri distribute te kan. Haih keep x intersect with him lol fine. See dao jiu enough le. June calendar also gao dim la ：D thank you sooyee for praising! Today i only found that I'm still very 在意 when sooyee ask me why no go penang.. haih it still hurt but it'll be heal :) jw went 6A gathering i ochado le jiu go home. Sien day. Night practice half end part of chorus of zhi zu. So hard. Le bro playing let it go without looking at music sheet ok win. They're going tmr. Gar yao :) wait you all back with good news okay. Safely.. I wait u back

KCCO 交流会

2 June 14

 Went jiao liu hui with kcco. It was a great experience! they're really pro la :) I mean pipa. So I met someone in pipa group who also know heng d haha. They welcomed us like VIP lols. Then we played suriram. They play what a forgot liao. Then we start jiao liu. Talk talk oh wow they brought food. Their shouxi = our zu zhang. Their zhi hui = our shou xi. Yay saw an qi! We hugged. Then we play feng nian and tong niab tgt. Lol it was fun haha. Then still got time jiu play mai da hai and dong tgt wow. Jiechee's zhi hui bang flew away half way! Hahahaha. Then have lunch and all those photo taking session #selfieftw had their fb and so on. Their badge very nice (Y) pipa shape! Yay ask heng take for me! Went back school still nidda finish up magazine work. Okay so back home with jinwen and chat a lot. So tired. Mom loa x lemme go out tmr. So tired nao idk what to do with him. What if one day happened just like jinwen said? Ber sing 他不会是个好男人 也不会是个好情人 你对我说我们只是擦肩而过 好的男人有那么多 少了他的日子也能过 我不会再让你寂寞 也不会让你难过 你听我说要好好学着去生活 就算未来有多少错 至少还有我的问候 我的温柔陪你度过... what will I feel? How will I react?

hi JUNEE

1 June 14

 Hi it's a new month! Okay yesterday was fun and anxious! Morning went to church haih I thought i can share converstation with heng but too bad he went hometown. Today was quite a dramatic day. At church suddenly pastor say got meeting, I so gan jiong coz cant find anyone to replace me. Then glad I dont have to, so rush to school for pmo practice. No cut dao hair TT ah ber no go. Sei foh. Feng nian totally sight read haha. Very tired very tired. Night keep practice lo. Ber so chiong weh. He even prepared other 2 song in case tmr need. Lol viva still dim, but the other one TT is a purpose song leh, I thought why so sad. Haha but he keep play n let me hear also happy, at lease I'm reliable? That he willing to ask my opinion. :) good luck la ber u can do it! Cello zu zhang u dimm d okay ^-^ then see dao everyone so serious I also very scare go practice. First time practice dao dont feel like sleeping lol. Okay but tmr need wake up early so good night! See you.. ♡

GODZILLAA + KCCO CONCERT

31 May 14 

Hi happy day today. Laz night Twitter indirect tweet with him so kwet lahh ♡ cha dian jiu no need sleep le haha. Then godzilla today, not bad not bad xD so in the end Godzilla is a hero! Woots then night go kuen cheng concert. Wheee sat so close in bus haha. He zu dong talk to me haha. Lol chuan me 2048. Then arrived we talked a lot. He noticed my eyes was yellow. And took a photo of it. Lol then when comparing, he was so close to my face /// how can u do that walao.. too bad no sit tgt.. saw heng chat with him. Ber saw us and yam xiu lol. The concert was okay. After intermission d song not bad. Diff ppl diff opinion. Tmr got practice TT . Then posted me n heng d photo in wechat where I wrote a macam wrong d caption haha who cares. Okay so tired now good night. Bu yao tooooo into it okay. Be yourself be yourself. Xinyi you are you. Ppl geng jiu geng la, dont compare. Today u happy enough le :) okay happy. God loves you. Amen ♡

PMO after so long :)

30 May 14 

Hi pmo today! Jinwen overslept lol. Then kanna breakfast, lol sudah naik harga geram, roti telur RM3.00 leh! Rompak meh. Glad ber came today, although we no talk, but it's okay. Teach form one juniors today. They're so innocent la haha. Then practice 童年的回忆 with chia. Afternoon korean food with jinwen. Then we chat alot regarding my relationship. Had white hot chocolate at Gloria Jean, new shop in Amcorp. Not bad(Y) then walk home alone, at bus so sleepy, glad I woke before over bus stop. Night I told many ppl abt my problem, ying, my 3 girls. All ask me to calm down. Then chat with ex and rong so much lol haha. Told ber I cant make it to jian tao hui, he asked kc concert leh. Wow he cares. HE CARES. okay calm down, so pray hard that I wouldn't need to walk from home to sch okay. Tmr will be a long day. What I can say abt my relationship problem is, I really dk whether i have the feelings remaining.. and how could I not jealous or feel anything when seeing u with anna. But, he was he one who's most innocent between us. He shall not get any harm because of us. Until then I'll continue protect and secret him. That dream, where u stole half of my feelings away by a kiss. Thank you. For the past memories.

holiday huehuehue

29 May 14 

Holiday wheee computer girl mode start! Update computer, fix phone, do pmo thing ~ watched angel eyes episode 2! Today was quite boring la. Chat with baka whole day. He sangat free == Then didnt chat with ber whole morning n afternoon, feel so down.. then finally night talked a bit, I'm cheered :) tmr go pmo!!

midvalley @ 5S3 we 4 gals

28 May 14 

Hey so today I went Midvalley with Sarah Zhiwei May. Sarah overslept again. Ootd is white shirt with long sleeve and watercolor skirt ♡ arrived like 11am and let Sarah had her breakfast. Cotton on later, but the shop need to restart their electricity so we left. Went photo taking at mid to garden d fountain there. Then havr lunch at Plan B. The food was very nice, so as the price. Very full, very satisfying. First time eating salad hoho. Went back cotton on and may bought her dress. Later xiao shuien came, but after awhile she left. went for Starbucks, caramel hot chocolate, okok only. Still prefer frap! Then I told them ny problems with jong, all advised me not to break.. I will think rationally. Saw see mun on way back home. Slept until 8pm after get home. Opened up the present thy gave. It was a cloth and nail polish. The cloth was oversized. I wear S they bought M. Both turquoise. Many nice photo taken :) hadn't really talk to ber today. He's in a bad mood I can sense it. Night chatted with a lot of ppl. Ok tmr comp day! Night :3

LAST PAPERR HOLIDAY HIIII

27 May 14 

Last paper chemistry 1 ! Yay then it's holiday :) hehe thanks donn keep give me intensive class, helped me alot! After school had 慰劳宴。sat with wenyi them, eat more laugh more. Haha then after that find pnchan with yz n ber to give present. Then went back pmo hall. Kena zat lol /.\ then chat with jinwen a lot abt relationship problem. Went home tag camp photo xD wow next week jiu mif meeting le! Finally holiday, glad mom allow me tmr go mid with may them :D yay haha although it's abit early to celebrate birthday but oh well :P

friend?

26 May 14 

Chem paper 3 and Sej paper 1 slaughtered me mercilessly. I had a weird dream. I couldn't believe I had it. The main point how is it even possible. Ah my brain my heart gonna explode. Okay had fight with jong again. Big one. I seriously dont know how to maintain this relationship. He asked if I ady give up. While I still holding on. Today tuition sarah reminded me abt ber's crush, ann. Lol I really dk la, no ask him before lo haha. Dont wanna know either. I shall b a friend and friend only okay. I told him my dream, by skipping the awkward part. Haha he just laughed. I wonder why would I have this dream.. does this indicate that we're impossible? Lol whatever. I shall just hold on. God has his plan ;) okay, tmr last paper! Go go go!!

幸福还是不幸福

昨晚，我做了个梦。

这个梦，令我很不知所措。


我在家里。

默默地按着手机。

今天是我的生日，可是我却比平时还要寂寞。

开着whatsapp，默默地等待你回复我。

可是你却爱回不回的，这样等待好难受。

突然，你干脆不回了。


是啊，你也不是我男朋友，当然不需要24/7回复我。


突然间我在一个小型超级市场里。

这里人不多，正合我意。

我想要买什么？吃的？喝的？我不知道，也不晓得为什么我会在这里。

走走看看好了。

突然电话响了，我的心也抖了一下。

是whatsapp的铃声。

会是你吗？


【shopping好玩吗？:P】


什么？什么意思？

我闹脾气，不回他。

回他我就输了。


可是他也不会因为这样而回我啊。


突然，有一位陌生人。

差不多跟我同年的陌生人。

他递给我一张便利贴，就走了。


【shopping好玩吗？:P】


怎么可能？

为什么是一样的东西？是他的字体没错。

他在这里？

为什么？


我满怀疑惑的盯着这张来历不明的便利贴。

东张西望看着四周，

希望可以找到我想要的找到的。

这个时候，又有一个男生递来了一张便利贴。


【今天我穿浅蓝】


上面还画了一个幼稚园水准的浅蓝的衣服。

他怎么知道我在找他？

他就在附近吗？


我开始在超级市场里跑起来。

你一定在这里吧。

去过了几个地方看了，

找不到。

突然，我看见了一个人。


【直走，转左，走到最后，就可以看到我了】


我收到了第3张便利贴。

这是Baik Kai Shan递给我的。

他一脸阴笑，没说什么。

我一脸迷茫的看着他，也没问什么。

你不会耍我吧。

既然你的好朋友都在这里了，你一定也在这里。


我向前走，过了门栏，进入市场的另一区。

这里有很多高高的架子。

转左，隐约看到什么在尽头。

慢慢地走，其实路也没那么长，我到了。

一个玩着电话，穿着浅蓝衣服的男生背对着我。

他回头。

看着我，笑了。


你怎么在这里啊？

我没问出口，只是坦然的回应了他的笑。

我们都没说话，只是看着对方笑。

便利贴都是他写的吗？

为什么要这么做？

因为我生日要耍我吗？

可是为什么要带我到这里来？

为什么他会..


知道我想见他。


我退后，靠着架子打量四周。

真是奇怪，为什么他会在这样的地方。

突然，我感觉到我的头发被什么粘住了。

天哪。

谁那么没良心方口香糖在这里 T_T

头发被粘住了，怎么也弄不下来。

好倒霉。


就在我抱怨倒霉的时刻。

我的视线被一个脸挡住了。

一个被放大的脸。

距离 这两个字存在在吗？

我只感觉到有一双嘴唇印在我嘴上。

轻轻的。

很温柔的。

像是害怕伤害到什么的。


当我反应过来的时候，

头发上的口香糖已经被拿下来了。

我不知道我脸上写着的是什么表情。

他只是浅浅的笑着，看着我。


你 会不会


话还没问出口，另一个人出现了。

我现任男朋友。

当我转过头想找回他的时候，

他不在了。

我很不高兴的看着这个突然出现的人物。

干嘛在这个时候出现啊，

我还没问到什么....


之后，他也走了。

留下我一个。

我想回家。

也想去找他。


就这样我一个人穿梭在这个陌生的超级市场。

走着走着

我渐渐地发现到，

是这个超级市场很旧了吗？

为什么他给人的感觉那么陈旧，那么阴森？

我不断地往超级市场下去，

也不知道走了几个escalator

都我一个人。

一个超级市场，几层楼

都只我一个人。

我开始害怕了。


我来到了某一层。

这里是游戏中心，挺热闹的。

但看起来不是什么好地方。

我想回家了。

直觉告诉我，应该赶快离开这里。


我来到超级市场门外

才发现自己好像处在沙漠的市中心

外面什么也没有。

不要说什么巴士站

连马路都没有。

只有那空空的旷野

还有看不见边际的天空。


我慌了。


在超级市场外绕了几圈，我找到了一线希望。

Information Counter.

我赶快向那里的工作人员问了回家的方法。

或者说离开这里的方法。

工作人员告诉我只要搭巴士转几个站就可以去到我要的地方。

只是搭巴士要钱。

我身上却什么也没有。


怎么办？


没钱搭巴士，手机也没有电了

怎么回家？

望着那渐渐暗下来的天空

我一定要赶在天黑前回家。

我回到了那游戏中心。

既然刚刚都可以预见那么多他的朋友

在这里也应该能找到谁帮帮我。


我鼓起勇气，穿梭在陌生人中

寻找我认识的人。

我知道上帝是爱我的。

我遇见了两位教会的姐妹。

当我一看见他们竟然会出现这种地方

我吓了一跳。

可是因为时间紧促，

我也没问什么，借了钱就走了。


终于买下了巴士票。

心也稍微安心了。

可是我始终有些犹豫

这么奇怪的地方

我可以相信那位工作人员的话吗？

万一不是这样呢？

我会去到哪里？


我找到了公共电话

从来不记电话号码的我

也不知道为什么会记得他的电话号码

电话通了！

可是接电话的不是他。

是他妹妹。

不管了，我赶快告诉了她状况。

庆幸她妹妹也懂得从那里回家的路线。

挂了电话。

是时候回家了。

当我一转头




我就醒了。









你相信吗？


这只是一场梦。一个夜晚的梦。


一个触动感情，情绪起伏非常大的梦。


存在着那么真实的感觉，最后它只是梦。


人们说，梦是现实的反面。


也有人说，梦是人们渴望得到的东西。


更有人说，梦是永远得不到的东西。


你相信的是什么？


梦，它很美丽。


它之所以美丽，在于它无法长存，无法让人们有机会去保留，无法让人们有时间去珍惜。


甚至还来不起反应过来，它已消逝不见。


不管多开心，多伤心，多痛苦，多满足。


当你一睁开眼，它便是虚空。


你会问我，我对自己的梦有什么看法？



幸福还是不幸福



这么多的情绪包含在短短的一个夜晚里，

我好像也明白了什么，

也好像变得更疑惑。


为什么我会在那里？

为什么那里空空如也？

为什么我会遇到这些朋友？

为什么我的男朋友离开了之后找不回？

他们是怎么离开的？

为什么他会在那里？

为什么要写便利贴？

为什么这么对着我笑？

为什么....


你会这么做。

少年主日！2014

25 May 14 

Today is mif day! We're now 11 yrs old la :) morning went church early, start being zhu xi, so nervous made mistake at very first ah so paiseh so diu lian but suan le la its over. Their performance was quite well :) everyone enjoyed. I got praises from irene bobot them haha. I wonder if I'm really that steady? Well have happy photo taking session. Everyone was so tired at class after that. Me kylie follow huanen went weichee there eat haha. Nice! Then after Kylie left, me n huanen hav deep conversation abt Madeline. Haha I wonder huanen will b our future zhidao anot leh?:3 hmm went home eat then sleep. Woke up watch Thomas cup. Although we lost to Japan by 4 points, it was still a great match, daren liew u did well :) chiong chem n sej until 3am now. Ber was with me throughout the day :) gar yao oh ^-^ god bless everyone of us ♡ have faith!

dramatic sat

24 May 14 

今天情绪起伏很大。was so down laz night becoz mon mad. Now this afternoon I cried hours bcoz they x let me go church rehearsal, plus ber ignoring me. After i read thru the devotion book, it said 从此以后我不是没有人要的孩子, 我是上帝的儿女! This gave me so much consoles. And saw Irene post at fb our camp photo, brought back so much so much memory. Finally i gained courage and faith, once again beg dad to go church, finally was there 5-7. Manage to see dance n drama rehearsal, they improved :) thanks Grace! Thank you huanzong for teaching me how to be a zhu xi ^-^ went home, dad n bro went fund raising dinner, here alone with mon, I diy dinner aka maggie mee with nth. Voice chat with Kylie and Madeline. Then asked ber to help out the songs. Thank you for being my pianist for hours :) thanks for the sacrifice! Love die u ok. So I repay back with 最珍贵的角落 full chorus x) he sais awww xD haha late night go ask donn chem paper 3 kena he shoot lol ookkkk good luck tmr! Everyone gar yao ;) give your best to God! Amen ^-^

happy teacher's day :D

23 May 14 

Hiii today no exam today teacher's day! Papa fetch to sch, then went pmo help out the presents. Oh I saw ber :) sleepy look haha. Too bad it rain so the ceremony wad held in hall instead tapak. Boy gal separate sit but I still saw him! Wad planning to find Weixin to sit together but she ran away TT so I end up with steph, she tied me a fish tail! Yay thanks ♡ the ceremony was quite boring actually, keep singing only, except the diabolo. Then went toilet search with weixin and ate nuggets only during recess because no more food sob and went pmo to do my calendar. He was there :) sat infront him. Well continue zat me la xD kick u lol step on my leg TT constantly zat each other is our routine. Then v went off pmo tgt :) haih if not for jong v can walk out sch tgt leh.. so yup went pyramid after that. My sch shoe fell in longkang TT CRY! had spaghetti bingsu ♡ it was nice! Haha then went spotting prom dress at H&M, found some lovely dress and selfie le hehe :3 well basically it's a happy day, ber was so cute la haha. But then the problem came in. And I no d abt it. I know whats my goal. What's the MUST I nees to accomplish. Good luck xinyi. Okay so tired no care sleep good night love yourself :)

me and him, awkward

22 May 14 

Had physics and sivik today. It was okay. Saw ber after school, I knew it was so nice to sleep :) went McD with jong, believe me, we had nth to talk to. Then during recess he was so mad at me. Since I no go eat at canteen but eat at class. Went home watch 爱上两个我~ recently chat with donn he so funny la haha. Me n jong really.. a crack between us le..

screw exam

21 May 14 

Hi today had bio paper and pjk. I screwed up my bio paper. Should not be so over confident... so sad. I think I saw him once today. Then went pyramid for spaghetti and armor. Today was tiring. Glad day after tmr can rest. Physics. I'm so scared now. I can't afford to screw up so many paper. God bless me. Tired die sleep first!

HAPPY 520 ♡

20 May 14 

Happy 520 ! Add maths paper killed me today. Bleeding with it. Seriously not kidding! My lips bleed a lot when having add maths paper 1. But I'm not so sad because donn cant finish it too haha . Morning went to pmo hall, didnt wake him up hehe to see whether he really wanted my paper, someone made a loud noise n he woke up. We exchanged past years n zat while reading the question. His answers was like pffff. Very late only went back class as he walked with me until the stairs. How I wished rueyping n weizhe not there =3= chatting n doing past year in dk. Discussing abt Sarah's relationship with zhiwei them. I wanted ber's past year, he wouldn't giv me this morning. Actually planned to ask junjie help me take from hin, but junjie say he's at class I shall find him myself. So I very brave xD d went to his class n took his past year from him haha. After recess me n xiao shuien again pass by his class, saw him saw me :P with ugly face blek. After school, he n jong went down at the same time, no choice but to walk with jong. They hi each other, n jong told me tat he x really like ber ._. Because laz year concert ber keep step on his leg lol. I bye to ber :) went home yolo no study in d afternoon, play game nap n arrange rehearsal time. Gahh so many problem zzz then night choing bio, pk is loa le. Opps 2.30am now good night! ;)

blue monday not so blue

19 May 14 

Hi it's Monday and having eng paper 1 only. Was thinking to read at class in the morning but in the end I ended up in pmo room and dont ask me why :) when walking back to class alone the road we didnt talk at all. I was thinking it already been great to see him. Oh but suddenly Pn susan made announcement that Block C toilet is out of bound, he asked me abt it. Further, he comment my 黑夜圈很深 TT but I slept early ytd! He said he went bed on 1 and roll until 2 only fall asleep. Lol poor panda. Then went dewan kuliah to study since they hav accounts. The aircond made dewan kuliah such a comfortable place to sleep. Haha study dao so tired n sleepy la. Then during exam donn so yolo sleep le only start doing haha. I wrote the novel so long lol no time to sleep zzz then the jong ah, everytime very late come down today so early zzz i missed my chance to see his last face =3= then home slacked and slept, read a bit pjk and tuition, and now I did no study haha. Tmr have time ma. A "junior" phoned me just now n I tot is F2 but ber say is F3. How's that possible when F3 would talk so awkward to me? Then ber asked the nu and help me search thru the book and can't find too. Haha I'm gg. Anyway going jiao liu hui and xiao he zou. Busy holiday approaching.

POPCORNNNN DAY

18 May 14 

Hi its popcorn day! So tired now that I can fall asleep anywhere anytime. The whole process was kinda fail cause very messy and some just sit around and chat and slack ): but anyway i had fun! Practice dance was ok, idk how drama will work. Then bobot taught me the canon in D, to play zhi zu :D wah didnt know got such easy way leh! Mom angry i cant get home, follow dad to KL and wait slacking there. Then abt 6 like that only go home. Ya scolding everywhere. Ignore ignore ignore. This morning i cried because she keep saying im so useless dk how to organize only know how to look at mirror where pretty also no use. Walao fine. Not taking back. God will judge for every words you split. When I was really in need, like sad or what. I always find kylie and jong first. Sure enough kylie will b there with me, but I always couldn't find jong. Rather ber was the one who's with me >< haha thank you for giving shelter but puchong so far okay xD

mif practice day :D

17 May 14 

Hi today's Sat. Morning went breakfast with aijia. Dim sum so nice (Y) then went carefore buy ingredients. Went home try cooking~ original was success, sugar was fail, no taste some more easy to 烧焦 >< salt was worse! Whole pot on fire XD then went church to teach dance, and practice for PnW, dont know whether i should play keyboard anot ._. All of us except yinghui so yolo didnt have dinner and continue practice only xD thank god they learned the whole dance! The learning process was very fun when heng n rachel went mad singing and dancing like mad hahaha. I feel so touched when saw everyone was practicing so 认真 (': never in mif before! I'm sure we'll improve d! Thank bobot fetching me back. Talked and gave many suggestions to me at car, hope those can really work out! Getting more and more ignored by ber. Feeling sad. While jong cant cheer me up too. Haih. Should have ended it earlier? But then I'll miss out those heart warming moments.. like that day what happened in pmo room.. let God handle this >< tmr yummy 1.0 gar yao!

why add maths

16 may 14 

Hi I was deadly killed by add maths and revived by maths. My neck was so so pain when I'm having exam ): should have fix it yesterday! Now put ke yokoyoko it hurt so much.. didnt get to see him today ): went home spam fb, slacking and doing church stuff yup. Kinda, miss him? Because i felt so lonely, but what can I do. Naughty me dont wan nap also keep WA jinwen haha. Feel great having mif ♡ with no loneliness with them (: let's work hard tgt! ^-^

love you WKK

15 May 14 

HI IT'S PHYSICS AND BC today. Best paper i ever did, it was quite easy, happy WongKK haha! Then when having BC I was so tired D: went home nap. Haha glad saw him before sch end today, actually i missed his yam smile lol haha. Night choing add maths in tuition, best luck to me tmr! Busying this n that for mif popcorn activity this Sunday zzz hopw it success! Ok good night muah love u both okay

BIO FTW

14 May 14 

Hi good news where I can sleep early while bio paper today was wonderful. All essay question i all read dao whee xD thank god! I was so high gei today where mom bought Starbucks home xD then ber told me he's sleeping before he left me alone. This guy ah pig dao 10pm only wake up haha. Anyway it's 3am now, hope tmr physics good luck all d best to everyone, garyao. Good night :))

you made me fall in love with caffiene

13 May 14 

YOLOOOO hahah omg I just stayed up late 6am! Haha caffeine ftw. Morning woke at 10am . Parents went out pak toh, at home study bio whole day with Nescafe and koolfever. F4 just simply read thru and F5 aim tips. Glad I stay up late this morning, tonight can yolo sleep early! Lalala bio dont care liao ah. Btw good news is I can go xiao he zou! Jinwen n C are trying to let us go penang. Mama also allow me go class trip yay. Okay erm so ya I got slightly fever and now sleeping at 12.30am okay good night ;) play dao 最珍贵的角落 full song complete left right hand! Wooooots xD

busy even exam

12 May 14 

sorry for not writing diary yesterday because of lacking time.. Sunday was very rush- church, class, practice, tuition. Only started sej at night 9am. Was totally tired this morning, sej paper was tough, even when sugumarie stand beside me and point my mistakes, I still cant remember the answer TT Maths was ok. Not having a good mood and idk why, annoyed by jong more. Mayb I was down not seeing B, when I saw him during fang xue, he was talking with mj. Great, mood worsen. Go home watch le one episode of 爱上两个我, okok lo. Then sleep. Night tuition. Walao that ber ah, really pig can sleep so long. Night chiong bio and now it's 6am ya. I didn't sleep at all thanks to caffeine. Not even done F5 haih. Glad tmr is holiday and mom will b back ipoh, I have whole day myself yay xD okay should sleep la, cannot allow anymore failure! Jiayou xinyi!

Third day EXAM

10 May 14 

Hello third day of exam. BM and Moral. Well it was okay. Happily see ber during recess time, thankyou for remembering to help me write name, although u wrote wrongly ._. But it's okay! It's Saturday, went home, mom angry idk why. Nap and go for tuition. First time I ever wanted class to be prolonged. Went home watch Tv and chat. Haha play Snapchat play dao sot le. Me watching Alien vs Predator : Requiem at RTM 2 while ber watching online, haha we both keep damn here damn there, I keep spoiler him, then v tgt scold the actors haha so funny! Never has this fun of watching with jong before ._. Then night I practiced the whole song! Woots hope I can teach them all tmr ^-^ haih no study dao ah TT Sejarah GG liao lo. Recently keep so fren with ber. If u ask what's my feeling towards him I really dunno. Sometimes i care so much about him, keep find him everywhere, if he no reply I'll sad die, but sometime I dont really care abt it. I do scare. I do afraid that I would let the history repeat. But I hold on to what weixin say, if he doesn't have that feeling towards me, I shall just let it be like now. Heard he played 知足 just now. It's nice :) wish I could be the first to listen to him playing the whole song.. :)

Second day EXAM

9 May 14 

Yo it's second day of exam- chemistry and Bc . Fyi, I'm failing chem for sure yup. Dont know why these day, if I got d heart, I can surely find him in d crowd. Today went up pmo hall during recess. Glad he zu dong talk to me when he abt to going back. Haih if only yl didnt appear, then mayb he can pei me back class TT. went home nap, woke up got ochado drink so xingfu ♡ then night only start reading moral n komsas novel haha. Jw out of hospital n went home le, I think she will b back on Mon? Haha feeling so close with him nao // downloaded 知足 d piano sheet, got time jiu practice ba, for him :) ok anyway i sre get slice by jong coz its 2.30 now bye good night!

First day EXAM

8 May 14 

Hi today first day exam, eng 1 and sej 3 . Ya die only la not enough time to finish. Happily met him during recess, and when school end saw him walking out of his class. I think he saw me. And zat me with his sight. Went home very lazy study. Chatted. Haha when I'm abt to lose, I just say ok break up. Lol I didnt expect him to reply "xinyi bu yao zou" awwwh amsong haha. Then when I purposely say mj pretty, he say no. Hahaha that made my day x) chiong le whole day chemistry, guess what, I'm failing for sure. Sorry ber if I wasted ur efforts on me ): but I really did my best.. god bless me

sick yet scolded

7 May 14 

Woke up today and feel like vomiting, went school only knew I had fever. Headache in the morning, after recess I'm so dizzy and slept through Mr Ho's class. Thank God I sweated a lot and feel a lot better now. Yesterday night too hardcore to sapu F5 chem with nescafe. I touched his hair today, he asked me to wake him up, but he didnt want to wake up, okay not my fault. Walked tgt to tapak when WKK saw us and say "bernard don kao lui ah" lol teacher. Basically it was a relief day, can sleep jiu sleep, can chat jiu chat. Went home study awhile and nap. Overnap. These days keep raining. I dont know how should i manage my relationship nowadays. So confusing, I dont know what I want and where ny heart belongs. Sometimes I just wanna run away and hide, go to God and stay in my religion forever. I jusy feel so safe with mif people.. tmr exam le! Good luck ya xinyi ;)

why he keep zat me

6 May 14 

Hi! I slept at 1 yesterday wow so early haha. Purely because I'm so tired after tuition and visit jw. This morning so down, didnt saw him. Jong angry at me. Haih what's wrong with me. Emo le four periods telling weixin my feelings, thank you for listening to me!! T.T bio lab my girls hugged me awwwh so sweet. I thought i wont be able to see him today already until he suddenly pop out of nowhere and nearly get hit by car lol be careful! then go home had spaghetti, I thought i was xingfu enough, but then ber had buffet == he chuan liao me whole afternoon fine. Dealed with chemistry chapter 2 today, hate carboxylic acids! listened to many piano guys' videos on YouTube, very nice! Me and ber are getting well, although today when Sarah said he had someone he like in class I did disappointed for a moment, but who cares, friend like this are a lot a lot better :) stalked in Snapchat, he did Snapchat with mj too. Hah lost to me blek hahaha. Received more n more caring from him recently, feeling happy :) beautiful in white is nice! Okay it's 4am now, best luck to me.

The denggi birthday girl

5 May 14 

Happy birthday jinwen and Sarah! Poor jinwen, kena dengue admitted in Sunway medical hospital. Visited her after tuition, chat for 40 mins, haih ke lian, need stay for one week to check up. This morning sadly chuting walked with me to perhimpunan, I saw ber walking alone. Not quite sure when I think is the period before school end, saw hin going back class from lab, suddenly my heart beated abnormally for one second ._. What's wrong with me. Then school end saw him laughing happily with others girls, and suddenly he turned back and smiled. I'm not sure whether he smiling at me or.. I just pretend not care n continue chatting with jong. Went pyramid alone today to buy Sarah's present and Starbucks. I woke up late today thanks to my alarm n medicine effect! Played Snapchat with friends today haha, Bernard so funny la. I mean so ugly hahahaha. Okay headache le, tmr only hardcore chemistry! Garyaooo

CHEM NIGHT

4 may 14 

Hi I slept at 3.30am today. Why? Haha because ber teach me chemistry :) we talked thru video call via wechat~ IT WAS VERY FUNNY haha. I did learn something la haha but feel so close with him tou made me feel kinda guilty to jong. He starts to care, ya really is care abt me. Feel gam dong oh haha. Morning went church, meeting, that lazy panda woke at 2pm == I installed Snapchat and Skype just for him lol. Running nose, so no ao ye tonight! Prepared jinwen' s present rushly, hope she'll like it! Dont know her fever how le, dk can go school tmr anot. Haha Snapchat with so many ppl, jong actually look lengzai in Snapchat wehh, haha ber so funny lah, apa chuang zhao lol ugly die. Haha ok d medicine making me drowsy, let's sleep! Good night ♡

mif practice lalala

3 May 14 

It's Saturday! Woke up at 2am and played 2048 until 16384 xD then also learned the dance. Slept back at 5 and woke at 10am~ lol ber slept 12 hours xD was having a bad time in d morning. Afternoon went choir n teach dance. Undoubtedly, being with mif friends is the best moment after all. I can even forget about my family, school, work, jong and even him. Haha yolo selfie here n there. First time choir so tiring, need to pull and retain the notes ahhhh. Work hard! Went jojo for dinner and bought ochado. Happily went home and mom bought my purple formal shirt for me. Thank you huanzong fetching me home! actually I WA with during afternoon whenever there's break, haha he say will teach me chem wor. Video call? Sure anot xD haha I just randomly asked whether he had his dinner anot, he jiu amsong liao. Lol I asked because i wad having mine. Then he ask me dont fall in love with him. Lol okay ya ya ya. I was really tired now. Haih wanted to watch starwars and study chemistry but I really can't open my eyes now. I need NAPPPP. okay good night.

very very dangerous

2 May 14 

Very dangerous very dangerous. Today stay le to sapu magazine, but in the end everyone very lazy so x finish. Me write number n Bernard stick label on magazine. Then we keep zat lai zat qu, chat here n there. Listening concert video, spam kuwo songs. I played with ber's phone and saw his whatsapp. I'm the second first individual chat. Lol he also chat a lot with girls of his class. I'm the only pmo. Then he helped me play 2048 and created 4096! YAY XD then everyone start to leave, left me n him alone in pmo room. He off the lights to sleep, very dark at the moment. I continue play 2048 then we exchanged phone to play with other things. Lol he opened my message and ask me my wallpaper, when I show him the wallpaper, he was TOO CLOSE with me \\\ the atmosphere were so wrong lol but I dont think he noticed. Suddenly wenxuan came in, and saw both of us so close, hope she x misunderstood, but she said "不好意思破坏气氛" lol ._. Ber did say this to me "看着眼前这个女的要靠也靠不到" I bet he was joking. Thank you for accompany so late :) although i did have those heart breaking moment when u mentioned about her. I noticed my warning to myself, shall not fall deep anymore. Give me some time, to come back to you, jong..

他主动的一天 ♡

1 May 14 

HAPPY LABOUR DAY! No school no practice no tuition hohoho. Yesterday night I slept at 3 again. I actually set alarm at 5 but it didnt ring or I didnt hear it and I woke at 7 smth to check my phone. Surprisingly he didnt wake at 5 or he did wake at 5 but no on WA gua. Went back sleep and finally woke at 10 smth haha. The moment I woke n open WA he said "wake up so early?" Awwww 又是他主动的一天 ♡ went one U stuck in traffic and had lunch at Auntie One mom got angry and went home, I start chiong bio until night yup :) afternoon chat with pmo people and jong, considering whether going to xiao he zou anot, but ber is x going, but he gave me d motivation, I think I'll reconsider again ^-^ I admit I got jealous n sad when he ask me dont scold ziyun.. and with a smile ): fine. And I went sleep. But gladly he's staying tmr, so please just forgot about that shit n be a happy girl alright! Oh ya Statbucks promotion xD haha must go sapu le hoho

my mood with you

30 April 14 

Yesterday i slept at 3 and today i woke with muscle pain and backache. Went to pmo stairs there sleep, when I woke Ber already walked down. When I walked down the staircase, ber was there waiting me. Asked me when I slept n zat me. The awkward moment when I'm chatting happily with ber on the way to perhimpunan, jong was at tapak there traffic duty. I rush HKC's hw until late night and today he dare skip class zzz. Slept alot in class today, go home also nap le 3 hours. Played chess with bro, lost badly ): night copy komsas n tata. Me and jong's relationship is gaining more tension nowdays, I dont really know why but just feel annoying and frustrated when he talk to me. Jinwen say we don't even look like couple anymore. But I did realize myself that my mood was affected by him. When he replies me at WA, I'll change my mood in one sec to happily cheerful xD but when he dont, I feel like getting depressed over all emo songs. It's not like I'm so hardworking to rush all the hw, but waiting him to online back n reply me. Because i knew he wouldn't sleep without telling. And sure is, he replied around 1 smth n asked me to sleep. And his first "nights" to me lol. Anyway it's 3am now, tmr is Labour day, no school no tuition wheeee ♡ good nights everyone i loved!

跟他一起熬夜

29 April 14 

Hi it's 3am now, you're asking me why aren't I'm sleeping? Because I'm a good student completing my homework. Well basically i can finish it earlier like 1am but the reason i sambil chat with ber so ya haha. I bet I'll be tired die later. Today we had edu fair. Which is quite aimless for me, still not deciding which path should i go. Saw annie yii there at APU booth ♡ then walked with jong around, I was quite pissed because he's somehow annoying. Totally lost in chemistry class, pn too save me TT afternoon went popular sapu books with jinwen using her senior's book voucher. Bought caffe bene - caramel macchiatto ♡ it's nice, not too hot or sweet, 12.50~ haha I wish I'm still surviving when I wake up!

BER

28 April 14 

I'm so sorry i forgot to write about yesterday! Anyway yesterday was fun, teaching them dance and dinner at sg long. Chatting with ber at night laughing like hell haha so kwet la u. We can keep caps lock each other's name until someone pekcek lol, and the emotion chat lol haha. Today saw ber in assembly with a sleepy face, sure la yesterday he 1.30 only sleep. Helped out clean up hall moving platforms and tables here n there. As usual we zat each other but he also got help out me la. Haih he shud really stop starching his arm, it'll make the skin worse. Then we walked back to class TOGETHER haha and he pei me until reach my class. Jong rushed out and I saw Ber just walk away quietly &@(@,:#&#(*@& sob. Posting photos about pmo concert abt 2 hrs, chat with him thru the day and it's really happy. Haha talked abt kuencheng's ppl and suddenly realize our chat just look so wrong // haha anyway edu fair tmr, idk what to do actually. Can someone rich just 养我? Hahaha

CHS PMO 2014 慕桂英挂帅 CONCERT

26 April 14 

CHS PMO 2014 慕桂英挂帅 CONCERT SUCCESSFULLY ENDED! Yay I just did my three songs: 敢问路在何方, 上海老歌串烧, 舒莉兰 ♡ took so much selfie with everyone. I'm very very glad that I didnt quit pmo :') very veru glad that god lead me thru this path, although itself hard n sometime so tired n depressing, but today it had proven that everything worths it! Special thanks to pipa zu zhang chuting of course, thanks for scolding and caring me when I'm so shit keep ponteng practice, and I love my pipa group okay u guys so so so awesome! Then special thanks to my magazine group, great time working with u guys, thanks for giving me the passion to work for pmo, thanks for giving me all those laughters. And what should i say, thank you Bernard. You mighy not know this but you don't have to :) thank you for helping me thru zat me, thanks for all the caring u gave although sometimes it's soooo cruel. I can't deny it that it really because of you, I actually forced myself to come to pmo everyday in the last week before concert, to really have the heart to practice n make everything well. I glad I met u friend. But still your selfie skill == and my homescreen walao, Bernard took selfie with jing cheng and aet to my homescreen and lockpage == but I'm really happy when Bernard zhu dong come n zat me when I'm playing phone "stupid data user" lol haha I'll miss those days when me keep WAing each other ^^ byebye to concert and I love you, and it will be one of the best memory in my high school life ♡

CONCERT TOMORROW!

25 April 14 

Yes tomorrow is our PMO CONCERT! this morning saw him sleeping at staircase, I hugged my pillow n slept at gate. I'd become the person who can go anywhere n sleep everywhere. Thank you my 5S3 for cheering us in concert! Had our almost last chance to work together, the magazine had arrived. We are not opening the magazines to pmo members yet, but we need to check it. He say I too kind le, ask me want to sit beside him so I wont let others see dao. Afternoon we didnt talk much everyone chiong practice, I slept almost one hour thru 2 big songs. Sorry i left my darling pillow at pmo hall! D: I wish our friendship or this kind of relationship will last.. so excited abt tmr! It's now or never! :') thank God putting me thru all this hard work to meet this awesome u, I feel loved, thank you. Although u always zat me :))

thank you BER

24 April 14 

Today's weather matched my mood perfectly. Raining throughout the whole morning because he didnt talk to me. Sunny windy in the afternoon, so fresh so cool because he talk to me xD was playing shanghai suddenly yz ask me to call publisher at 3pm. After i done playing suriram it's 2.50pm, I rushed to cello there n asked Bernard what's the phone number. The publisher's office tel cant call. So end up Bernard calling zihen's dad hp. Hahaha so funny lah publisher say send those magazine to Bernard's house lol. We went down HnG there to talk. He stood in front bakau stand grass there and asked me dont come down later kena misunderstood berdua-duaan. But I say I no wear shoe then he grinned n ask me to come down to the grass == yay tmr v got chance work tgt again ^-^ then afternoon i was so tired n hugging my fluffy pillow, he come n rampas my pillow T.T went home continue whatsapp haha zat me T.T recall back that time at HnG there, he skipped 冬 n chat with me. He say he heard the melody n the song is going to end, I said no. He say I no play also how to know, I said I played before in pipa. Just that zz say cannot out concert not dun hav lo.. then he say he go slap zz hahahaha. Ok thanks for cheering :) much appreciated! Tmr stay until 8.30 ah tired die. Anyway nights! #1moreday

he saw my sleeping face

23 April 14 

3 more days to concert. This morning he got reply, haha no late le. Was actually quite down today because not much interactions. He zhu dong talk, ok no zat me before raptai. "你还没有睡醒啊" lol == do I look tired? Then during he zou at stage we had eyes contact. He zat me too. Ok fineee. Then end liao that time we moving instruments back to pmo hall, he stepped my leg == and continue zat me. So I beated him. I was so so tired. Didnt even wanted to eat I just wanna sleep. 3 hours of Shanghai n chiayin Chuting them dont bother me.. I was kinda in a bad mood. Why? If I say jealous? Haha more or less la. Then teacher he zou 冬. So I went up pmo room n sleep. Oh gosh I slept peacefully until saliva drip at shirt. When I wake up others are sleeping beside me too haha. Suddenly teacher wan play suriram, I blur blur go play lo. Luckily teacher x scold much :P went home exactly 4pm today. Me n jinwen dont bother them le haha. Luckily we managa to get in bus before rain. These daya I really dont know how to face jong.. watched 暧昧 MV, it's so ME. haha haih I hope we can last this friendship. Anyway he accepted my friend request in wechat so we talked abit.in there too. I tell u, his question, is he suspecting something? I hope not. Please not. Then he say he saw my sleep face!! Oh nooo ok I'm embarrassed >/// < he say next time he take photo lol. At night i actually wanted t o practice but in the end spam chat pmo group F5 whatsapp haha and with him too. Told him my problems when I just abt to cry he made me laugh madly haha. thanks, good luck to me tmr stay until 6.30. I really wish he can too.. but /.\

Bernard

22 April 14 

I dreamed my phone confiscated by Pn Susan today. But still I brought my phone to school. Why? This morning 6.00am I opened whatsapp and saw his msg. He say he missed his van lol. Today had full raptai. Went my class n told alwin my attendance and he reminded me of jong. Oh no I didnt tell me I today got raptai hahaha idc. Yongliang n yongzheng was so frustrated keep finding Bernard, until I tell then he'll be late. They gave me a very suspicious look. Haha Yongliang say why he tell u no tell me?! Haha opps. I was finding him all the time too. Idk when he'll arrived. Jusy when we need to go change tang zhuang. I opened the xiao fang door, he's inside. Scare die me. I asked him why x tell cello ppl that he'll b late, he say Yongliang x bring phone, end up Yongliang was actually calling Bernard all the time. Raptai started. I was not that skillful yet. Cant play fast part. Peeking him whenever i can haha. Jinwen also lah Walao, grabbing my view place. Last 4 song I x play I stayed behind and slept. I saw him rushing to cello n db, feel so guilty.. totally forgot abt jong haha I'm so sorry! Was quite down because not much interactions. Suddenly yongzheng say Margaret want meet us. Was scare because what we did wrong n need to change at this time sure kena shoot gou gou d. But I'm happy too because we can work together again :D so we ran in and out Margaret's office n teacher's office. Kena shoot together. Then we're so childish running here n there pushing n scolding also zat each other. When he n yongzheng was going to argue I'll b their middle person n settle them down. When i ask him how he going home, he say I fetch. I speechless, he say I shy le. What? = = finally our job done at 5pm. We walked out school together then bye. And continue whatsapp haha. Haihi really hope it's not 昙花一现 leh.. I will b so sad if concert end, n it will be a really end.. jinwen say we're actually normal good friends, but she say our convo and act are beyond that. But luckily until now no rumors abt us. Yet. Night I saw a video saying "do u see the abnormal thing on plane" I was so curious n I clicked it. A ghost appeared in the end of video. SCARE DIE ME. I hate this kind of video == really really hate horror thing. in 3D. Something really made me hyper today is when I thought haih he wont call me d la, but he called me!! Oh my I was so so so soooo shock haha. And idk why I'm so happy. But our conversation are abt magazine la. Haha yup so that's my dad ♡

i started to notice HIM

21 April 14 

Hi Monday. Today morning i purposely went pmo room, but didnt c u there. Later when going to change tang zhuang only saw u. Teacher play muguiyin so I went pmo room upstairs practice shanghai. Suddenly when reporters came teacher wan play gan wen n i just side readed the whole page. Going down to take photo, u zat me where's my tag == so pathetic that even I'm wearing heels also not even same height with u D: lonely meeeee practicing shanghai, manling ady sleep~ teacher ffk no he zou Shanghai T.T u no stay too. Sien practice until 4pm. Rained heavily haih all soaked wet.. no time nap go tuition so tired zzz habi bought prom ticket o.o I wonder what problem he faced, I hope it's not because of her. Okay good night ler! 5 days left #chspmo

where our problem came in

20 April 14 

Happy Easter Day! Went church with my new formal shoes! To be honest, the dance today are not so 齐 but anyway it's great! After service when I talked with grace n she left me, no girls call me. But when I stand talking with weijun, huanzong liqi n Bobot eventually came. Thank God at lease I'm not lonely! Happy chatting with them ^-^ afternoon sleep sleep sleep. Night i was so disappointed when jong ask me to prom. I never had an face to face proposal.. feeling so sad. Then eventually we argued. I dont wanna go prom. Why? First of all it's a waste. Waste of money, time n energy. Then everyone show off here n there. What I hate most is there people be like "wow you are so pretty lets take a photo okay all the best in ur future hug goodbye" and forever gone. Most importantly is I'll be lonely. U say jong will be there to accompany me? Laugh. He'll be busy walking talking with his scouts, taking photo with everyone. And I'll be left alone at table I guess. Ya eating my plate playing my phone perhaps. I dislike talking, taking photo with people i dont like. More rather anti sosial. Who say "let's go prom together" or "be my prom date" just because they wanted to have someone to take photo with. U say I should go because of best couple award? Best joke ever. It will be ichi n sheebin's. Dont even dream abt it. Yup thats why. I'm not going. Unless i have a very good reason to worth me spending all those money. I chatted with bernie today. Feel sad for him that ruibo ffk n he didnt get a medal. Thanks for cheering me up when I'm sad :) wishing tmr will b better.. shall I avoid jong?

chiong MAG

19 April 14 

Gombak :D hahaha kelian d Bernard kena zat by us today. Pn chan n pn loo work with us today at ed board room, luckily no kena shoot! Me n Bernard conteng paper n paint again haha then Bernard leave to teach pmo, left me n yz chiong the work. Finally we done! Hard copy! Yay! Muahahahaha xD afternoon hezou muguiyin, me n man ling practice together. Then we help junior with their song, I wan taiwan!! I wan competition that songgg! Congratulations to jinwen for getting in semi finals! Night dinner pizza yay xD bought nee formal shoes! Hohoho. Whatsapp bernie. Oh no my tag gone </3 sniff!!

GOMBAK ♡♡♡♡♡

18 April 14 

Today is a wonderful day. Firstly, me n yongzheng wear class tee, the Bernard wear pjk shirt so v boycott him haha. We waited ruibo until very sien then u play "take attendence" to every pmo-ian that passed by. Ruibo's mom fetch us to lrt station. We took lrt to gombak. On the way Bernard keep zat me T.T then when we reached gombak only v knew v should stop at pasar seni. So half an hour wasted, gombak was the last station of lrt zzz I slept in lrt. Haha x dare to lean on Bernard's shoulder. And great job waking me up with your book and picking finger beside my ear == raining, so cold! Then we walked walked and walked. Because I'm not so close to the guys so I walked behind them, then.Bernard scold me say I too short later I disappeared also can't notice me and asked me to walk infront. Then when I walk on outer path of walkway, Bernard scolded me again, say I wanna get hit by car ah, somemore wear red colour later injured le got blood they also wont notice == in the end, we reached pur destination, Bernard n ruibo took their marathon clothes. We sent ruibo to bus and we took lrt to kl sentral. The lrt their very very pack so I grabbed Bernard's bag and squeeze in the lrt T.T sardin like~ we took ktm to go serdang, where our real destination. While waiting for ktm (25mins+) , we talked a lot of 废话 xD yongzheng dance pole dance with the security 棒 at floor, Bernard zat him by saying he should dance a pole of size of the 柱子 (tiang) at kl sentral hahahah! I was so happy when he say I should dance the security pole, but he say it's because I'm as short as it == not because I'm thin LOL! They even planned to flim horror movie at kl sentral lol. Ktm was not as pack as imagine. I sat with Bernard n we chatted some. When we reached our destination at serdang so I go out from ktm, a guy just touched me below my boobs! I was scared n shouted. But I saw it was a look-like blind man so I ran off. Later I told the guys about it, they say they didn't notice i shouted.. but Bernard say if I'm in his class, he would definitely go scold the guy. Later we start our path of 2.1km to publisher office. The path we walking is a Malay area, it's Friday today so a large amount of the Malays are going to masjlid to do their prayers. Because of the incident earlier, I was really scared now then I told Bernard. He let me walk between them to protect me.feel so frustrated when they dont dare to cross the roads == ah, I was walking the way when ahyi popo's cousin wedding there. Whao how far have I walked! Bernard was so nice n gentleman when i told him I'm so tired and my bag was heavy, he helped me to carry it! Without second thought! Owhh thanks ♡ We reached publisher office by 2pm, we are so speechless when the 招牌 of the publisher is so small == so we went to eat pan mee at opposite of office, not bad and cheap. Those really eat alot ._. Then we started to rush our work. Me and Bernard was so frustrated because yongzheng was very into details and we ran out of time. We 发泄 n chat through typing in Microsoft word using sms/whatsapp language haha! Gladly in the end Bernard had his dad fetch him directly from office and jinwen fetch me back at 6.30pm. We leave he office by 4.30pm and me n yongzheng took ktm back to midvalley n bus back to school. Another funny thing happened is when we at KL, we crossed each road very fast between the cars because no traffic light there. Ruibo was left out because he's the last in our row. When he finally can cross, he cross the road like ballet dance == turn n turn! And his reason is: because u need to look in all directions before u cross hahaha. It was a very fun, meaningful n tired day. Although they keep zat me but I still feeling happy because it's caring ♡ you'll b a good man! Ahhh I'm so tired now! Good night :)

brainstorm te kan GG.com

16 April 14 

Today was good friday eve. I actually wanted to go church but nvm! As usual, left class early for practice. Then HKC no come today, so glad because i no study the test hehehe. I didn't really practice today, went office and brainstorm magazine design with yongzheng them. Afternoon was reading manga the whole time, I completed horimiya and sankarea! Nice nice nice ♡ night tuition lo, then chatting planning for tmr. Haih so confusing and scare.. should i go? Or not? But I wanted to go.. without.. pray...

PMO chiong ahh

15 April 14 

Hi Tuesday. Today starting to go out class for practice. Trust me is totally boring ttm. Teacher practice winter today. So me, jinwen, sookyan n a form 4 erhu was chatting at pmo room haha. We played 2048 together :P oh ya my current highscore is 18k wheee. I hate missing class ): then went home completed the heirs! Overslept @@ jong was in a bad mood but at night okay le. Actually wanted to play pipa but the string broke == so I ended up practice dancing. Learned both song's chorus! One simple n nice, another one complicated but fun xD. Tmr chuting n me one on one wow.

this HIM

14 April 14 

Hi. Yesterday i slept at 1am, because chat too long with hz TT . I'm so sorry jong! Didnt keep promise n being mad at u.. it's fun talking to him (: learn dao many things. At lease I know I'm improving! Good friday this week no school yay ♡ but I'm sure pmo will still on zzz ok still deciding whether I'm going or not. My fridge grew longer, it's not so nice now :/ I think la, but bobot that day praised haha. Had nightmare.. maybe I'm too stress abt 少年主日... haha Madeline also had nightmare! Sorry for putting jong in a hard time..

finally mif program

13 April 14 

Yay finally a mif program today! Ze song lead cha jing today, it was ok. I think I'm a bit too sensitive when he say I love you to Madeline, I hope it's really just rumours! Happy day with mif people, working together for mif day at May. Oh my, I'm teaching the dance! Pressure!! Haha pray God give me strength to learn it well n teach them well ♡

it's saturday

12 April 14 

Today was a long n tiring day. Majlis anugerah cemerlang was indescribable boring. Pmo was tiring. Sorry zhuning for dragging u into scold >< night went church for 诗歌步道会. It was nice :) sat with Madeline and talked chated with her~ I hope I x give stress to her >< oh no need to think dance steps TT

hari anugerah cemerlang

11 April 14 

Tiring Friday, I so guai went pmo today :D no late no leave early. But dont know which obtuse person wrote me in late. Finger so pain ah D: successfully persuaded john to 26 April~ haih tmr need go majlis anugerah cemerlang.. then pmo.. night go church >< I hope I wont fall asleep.. habi at camp sure very busy n tired..

it's just life

10 April 14 

Today was ok. Nothing special. Zhiwei absent today hope she's alright. Xinqi's dad passed away today.. so many bad news recently. Don't know why cant access to fairebelle website! Then tmr habi got camp, I FA go pmo, hope tmr not shanghai lah, I masih x boleh TT aiyaaa wanna eat pizza, millecrepe, kindori, drink coffee and more n more! Oh ya the kitkat uncle bought from Japan very very delicious!

luck in the day

9 April 14 

today was an lucky n unlucky day. Suddenly so craving for his hug.. many teacher scolded us today, but there were also teacher that treat us well. Emergency couple finished! Well it was not baddd ._. So addicted to 2048 now haha. Practice shanghai today at home, my left hand so pain TT

2048

8 April 14 

Yay we made up! Haha dont make me angry anymore yoh! Download a new game 2048 so hard to play but easily addicted! Didnt manage to throw the basketball idk why ): then the wan tan mee at singwah was super delicious! Habi today so caring, will pat me ♡ church so much to do zzz crazy @@ concert left 18 days. What am I doing Dx

lucky or not?

7 April 14 

Cried again. Parents wouldn't support me, they wouldn't attend the concert.. heartbreaking.. we made up.. :) Monday was always tired.. friends in school said I had turned cute, donn keep say me Japanese girl.. Susan x catch me, others discipline teacher didnt too. Lucky me..

BANG fringe

5 April 14 

I cut my fringe today, 平, just as I always wanted to. Everyone gave me great reaction through fb, chat, insta, Twitter, wechat. Thank God I look cute and fresh. Argued. Should I do it? Or not. I really dont know. But I know it's sad. In both way.Continuously received big reaction from people in church haha. Thank God I look okay. There's so much things to be settled, mind burst. Dont know tmr wan put fridge or pin up? Hope we are making up..

go away

4 April 14 

Anna Chua, watch your steps. Before i move, you better leave.

faith > fear

2 April 14 

Concert launching in the morning, it was ok. Discombobulated that why no afternoon session ._. Yay the new list out n I dont need to play double bass xD afternoon was quite doom after career talk, i hate it, it make me more confuse about my future.. took Japanese SPM cert n JLPT exam. So I've been having exam every month since now TT yer that him, why say dao so hurt made me cry </3 dont be evil and angel at the same time laaa. Night was so down and I decided to draw the entry. I was quite surprised that it turned out of my expectation very much. The eyes, the hair, the skirt, the body, they are quite balance! I successfully colour it too! Thank God for giving me such good talent where i can relax myself, release stress and my emotion. Felt so happy and shared with ex. Yay he praised duhhh. Let your faith bigger than your fear :) !

April Fool 2014

1 April 14 

APRIL FOOL! haha back to school second day was as tired as ever. Glad not staying back today, went home rest. Oh thank God my purata have 74.36! Get 17 is class yay :D then today pmo video had 1.5k likes 500+ comments 2.5k share! Woots! Sob tmr got pmo.. concert is getting near and near, I wish I really can make it! But I'm so lazy.. at class discussed places to visit at selangor in Dec with zhi wei them. So finally the results is Sunway lagoon and aquarium, out of Selangor is Cameron and Fraser hills I think. But anyway i had gave d job to Sarah, also take this opportunity to teach her how to plan activity :) it's quite grand so I guess I'll guide her all the way. Hope she can become a good planner!

the He who gave me courage

31 March 14 

Back to school. I was so so so tired. Everyone is still sad on the incident happened last Mon. I'm not talking about it anymore. Just.. so glad that he did join christian youth fellowship. God will surely be there by his side. Still mad over him. Maybe i really pms, but still angry. Japanese class was torturing ): test, so many words dont know, wrong abt 20 questions. Haih how to take N4? Raining while they way home. Missing him. Thought of how good and kind he'd being. But until here it's enough, just let it stop and remain at this level. Where we could b good friends, laugh chat discuss normally. After tuition i was suppose to rush essays but don't know why you just attracted me to on fb. And so we chat. And so I only managed to finish essay by 1am TT but it was fun and warming talking to you haha . Thank God for giving me some encouragement when I'm so tired ^^

so many "he"

30 March 14 

Hi today's Sunday aka last day of holiday. I woke up and thought is Monday. Wore black dress (Y) left eye so red ): haha kylie n rong also wear black, heng lazy sleeping no come church zzz just wheb I thought of finding huanzong and saw him pnw. Their pnw very geng leh ♡ 接歌接到很厉害! Weichee drum very got ohmm xD piano also very geng leh, izit Irene? Mif instrument d place has changed, now it look more like a stage x) when huanen fetch me home, we talked abt ze song. So she knew it too. Hmmm not sure whether true or not but just be careful n alert. I think i should keep an eye on others too >< afternoon tired die. Night still going out, gave up doing hw. Just did pmo concert thing and it's 12.30am ady. Okay so good night and hope he talk to me tmr. And hope he reply me tmr. And hope he stay away from me tmr. Yup that's three he. Haha not mentioning! XD

Outing @ midvalley - MIF

29 March 14 

Yay happy day! Huanzong fetch me in the morning to church~ then suddenly say need pnw with myf so practice at downstairs. The piano so nice but very hard to play >< today's pnw was okay, yinghui did quite well in bringing out the feel by talking, but she still not stable in starting and always forget give signal. Esther was ok. Then game start at midvalley. I hope heng no misunderstood that I'm sitting in front at huanzong car. Me being killer so sienz. Ate KFC mash potato, read whimpy kid and drink Starbucks le also nobody find me. At last when go garden only my mission start. My original quest is to find 50ppl and tell them 'jesus love u' . But because of time, I changed it to dance a dance abt 10second xD then huanzong is take photo with movie trailer on board. Had lunch together and said byebye. Then stay at church, changed piano and drum position in mif room, like got more feel le xD do chem folio.. night dinner and chat with huanzong, Madeline, heng, rong. Happy day ended tiredly XD but still thank God for giving me such wonderful day ♡

grey day

28 March 14 

Today I'm overnight at sis' s house. They went back to ipoh. Morning together breakfast at SS 15 n bought breads, the pizza was not nice. Afternoon was rushing sivik project. My nails dyed green. Jong sent me home. Felt his warmth in bus. I guess he sure very depressed to disappoint his parents. Just now last minute outing add le some people, ze song told me he's sick, huan zong ask me think n find ppl. I cant find anyone as Bobot not around n huanzong dont know how to drive manual car. I broke down. At last ze song told me he think he can drive. Hope he can recover soon. Huan zong called me to told me abt that too, too bad my phone hang, he sms me instead. Watched few episodes of The Heirs. Finally remember who is the girl actor who like 崔英道, she's the sister of jihyo in emergency couple. So tired. Sleep le good night.