SORRY for own disappointent

30 Aug 14 

Thank God my dream to Japan is finally coming true. Aijia n luan sis are starting d planning it now, and it will be parent free! But money is a big deal, budget minimum RM5k, I dont believe my parents to sponsor me. And they just showed me why. Again. The selfish woman broke her promise to me to go Setiawalk. Just because she dw to get wait in traffic where v ady half d way. And that uselss guy just listen to her. I feel so idiotic believing u guys after N times being disappointed. Shame on me. Why do I even get my hopes up. I'm sorry ber. This might be the first time I'm not answering your call on purpose. Sorry..

SUGUMARIE MY LOVE FOR YOU = ETERNITY

29 Aug 14 

SEJ PAPER TODAY! BEST PAPER EVER :D love die sugu ♡ I did paper 1 okok only, but structure all really same as she gave! And essay all tips kena! #tgif hehehe tzedonn so funny la keep telling me he wont fall asleep d :P after sch ber show off his installation invitation card to me lol went home watched Studio Glibi d The secret world of Arrietty and Princess Mononoke. NICE I love the Arrietty's song! Suddenly remind me of HOWL ♡♡♡ HANDSOME! haha now my phone got many howl's photo x) at night play xia piano, try to get use to five lines ._. Hmm okay sleep ba lets see later wan wake anot la :)

midnight oil burnt

28 Aug 14

Oh dear I really slept ytd! Berber called me trice only I wake up to answer d call hahaha but I slept bak too :P morning got acc paper so went to dewan kuliah. Berber pei me all d way, since his class at blok d too. Lalala say me pig worr TT cold in dewan kuliah, haih do pass year those question that I left out n teach zhiwei. surprisingly maths paper was ok :D well only 2 question i cant solve d plane n probability gahh D: first time finish maths so faz that I left 1 hr to check answer LOL go home after lunch study sej then go nap ler. Haha piggie overslept n got tuition aduh ._. At night chiong exercise, I can say I GG ler hahaha F4 many dk how to do sobb. Haih my best score is 26 only leh TT die. But anyway no care liao la, I cant get anything in my brain ady. Sleep bah, what had been read ady read, I did my best. Better than vinnie who gave up? Hahaha ok god bless me tmr #prayhard

cheer ppl also need grace!

27 Aug 14 

Okay Eng and Moral paper today was okay ._. After sch get to lunch with dinner. And full of S6ians around us lol. Melvin asked if we're dating zz nahh but I had a fun time. He actually helped me to put the dishes again n v walked out sch tgt. Aiya pass by his sis d class :x then he say he cry bcoz I walk diff path with him n dump him alone ._. Wut? Okay go home chiong sej and I go run 1km kinda regret coz very tired n no energy study at night, no nap.. aiya ber keep fuyan me after lunch time also dk what he wants zzz John cheer me until <200 until <-200 TT HAIHHH anyway tmr one paper only .if he got call I jiu wake la no call jiu suan hmph let me sleep gou gou no diu la zzzzzz

tuesday, i like :D

26 Aug 14 

Happy Tuesday! First day of trials. Bc paper was ok but well slaughtered by BM TT very tired in d morning, so worried that i wouldn't able to survive through exam. But surprisingly I was so energetic after first paper! And I was so high even when I reach home haha. Not much today with ber but its ok, feeling abnormally happy :x good luck to tmr's paper! Oh dear I'm sleeping early XD

HB BERBER :D

25 Aug 14 

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BERBER! haha okay well wasted my time for ur long msg u better treat me well well. Anyway going sch very tired. Hari kemerdekaan with chuting. The performance was ok. Marching was quite entertaining. Class 16 ppl and very boring. Not enough sleep headache ttm. Today, I think I found out smth n quite confirm abt it. He...likes me. I guess. After school, when I busy wrapping board with ck, Yongliang n ber was there too. Then yongliang keep ask ber to go lunch but he just wont move, and keep stand beside d board n play my phone, totally ignoring yl. Then I'm like kinda worry y he x wan eat n ask him, he dw asnwer me wor. Finally done le then I grab away phone n he willing to eat le. After back from lunch, yl gone. Me study komsas he study sej, sharing one table. tired le I jiu sleep in front of him, guess what, I slept so soundly that I liu kou shiu omg ._. Haha feel safe I think :) can feel he just so close to me, 'protecting' me nia *amsong* then he wake me up. Grabbing my hand poke poke poke. Haha finally then he walk me out of sch :) before v also got play la, like snatching phone then poke each other, step leg, kick lai kick qu walao so childish TT haha but it was fun :d I hope d pain killer on him wont allergic ._. Feeling closer to him la, but now exam kenot fa zhan more TT HAIH idk how I shud study novel aaaaa. Die la BM and BC wasnt good either TT god bless me please have mercy

TO BERNARD NG BINHANG #17

Have u ever been so disappoint because u didn’t receive a long msg from a person who is important to u? nahhh i guess u dont ): ppl around u treat u so so so well, what a loved child pffft

All of the moment u enjoy zat ppl very much hor, but sometime u did hurt people u know. Like the pig lo, so sad of her life. She so short also not no reason der..

Please laaa, can u not so late sleep mah, why u still reading this? No. Go sleep. Get in your bed. If not i snatch away your pillow booster blanket, no yellow pillow for u also, gogogo. NO COFFEE

Pig, eh haven’t sleep? Okay la then u continue read bahh. Tbh why u always willing to wake me up ah, then complaint me phone no money ah. U got problem izit. Semua also blame me TT wo hen ke lian leh

Yeeer why u like to eat yogurt? .__. So wa dat leh. U jiu shi so weird d loh, not weird jiu bu shi berber liao haha. I kenot find any other ppl who everyday sleep late but face still so good d TT this doesnt mean u lengzai okayyy, no, never

Birthday present? Ohhhhhhhh, you can go bed liao, go sleep and start dreaming :) have a nice dream, sleep tight! Be the pig u always had to be :D

I found smth weird, why u sleep also wearing ur watch? What’s ur problem? = =

Remember the long to be do list after trials? Sniff u sure forget liaoo.. why did i even treat u so well D: shud i believe u?

Thanks to u, u birthday i also kena they zat TT WHAT DID I DO WRONG SOB. Most innocent award to me please. Imma kill mami for posting that photo, my dignity… TT

Hmm kayy talk abt ur good :3 ehh quite caring? Clever? Pro? Good in run? Observant? Responsible? Question mark coz u treat me too bad. But u always good at cheering ppl, maybe it’s just me, but yaaa :3

Did u notice we actually just know each other since April? .__. In my memory u macam x exist before leh although i in pmo for 4 years le hahaha opps. Aiya kinda sad didnt know u earlier :) but these 5 months also not bad ah, see how 'strong' i became. Heh.

Ahh k la since it’s ur day jiu wei qu me xia say sry to u for what i did, if i did hurt u in anyway. And all those problems that i dragged u in (i don know y too), don’t forgive me :)

You have always been a great friend, daddy, bro, noob, fat, pig. Xie xie u exist in ma life, thanks to ur mama also la then :P u did light up my last year of highschool, abit. Sincerely u made my time in pmo a lot fun, magazine, concert :)

Bernard Ng Binhang. 5S6ians. PMOians. Cellist. CHSians. Unguias. That's ur identity okayyy, don't lose it :) next time v gather back u must still be liddat aa, forever aaa. I know u can forever fat, no worries, still can identify u after graduate. I think

Erm i'm not good in cheering u i knew.. Just if u unhappy don't act happy la, too noob to hide okay. Pity ur twitter, don see d world too cruel, im sure there's ppl there banyak love u okay and ur long long waiting list :) bro here always for u okay! #hugs

Read d every first alphabet of each msg! Don cry hehe :)

! n count d number of msg u received :3

zhuan ti :))

24 Aug 14 

Morning went church and surprised by the game we're playing today haha. It's happy to see that they did linked program with our zhuan ti :D everyone had fun I guess :) too long no practice today kena bobot scold liao ._. 4 songs a week good luck to me? TT afternoon nap lurh. Then wake up finally talk to berber. Hope he's alright ;) whole night writing the long long text msg for him ._. My headache all thanks to him zzz. When I use my phone to type, suddenly it restart walao zz ok fine so I open comp n type. Successfully sent on 00:00 but he no reply. Not even whatsapp Twitter fb. Sien haih. Guess I'm really useless :(

pontengggg hehe

23 Aug 14 

Ponteng school day :) woke up n study at 4am, actually wanted to WA him before he went school. 5S3 broke d record where attendance 5 only xD study sej whole day. Kylie sms me that she saw ber at tuition, sms him he like bu shuang me liddat. Night also very fuyan reply me.. k lo last seen u ): </3 tbh I felt hurt they x find me b pianist anymore.. m I that bad? I m. Just because I'm talented but not recognised. Wtf I'm good in? Not pretty, academic not too good, not sporty, not socialise, not talented .-. NOT LOVED HAIH. God.. did I make a mistake of break up? Tell me I didnt.

he changed class

22 Aug 14 

#tgif although didnt talk much with him today, his class changed to 4S1, by fate, we met behind prefect room after sch coincidencely. N he thought the kangaroo keychain on my bag was koala. Afternoon lunch with sis out at SS15 Good Friends. Very very nice n expensive food. I had cheese baked beef bacon carbonara spaghetti n vanilla milk :3 full die haha skipped dinner. Night 12am++ ber woke me up but ask me back to sleep.. guess I'll wake up 4am later..

feeling and flow

21 Aug 14 

Happy happy day :) morning wake up he say he will be at kanna, I didnt really want to find him tou. Dad even ask me whether i wanna stay home dont go school, but I actually went school because of u D: at van he sms me ler then I ask him wan me find him ah. He say cincai wor so I ask him where is he lo, since morning my eyesight kinda bad ): then he called me ._. Didnt pick up becoz I was in van like will be so awkward if I did. reach that time, he was standing at singwah there haha ask me whether wan eat but I say dont. So we stand there chat, duhh got ppl walk pass by and yam xiu etc but no cares lo haha. Felt so happy la. Chatting with him then almost first bell le, he sent me to school gate n leave :) so I had this happy heart n laughed whole day long :D after sch also, he ask me go die I also lalalala like seriously no hurt d feel haha idk what had our relationship became but I wish it stay like this.. ♡night yz gave long relationship class lol why he so emo, he seems like know a lot abt relationship, but the truth is, no matter how much u know how much u can judge correctly. When loves strike, there's no law no experience no theory would works :) go it by feeling bah

story time with friends

20 Aug 14 

Kinda happy day :) morning ber say he woke at 5.31 haha sure rush rush rush ler. Then go sch ask him maths and he zat me lurh, dui wo hen xiong and kena ck scold haha yay ck ftw :3 no walk to tapak tgt nor sit tgt. But when walking back class v did talk n chuting interrupted ooops ._. Recess went up pmo hall n suddenly he appeared. Talked chatted, gosh jw just shouted Bernard, ur xinyi find u infront of his sis ._. Walk back class tgt n he stayed at my class awhile looking at maths problems. Jw sooyee laughed at us lurh. Today class 22 ppl present, we all move table to middle 4 ppl a row sit tgt haha. All d teachers mood very good today play n joke with us. Then sugu give sej tips n let us watch bola kampung, then S6 some ppl stand outside our class n watch haha. After sch walk out with ber haih gotta stay to wait jw. Very lonely at pmo since nobody staying so went find yien n chat. On way back home jw told me abt mayyee said abt me, my break up case, my fault and jj is better than ber. Feeling sad.. even after so long, I felt so hurted. Talked to a lot of ppl, wenyi, yien, ruey, yongzheng. Ber just touch n go, idw him to know abt this, he doesn't hav to know or worry. It's my fault Idw him kena bcoz of me.. headache le whole day yuan lai I slightly fever. Slept awhile at night n woke up to do hw.. idk sometime do feel hurt n offended when ber liddat talk to me, jiu zat me but by thinking if he really say out orally, in his always funny tone, joking, I feel slightly better.. idk whether wanna go sch tmr or not

ber ponteng

19 Aug 14 Woke up didnt wa him because I'm still mad at him :x he x come sch today but go mbpj library study. Jio me at kanna but I x go heh didnt even reply his last msh lalala. No went pmo in d morning straight sleep at class :3 until pj, means I skipped a period, play hand ball. Still prefer captain ball here! Then class usual. Raining in d last two period, totally disaster when I'm holding Sarah's LKT present with my chem reference book n bottle + umbrella haha. Arrived home continue watch 快乐大本营 then wa berber :3 oh dear dk why I go watch 快乐大本营 - EXO, laugh die me xD haha then study chem one chapter n napped. Sarah actually wa me to go exercise but I didnt manage to wake up TT tonight not so moody ler, feeling better playing piano n do maths. Sleeping early today :) because he wont let me sleep tmr morning TT

chem chem chem experiment

18 Aug 14 

Today wasnt a bad day. Woke up, it's tiring. One or two whatsapp msg from him and off to sch. As expected, no talk no interactions. Perhimpunan with weixin wasnt bad either. Classes as usual, chats with friends. Chem we did an amazing experiment HCL + Mg haha so very reactive, the temp rose to 70ºC + and we even yolo straight away put matches at the opening of test tube containing large amount of Hydrogen gas haha. Indeed a very large pop sound produce! After today everyone's hand kena AgO haha hope it wear off soon. Ber is such a 口是心非 kind of person, ask him wake me up he say no. But later 6 smth wake me up while he walking back from tuition. Idk whether i shud feel xing fu anot but recetly I dont. He's being, overly harsh on me. Kind hurted me in lots of way, but what can I do? I'm the one who allow him to zat me, break my face and heart. Haih..

SUNDAY MIF HIHIHI

17 Aug 14

Today was bit abnormal. Went church panicking because of the bible verse but end up cancelled. Then today zhuan ti, huanzong talk abt emotions. Having fun with Kylie and heng hehe. He poke my cheek = = I look so stupid gah n rong slap him hahaha heng very bad ah haha trick kylie put both side so all kena. After mif v make a MV for Allysa and she so gamdong haha :3 heng zat me shorter than sarah TT sibeh bu shuang n scold him at Twitter but he no reply sob. Kylie complaint to me abt her granny wasting money to buy N new phones ady but dk how to use. Oh dear ._. Evening run run then badminton hehe feel good exercised. At night not productive at all, keep wechat whatsapp Snapchat. Snapchat heng n keep talk to him hahaha why do I feel happy ah whats wrong with me happy abt this care nonono. Control ya girl!

wheeeeeeeee happy

16 Aug 14 

HAPPY DAY THANK GOD :) morning woke up in rainy conditions, how lovely. The weather is windy and cold for d rest of d day, best environment for study. Family out to one-u me home alone with chem. Because havent top up my expired tunetalk, left msg ber 'house phone' n he got my msg hehe. Haha sure enough he have my number and called and suggested to help me buy top up :3 awwh gamdong xiexieee! So without wifi n data, studied chem quite well. Managed to nap in d afternoon for 1hr and I think I'd made a wrong decision follow parents out at night. Went to pastor's sis house and I guess they're discussing my bro. Which was quite distracting me coz i dont like mom overlook at him n forget abt me.. ah well awful dinner. Went home wrapped my books long bought since book fair n it took me 1 hr zz so until now successfully finish chem f5 syllabus except chap 2 carbon rawr. Thanks to clement ruey yz ber wenyi who accompanied thru out d night haha sorreh ah no listen to berber when u so insist me to sleep >< ok 4.18am now nights my beloved ones

WHY HELP SOS

15 Aug 14 

Idk whats wrong with me, no hope, no motivation. Why. Why I feel so lifeless that I can cry anytime. What am I doing. I'm stressed? Really? Idk.. I feel life so hard. I cant do anything, I hope, I just hope. God where are u. I feel so lonely. Being ignore. Last seen. Two days absent. And I hate when u leave without me. Is all u. Can I put it down.. but idw yet.. I dont.. oh god.. please have mercy on me.. give me enough strength n courage to over this. I couldn't save myself from worsen. I'm the worse. Why did I become like this why..

NS NS NS

14 Aug 14

Period pain ish. I think this is the most pain I'd ever had? Bleed less thats why. Slept thru whole day. I think the only happy thing happened is berber wake me up for lunch lo. Haha maybe i think too much, he treat everyone equally nice d bah, not just me. And that take care. And the pizza. 舍不得. All these. Idw take it for granted. Please dont give me hope n snatch it away. Everyone is checking NS, I couldn't load d website zzz ber don wanna check haha. Many pmo ians ady kena ._. In this night, what I'm feeling, I dont really know. What's the feeling of love again? How does the heart feel move? How do u know, whether u like him or he like u or not. I should know, or not?

down down day

13 Aug 14 

Today not happy and idk why. 16 ppl absent and I do enjoy this environment to study. Weixin was so mad abt shanyi today and we girls in our group shared our experience with her. Poor girl. Never knew what she doing around hurting people. Abnormally feeling break down after school but I didnt, x nap either and studied sejarah, went jog. Gosh got accosted by that indian guy again. Ran 6 laps, abt 1km I'm totally worn out. Stomach pain die n straight rush to toilet gah. I hope I get some fats off. Emoji day with ber, idk what's wrong with me. Today see dao him jiu sad le. Haih. Dont think too much, pray for it girl pray.

my poor slipper TT

12 Aug 14 

Woke up as usual prepare to school, his morning msg nvr fail to make me speechless. Sadly didnt manage to walk back with him to class today because yongliang ): at class Sarah x come, talk with weixin zhiwei and gossip a lot. Told zhiwei he call me d thingy, she say she think he start to.. who knows :) after school me Alvin ber ck lunch tgt, didnt get to talk much, awkward ._. Then at pmo play n study, those moments are fun :) but short too. Back home I nap he tuition no talk. Gah my poor slipper kena murder once by chang jian and now jinwen TT berber dont like babies ._. At first he wanted me to wake him up I was kinda happy but his reaction make me sad lol nvr wanna call u again rawr chat with ruey haha study chem 2 sub topic la sure cant get in time but who cares lalala tmr attendance -12

I diarrhea

11 Aug 14 

Didnt go school today hahaha. After i woke up reply berber whatsapp then keep vomiting at bathroom le @@ gah so I slept whole morning, until huixin wake me up for lunch. Super hungry. I vomit out all water and some phlegm. Walao my fren all say me ponteng no go school, I'm not those who will skip school and study lol TT after i done BC essay and went back sleep again. Berber called me in the afternoon and ask how was I doing. Awwhhh amsong ady hehe so care me nom :3 ke yi dont so wen rou ma I kenot xD night went tuition also keep whatsapp berber. Night pmoians there crazy chatting in group and I trying hard to do hw TT end up now 1pm le haha chatting with ruey oh dear so much memories!

he diarrhea

10 Aug 14

Thank God I recover :) but poor ber got diarrhea ): get well soon! Sunday found Rachel and chat with her :3 hope one day she'll open her heart to me >< gah projector gone sob had to see lyrics on music sheet zz today cha jing, aiya Madeline's bf no come haha. Kylie also x come, basically spent mif moment with Rachel and heng haha. Okay I love the over respond on participation of performance hahahaha. Then went home nap. Because of rain no go exercise sob. Then rush chiong hw gahhh. Why last minute got essay to do. Yolo x buat la. Gah so headache now. Stomach not feeling really well sob I hope I'm okay.

midvalley tourism exhibition

9 Aug 14 

Yesterday studied until late night and woke up tiredly today. Went midvalley, breakfast of porridge n soya. Then went up exhibition hall if tourism. Memang pekcek walking with parents, want go but dw ask, what for u come zzz then lunch- McD, my shoe that just bought two weeks ago spoiled TT bought a new one. The style that I wanted for long, God always prepare us for unprepared moments :) went home nap, he woke me up. Haha keep ask me choose whether I wan pillow blanket or bed but I want all TT previously he keep nag me for sleeping late say me noob TT later mom cancel windmill n eat at asia cafe. Felt so disappointed. I feel like cheated. Then mom nag me fron wearing new shoe, dad nag for wearing shorts, i cried in car. Restock my Nescafe, tonight chiong again, hopefully.

I only want..

8 Aug 14 

Woke up with slight fever, running nose and sore throat. I didnt wake at 5.30, saw he whatsapp me say I'm sure late. Awh he do check when I dont reply :3 he woke me up again and we went tapak tgt. Very tired because of the medicine so I slept thru 3 periods haha. Recess time went pmo and he asked whether I'm in the list of 10 pmo prom table, he cares? :D then walk back class stupid jw keep talk to him zzz but he bye me too :) after school stay awhile n chat with koon n Alvin. Form 3s pmo keep ask us what v want to eat for installation haha oh dear fat die me haha awwh ber remember to sms when he was out with his fren :3 went home by Sarah's car n nagged by berber bcoz I fell sick n so I went to sleep. He didnt wake me up ): night study sejarah until now 6.00am done bab 8 yay hehe exex very annoying gah. I only want ber to nag me TT playing 蒲公英的约定's intro le! Jiayou xinyi! Long day ahead opps ._.

pmo prom table

7 Aug 14 

This morning nearly kena Susan caught late go back class. Me ans ber no care still laughing while walk back :3 finally decided to go prom and went find mj with Nicole during recess time. Class as usual, chats, learning. Lol accidentally said abt French kiss now hope the people who cant keep secret could shut their mouth. After sch saw ber walk down from stairs le I no call him instead i just walk on my own. He juz wake up n x wear spec, he didnt notice me until the gate. Go home nap! Tuition was suffering, dk why I suddenly running nose n sore throat. Go home finish add maths hw then suddenly pmo group say wan form a table for prom, so I transfer to their table le haha. Oh he's going :3 then played awhile my new target song 蒲公英的约定 :)

zap yeh zap yeh

6 Aug 14 

Tired die of 2hrs sleeping time. Ber woke me up in pmo hall again, first time shake me. Got my matrics number. School as usual, recess go pmo hall and chat with people, he aren't there. Teach zhiwei permutations until very syok haha after he came my class and we walk tgt to canteen. Many people saw us tgt and yam xiu ._. He also keep tease n zat me while I'm eating. After we done n walk down straight saw jj. I wonder what's his feeling when he saw. Go pmo hall and clean up my rubbish site. That koon keep say my cupboard many rubbish and very messy but no help clean oh zzz then suddenly ber return because gym no open haha zadao so v clean up our respective cupboard tgt. Then everytime he zat me I use the wrapping paper d pole to hit him, but he snatched away n use that to poke me zzz he chor my pillow n phone then play pou = = he keep making the funny hairstyles using bubbles haha after i done tidy mine I went check out Chang koon's. Walao his cupboard got dust zzz then I sat on the chair n chat with him. We two jiu like this behind d blackboard n infront cupboard, the slim lorong. Yongliang poke his head out and laugh on us. Lol haha neither ne or him giv reaction. Suddenly he very soft d ask how was my hand ._. A bit 受宠若惊 haha went home play 2048 and overslept. Finally bought prom ticket from Nicole, cheaper by RM5 but thats good enough TT officially broke sob. Exex keep spying me on whatsapp so I wechat berber haha. Okay so tired now but gotta sej without coffee! Gogogo!

Pn Lee Li Lian's retirement

5 Aug 14 

Hi windy Tuesday. Today half day study half day Pn Lee Li Lian's retirement, after school Scholarship Talk the end. He woke me up at pmo this morning, but CK keep talk to him v no talk ): he sms me to ask whether I'm wake anot leh haha. PN lee's retirement study BIO er the performance was okay ._. After school, fate brought me n chuting tgt again haha. Then went home without seeing him back haih. Hurted my right hand muscle, cant write or make use any power, it hurts a lot. Yongen tried to cure me with her ??? energy but it didnt help either. Go home put yokoyoko jiu ok le hahaha. Night chiong chem, first time studying chem by success, actually it's because my notes kena bring back by zhiwei TT but it actually turn out well! Success explain dao very details ((: but I didnt manage to finish whole chapter TT okay now I start feeling exex n J annoying le (slap myself) haih only can reject nicely lo TT 3am nights! Pig time -(00)-

food poisonning

4 Aug 14 

Back to school with food poisoning ): morning berber x wake me up haih but we got whatsapp before than. Prefect's installation, it should be 38 of them but now only 37. School as usual, chat with weixin :) recess ber came n gave return me my sej past year, er so awkward ): stupid jw la yeer.. after that i told berber i food poison he x care me leh sob then jiu go tuition ler.. afternoon nap very long, ber whatsapp me n that's when i woke up. He asked how was my stomach, awwwh he do cares :3 but I replied with serious typo hahaha. Sure enough he laughed at me. The pain went off slowly but not fully recover yet, hope I get well tmr. I think I should bring smth to study tmr at triple L's retirement.

priority messed up

3 Aug 14 

Went to church on my black dress :) saw Madeline's bf, kai sheng lol quite tall look okay. Then meeting with bobot, he fetch me home :) 还是比较喜欢成熟稳重的男生 aka older than me haha. Night watch transformers yay hehe bee so so so cute nahh :3 then whole day chat with exex lo. Oh dear now situation is I just tell ber I'm sleeping and time I'm waking then he'll wake me up automatically haha. Always call and his voice damn funny one haha. Since when we this close ah ._. close yet not hmm. Suddenly thought of bringing exex to prom oh dear what I'm thinking! Sure miss u after four years! Haha looking forward to meet u at year end! My bear :D :D

KLCC bookfair :D

2 Aug 14 

Happy day went bookfair KLCC with family! Jinwen just morning called me at 9am zzz then she keep spam me gah. Had spaghetti and milkshake for lunch. This will be my first year walking bookfair alone n bought so much books! I spent 4hrs walking two halls and RM120 + dad sponsor RM30 on 7 books! Got one of Jimmy's book yay :D I read his movie one on spot, it's so touching made me cry TT I couldn't get TFIOS ): dad bought new powerbank and it's 10000mAh for RM110 after offer. Been getting really close with ex ex nowadays because of holidays? Hmm doubt? Berber leh? I messed up who's on top now @@

it was supposed to be 2 years now, was

1 August 14 

Finally done my 3 essays hahahaha can rest peacefully le :) afternoon napped very long, ber automatically asked me what time wake up haha. Chatted with a lots of mif people today :D hope to build stronger and closer relationship with them! Staring today's date, my mind keep reminding me something I've forgotten. It's so familiar, but I just cant recall what is it. When I reach home, doing my homework, and it's around past half an hour to 12am, suddenly i realize. It was supposed to be my 2 year anniversary. I did forget abt it. Feeling a little depressed, Snapchat and thanked him for those memories. He seen but never replied. Maybe he had let it go and I should too. Stop caring and minding, it's not mine now. Stop recalling those memories, it's over now.

bye July!

31 July 14 

It's end of July that means trials month is coming. I could say that I'm not prepared yet. Did add maths past year the whole day, believe me or not, I can't complete it.it's not hard, but I forgot many stuff. Midnight doing maths, thank berber n baka pei me throughout the night, helping me solve question :) baka still got school tmr, hope u have enough energy ._. Berber keep nag me to sleep early but caffeine is so strong opppps. Mom just now make me watch how babies are born's TV program, I'm scared ._. Jinwen just jealous to me abt peh talking more to me then her, awwh love haha. Madeline asked me chemistry question this afternoon, i felt so defeated, I can't solve a equation question... Starbucks have new flavor and it's TIRAMISU ok I'm sure gonna go for this!

just a day

30 July 14 

Typical holiday mood on haha. Parents back to work and me back to sis house. Usual routine: play comp eat nap go home. But today I very guai did eng essay haha but I no use baka gimme d points opps ._. Not sure whether berber woke up late or what I didnt check on it ._. Nothing special happened today. Suddenly kinda concern abt my committees, hope they doing alright. Madeline haih idk how is she le ._.