神爱我的家 ♡

30 Dec 2013

昨晚跟他坦白了我的过去，谢谢他没有因为这样而嫌弃或看低我，依然那么的照顾我 :) 当我一说完的时候，发现身上的压力真的少了很多，整个人也轻松了。谢谢主你派了一个那么棒的天使在我身旁 ，那么细心的照料着我 <3 昨晚我睡得很香 :) 今天检查了Kylie和Heng的报告~他们都好厉害哦!根本就不需要我的指导,哈哈我可以放心的让他们去做了~ 闷到跑去找嘉雯聊天~她也真好笑的xD 睡午觉后醒来,整理电话里的东西。晚上就把电话给format掉了 >< 好舍不得我的sms哦.. 哈哈不过电话现在超快的,已经是神速的境界了 哈哈哈哈哈! 可惜我的candy crush要重心玩过 T.T 今天下午睡觉时发了梦,我梦见自己在一间屋子里。然后做着平常我做的事,只是有一把声音一直在诱惑我。要我去做上帝不喜悦的事,告诉我就算我做了也没关系的。我脑海里一直被那把声音给控制住,正当我在要经不起诱惑时,我的闹钟响了,我醒过来了。感谢主!他看顾了我。让我脱离了诱惑! 不做罪的仆人! 我相信靠着上帝,我一定能战胜一切罪恶,成为能够荣耀他的儿女 :) 感谢上帝也一直的派天使在我身边照顾我 ^^ 最近跟妈妈的关系变好了,真的很开心! 希望能一直维持下去~ 当妈妈说她在新的一年想献上更多的时间给上帝时,我是多么的开心呀!! 感谢主你那么的看顾我的家 <3 晚上就和妈妈做了JELLY给明晚的倒数活动,希望会好吃咯~ 哎哟,希望我真的不会爱上他啦 D: 不是他不好,而是我更喜欢现在这样的关系~ 怎么办呢?主啊,你一定要领导我! 让我知道你为我预备的人是谁,好让我晓得你的旨意 (: 愿明天是开心美满的一天,一切交托仰望给上帝,相信你会赐给我最好的!

Red Carpet之我坦白了

29 Dec 2013 

今早起来好累…不过还是赶着去教会了。冷气还没好，我在忙时一直一直流汗 >< 谢谢john帮我扇风 :) video 我打错了 >< 1995年啊… 感谢主今天都很顺利～都准时散会 ^^ 希望嘉雯恩盈玮怡能有个难忘的回忆 <3 之后佳骏和Irene就跟我谈感情的事，弄到我好stress.. 在车上就开始哭到回家睡觉…之后晚上跟John坦白我的过去，我突然松很多…愿神继续带领我以后的脚步，一切交托给主。我相信我不孤单！:D

OD + Paradigm

28 Dec 2013

昨晚我很早睡了，妈妈生气，没办法 ): 今早去了华乐OD表演，算了吧，不说了。我知道自己很烂，又断线，真是倒霉够了。原来我在别人眼中都是懒的…当xueying那么说我的时候，我真的hurt到了。我只是奋斗在不一样的道路上，你怎么就这样标签我呢？): 不跟他们去吃午餐，宁愿自己回家煮maggie mee. 哈哈 John还问我为什么不叫他载我回，他刚好也在外面吃。晚上出去吃饭然后去Paradigm Mall。 一天内我竟然穿坏了2双鞋子，我太厉害了。就因为这样，我又买了2双 xD 之后妈妈还买了Mille Crepe！很好吃哦~ 回到家就一直在赶明天的东西，终于做到3.30am做完了！感谢主！我还以为会到4点…第一次，John撇下了我一个人。不过他在睡觉前又说了那3个字，我真的不懂要怎么反应就当作没看见跟他说good night罢了.__. 谢谢欢悦陪我到2点~ 大家都辛苦了。希望明天会是个大成功，可以为2013年画下完美的句点！一切交托在主你手中，愿主你看顾明天的活动。

year end meeting

27 Dec 2013 

Yesterday I slept quite early. Today went church meeting whole day. Thank you John for fetching me and bought me breakfast. Meeting was fun (: I hope the new secretary can do their job well. Then our new zhidao is huan zhong. Met new pastor today, he look lively, rumors say that he very care about myif o. Our zhuti is POPCORN and zhuanti is suan tian ku la. Meeting ended late today, which is 6 smth. Bobot suddenly play missing so John had to fetch Kylie n Heng home. We went wrong road, traffic jam, rain, so I arrived home very late by 8.00.. Thank you John for fetching me this late. Mom was very mad.. I'm so Sorry.. I wish everything will be okay.. please look after me, my Lord. As I seek for your concern, please guide me the way and give me strength.

his kindness

26 Dec 2013 

Last night I slept at 3.30am... I totally regret it when i woke up early today for add maths tuition. But this was the first time I do add maths until more and more energetic xD watched wedding diary 2, not bad (: the baby so cute o! Mom brought me and bro to bank to update IC. enjie got 30,000+ .___. X nap today, busy about tmr d meeting. Our new zhidao, huan zhong xD and maybe enmin o.o then jiawen in fb like keep asking me "when together ah " jojo also ask me that "r u going out with my bro?" Luckily Kylie still protecting me T.T last night he made next cry D: he said a lot, then like I feel that life is so cruel. When u grown up, u had no choice but to separate. Some more next time he get gf le sure x choi me le d T.T then he say he won't, won't leave me alone. I don't trust that.. surely guy will prefer to be with the one they loved rather than me this little girl right? Then he said " I love you.. Won't leave you alone de.. Especially zhi sheng zhi mie..Mei yi ge li bai dou hui kan xia ni :)Hai you.. Hui mo mo de kan zhe ni :)" then I cried.. I know it will be really hard for me to be back to my life but no choice .. Thank God for giving me such a good memory in 2013 (: I will treasure what I have now! Hope tmr won't kena bullied too much .___.

White Christmas ♡

25 Dec 2013 

Merry Christmas! Hoho last night was really fun (: played too high and so tired until today can't wake up .__. So I wore the white dress aijia bought me from Hong Kong, suit me just perfect! Haha Kylie n John also wore white as told x) surprisingly heng also wore white! then We myif was asked to give seats to new comers n elders, so v went up 3rd floor. Chatting in a room. Then I jiu explain le wen shu d thingy to Kylie n heng. Later me n Kylie went to play piano n guitar. Then John came n Kylie left, so v two play together. I really no get those Christmas songs, they are so hard to play .__. Then simeon came in n said "got ppl say u guys are going out " me n John are like laughing sarcasticly. Then simeon say again "I think so too ". Right, We ignored him. Then everyone went to lunch at restaurant. I'm so lonely Because nobody sit near me ): I'm so jealous of myf them who sat together, the whole lunch I'm just keep sms Kylie n John. Went home slept and had a funny dream. I dreamt that me n John in a room, sitting on bed n chatting, I forgot what We said, then parents like ask me to bring jong to meet them, idk what to do so I went back n ask John. He forced me to call Jong n I forgot what happened next. Another scene is I'm in John car n idk where are v going. Night We went pyramid by foot. Dinner at Sakae sushi. Bought stuff and so on. Went home rush add maths n red carpet thing. And it is 2.45am now. Thank God for giving me such a wonderful and busy day (: wish me sweet dream!

Christmas PARTY

24 Dec 2013 

Happy Christmas Eve! Haha just went back from Christmas party. Thank you John for fetching me (: when he came to fetch me to church, We got lost in cheras, then through waze We found our way out. Haha then shun bian buy le Starbucks xD thank you! I thought I arrived very late le, then I only know that they delayed the practice time to 6.30 .__. So me, Amanda, Rachel, allysa, Sarah n John help them prepare the balloons. then they went to pasar malam while me n Rachel practice PnW . Haha myf d ppl all very sot xD the games was OK, first is the name bingo that played during zhong bu camp. Then passing ball to decided who names. I was forced to be punished == pulling ears hahaha. Then close light find fire, light up own candle. Find a balloon then take the paper with number and find present. Thanks God I get a box of facial mask xD hohoho then rong got my present .__. Walao why he so geng one.. so the party ended with group photos. Last year's was more 刺激～this year is more towards 感性～well anyway i had a lot of fun ^_^But there's also things that ruined my mood a bit is that jong was mad at me for not replying him, whole I ady told him I no bring my umobile. Then he was mad I say lonely at fb n John go comment. So what if I'm really seeking for concern, can't I? My world can't be only you. You say u trust me, But u don't mean it. I hate it when u say u don't trust other guy. I trust everyone of my friend. I'm so mad that I spam John d line again, paiseh. Today so so so tired Oh~ last night I rush red carpet thing until midnight. I hope I can get it done asap... and I found that, I'm so easy bullied .___. ANYWAY, MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!!

my precious

23 Dec 2013

Hello :D So it's Monday again. Yup Monday blue. I just wrote a post about stalker this morning haha. So basically i spent my day in front of laptop, chatting with guys. And also at twitter I'm actually kinda worry because John just said "my precious xinyi" and I scare when Jong saw he will T^&%!%_#?<>!_#^! ya .__. and jiawen saw it then she like "i pass by, you both continue" walao .__________. ok fine. so I took nap and had a stupid dream, i dont know whether is a dream or my imagination but I just saw ernying took my place again T.T sob. Then he comfort me say tmr he only fetch me so dont worry haha. Tomorrow Kylie no go T.T I'm gonna be lonely I guess. Well, when huiyin just back her mood was like volcano so mad, and somehow ordered me to move away. Chill, i done nothing wrong to you alright? Looking forward to tomorrow~ I wonder dinner how a .__. Guess i should think less about it. Tomorrow have PMO zzz well, good luck to me! I wish i have a brother too, big brother. 

i know i have the potential to become a stalker

Okay I'm so boring here so i decided to stalk the person I'm currently closed to, John. Ya haha very funny right? Okay so, I started with LINE. I installed LINE in my laptop, so it's quite easy viewing but not much decoration. Then I went to his home and check up his previous post and stuff. Well not much there. Mostly posts before his SPM about he's tired and so. There's one post which is "I'm LONE" or what so funny hahaha. Okay so I went up twitter and saw his tweets. So it was quite likely he was not so lone yoh. The conclusion i get is, he was quite Bobot type oh hahaha! Although i did mentioned to him before but he say he wasn't. He said he don't have so much girl-friend like Bobot. Awh, is that true? Haha I saw his tweet like, um i don't think he's flirt type la. Just being kind to everyone. But I dont know if he realize his kind wad quite bit over .__. and i also found that we actually talked before hahaha! I thought we never talk before :3 ya he did mentioned he has friends from other country which all is girl. I'm not really interested in that, cause i have to == know that situation. Well, just need to clear my brain up that he is just BEING KIND. Yes and nothing more than that, at lease to me. I saw one of his recent tweet about "sorry for what I've done but I promised I'll always beside you.." at first I thought he 失恋 or what ._. then he told me he was apologizing to me. Then in LINE his status is "I'll always be there by your side~" If that you/your is really me, i would be really mad you know ._. because to me it's sounds like a promise. And when promise unfulfilled, it became a lie. That's why. But of course he has his own life too ya. So i guess for this time being I just mind my own business until he get bored to look for me again. Anyway we're meeting tomorrow too, just tease him tomorrow hahaha. Well, because of so, I'm talking really really less to Jong. But he doesnt seem free to talk to me either. Talk awhile, offline. SMS awhile, no reply. How you want me to continue a conversation like that? Oh no i just thought about being single again. Did i have a dream today? No i think, or i cant remember. Just what the he's busying == ya both of them. Sometimes I'm quite lonely. But when I'm seriously busy, everyone came to find me and talk nonsense .__. dont joke with me! nowadays guys are a lot harder to understand le == Well, yesterday night we chat again, erm as usual. I mean me with John. Then we are like planing schedule for this week d transport. Ok so it's settle then on 24, we need to have dinner before party so, I think we'll eat together somewhere. He asked me to decided, but you know me, I'm bad at d deciding stuff so we ended up, decide later. HAHAHA that's so mainstream. Then on 27, which is meeting day. Need to have breakfast too before we go, then he asked me what to eat, I just said McD because it just came into my mind haha. Then i told him just give up that idea because if we need to go buy we need wake up earlier for it, which i most reject. Unless he buy for me before he came and I eat at car. Oh no he did take it serious and agreed == although seems a bit bu shuang haha. I hope we wont be late for that .___. I just remembered need to bring the report files for future secretary. SOMEONE REMIND ME! When i asked John about his account he like so no mood .__. huh? why i dont know. Guys. Haha ok can you see? I do have the potential becoming a profensionall stalker ;) i wonder if CSI wanna hire me? LOL

Christmas Performance :)

22 Dec 2013 

今天是福音主日！也就是表演的日子咯～原本闹钟调好了6点的，结果竟然没响！妈妈7点摇我醒时，吓死我了！刷牙冲凉换衣就走了。早上啃了面包后就去了后台，看到Grace在为铃鼓的忙～他们真的好漂亮哦～小孩子也很可爱 <3 我们青少团的只穿camp tee然后男生set头发女生绑马尾。heng n rong set 了头发后很成熟叻，有korean feel haha. 第一场表演ok～意识到了台很冷 >< 借了John的衣服，谢谢哦 :) 第二场时我出错了 >< Annie也有紧张到做错了点。慧贤更好笑，跳到一半祙子被rong踩掉了！不过他也很专业的在我们乱拍手走位时用脚拾祙子然后塞进裤子里哈哈哈哈！之后我们就到外面拍照聊天去～牧师弄错了～我是坚信礼不是冼礼哦～不过被水淋三次还蛮好玩的呵呵～之后上少团跟佳骏练琴～YAAAAAY!! John 可以载我hohoho～可是我都觉得很怪叻，他父母都不反对哦。回家吃汤圆咯～大家冬至快乐！怎么一睡醒家里的气氛就不一样了，妈妈怎么生气了 ): 也不知道怎么回事…好吧！讲下他吧～我昨晚发了恶…他竟然对我做出了在行为上很过分的事…不过我相信梦只是梦，它不可能会发生的！昨晚他竟然说了"love you :P hehe "！但我认为他是抱着玩玩的心态啦～哈哈 你觉得我们有可能么？;) 不知道哦～～

Comic Fiesta

21 Dec 2013 

Today went comic fiesta! Actually I'm kinda regret going, I feeling quite sick because of period n I'm not really attached to anime recently. Phone battery went sot this morning, only managed to charge 30% before I left home. Long queue in KLCC. The air-conditioning is quite cold inside, making me extremely unwell. Glad I wore a jacket. Crowd people, many stuff to look at. Going back was a hard time, dad shouted at me through phone. I'm so scared in the crowd alone with my low battery. I wish he was here. Rushed back home and rushed to fetch Kylie. Glad my phone managed to tank until the waze lead me completely to her house. Watched mom drive manual car, no get haha. Chat with John about transportation problem, glad mom willing to fetch me tmr. I really wish I could drive, I caused too much trouble for bobot, huanen n John. Why church is so far from my house T.T suddenly don't know why talk dao car, I say next time John fetch me I sit roof or boot. Then he this don't let that don't let. So I say I sit at enjin there la. Then he say sit beside him or not his lap == then I mentioned my wonderful childhood memories to him haha. And he say I cute == argh! Dad just don't understand or appreciate the hard work I don't for Christmas performance ): sob. Thanks John for not throwing me into dustbin hahaha.

Promise

20 Dec 2013

Yesterday night I cried a lot, and yet I still dream about you. I dreamt you apologizing to me, and I cry. Well, dream was something never real, you'll never get. I ignored every single message from him. Line, Facebook, SMS, twitter or anything he could find me. This morning i had stomachache and feel like vomiting. Thanks mom for fetching me home :) I slept through the whole morning and found I had period. My stomach still hurts. And everytime I'm sick, it rain. I decided to talk back to him, because I dont want to waste our friendship on that stupid thing. But. Not close anymore. I pray to get well for tomorrow. No rain too. After Comic fiesta i need to rush back to church for practice. May God pan for my steps. I just hate people who couldn't make their promise.

Midvalley with MIF

19 Dec 2013 

Last night practice was fun. I talked a lot with huanen. Haha We talk about bobot n Annie. Haha so just keep it a secret for now. Then today I hang out with mif. For the first time in my life I walked myself from mi2 's house to the bus stop near my house. Thanks God I'm not robbed. Me and Rachel went to play 大头照. It was so fun n bring back many memories. Then v went lunch at pizza hut. Haha and v called every mif who take their pmr result today. Madeline was really great. Then we went for movie, Hobbit. So cold at cinema, the movie was nice (: then dinner was porridge. Thank you John for fetching me home. I was a little disappoint.. But that was my choice, I can't say anything. I think Carmen n bobot was laughing at me. 欢恩的感受我今天体会到了。当你好朋友跟其他人很好的时候，那种自己被孤立的感受…那种当我真的有需要有困难的时候，被无视的感受…真的好讨厌晕车…每次一伤心我就习惯的这样折磨自己，让自己痛，感觉到那真真实实的痛。这样我才会记得自己有多傻多蠢！难道你真的相信这世界上会有真正懂你关心你的人吗？别傻了…连我父母都不是，还有谁是！主阿，谢谢你让我清醒，让我看得明白，让我跌倒，自己学习站起来。谢谢主，你给了我美好的回忆，痛苦的经历。

here i'll stand and here i'll stay

18 Dec 2013

Yesterday night practice was usual :) Glad mom allow me to go on Thursday! Thank God for making this plan for me ^_^ Then i decided to prank on John, haha and I SUCCESS! He was so easily to be prank haha xD Then i slept very well that night. Except. I don't why I woke up in middle of the night and shiver in cold. But i fall asleep back. This morning i spam 100+ message to wake him up hahaha. Here i wanna say sorry to huan en to trouble you fetch me go and back >< and dad.. I'm.. so disappoint ): that you give up on me for your brother.. then i was disappoint to Kylie too, she just don't want to make it to the outing, or she afraid to. But I can't do anything in the end to help her. I've troubled so many people. Then i went bath and cry. Frozen cheer me up and gave me strength. Thank you God for cheering me up through this wonderful movie :) We decorated the Christmas tree today, it was very pretty ^_^ Thank you John, for everything you said to make me move on :') I will let it go, make a place where I'll stand and stay :)

Let it go - Frozen

Let it go, let it go

Can't hold it back anymore

Let it go, let it go

Turn my back and slam the door

The snow glows white on the mountain tonight,

Not a footprint to be seen.

A kingdom of isolation and it looks like I'm the queen.

The wind is howling like the swirling storm inside.

Couldn't keep it in, heaven knows I tried.

Don't let them in, don't let them see,

Be the good girl you always had to be.

Conceal, don't feel, don't let them know.

Well now they know.

Let it go, let it go

Can't hold it back anymore

Let it go, let it go

Turn my back and slam the door

And here I stand and here I'll stay

Let it go, let it go

The cold never bothered me anyway

It's funny how some distance makes everything seem small

And the fears that once controlled me can't get to me at all.

Up here in the cold thin air I finally can breathe.

I know I left a life behind but I'm too relieved to grieve.

Let it go, let it go

Can't hold it back anymore

Let it go, let it go

Turn my back and slam the door

And here I stand, and here I'll stay

Let it go, let it go

The cold never bothered me anyway

Standing frozen

In the life I've chosen.

You won't find me.

The past is all behind me

Buried in the snow.

Let it go, let it go

Can't hold it back anymore

Let it go, let it go

Turn my back and slam the door

And here I stand, and here I'll stay

Let it go, let it go

The cold never bothered me anyway, yeah, whoa

(Na na, na na, na na na na) [x4]

Let it go

Na, na, here I stand, let it go, let it go, oh

Let it go

害怕爱上你

17 Dec 2013

今天我一醒来，第一个想到的竟然不是他。因为做噩梦，我很害怕。我需要人疼。有时候一直对自己很疑惑，是不是真的喜欢他了？当Jong问我，我是不是不爱他了，我竟然不知道要怎么回答他。那个他就是那种告诉你他饿了，我说我让你咬，他会回答你 “你是我的宝贝，不能吃” 天哪，难道他都这样跟其他女生讲话嘛？可是他不像是那种Playboy哦，外表啦。他真的是个大哥哥，对他而言我只是一个小妹妹。我有感情问题，就在LINE spam他跟他抱怨。每天晚上他吵着不让我睡，隔天早上我就吵着要他醒来。好像不懂什么时候开始，我们会开始等对方。晚上我在教会有舞蹈练习，他会等我回来。下午他有事情出去，我会等他会来。有时候总是很大胆的说想念我，不知道是玩玩的还是什么。有时候会玩玩的叫我baby或princess .__. 刚刚他一直抱怨说我家很远，我就说我搬去你家隔壁longkang睡咯。他说不要很肮脏，直接搬去他房门隔壁。我就讲等下你有抱怨没有位，我去屋顶睡更好，免费自然冷气。他说去看星星啊。我说现在天天下雨，哪里有星星看。我说下雨多好，哭了没人看到。他说他会看到。他叫我在他面前不要逞强。我只是傻傻的笑了。一开始我告诉他，明年你一上大学或做工了，可能就会很忙，到时我又孤单一个人了。我只是抱着玩玩的心态说，没想到他回答我 “我不会丢下你一个人的” 我吓到了，其实真的感觉很温馨。星期四的outing他真的没有必要载我，他又不会路有可能会塞车，可是他还是选择了载我，真的很谢谢你。我希望，你对我的这些只是关心，真的没有其他的意思 (: 因为你对我真么好，我真的很怕我会爱上你啊 >_< John

bloody dream

I was in a cold room, a big sized bed. I was hugging some fluffy pillow and turn turn turning around. I couldn't sleep, I was waiting and thinking for something. I felt sad. The door opened, a woman came. I was brought out of a house. The scenery outside was stunning, beautiful. It was near the sea. I was probably in a holiday village. The woman brought her daughter and we went to a seaside roofless cafe. I saw the sea, clearly shinning blue. It was so peaceful. Suddenly the woman picked up her daughter and put her into a bowl. Her tiny daughter fit well inside. Then she pushed her to the sea. I was shocked. What were she doing. The bowl with the little girl float and float towards the sea. I panicked and stood up. But the little girl seems like haven't realize what's going on. She was smiling so happily. Then a big ship appeared. A pirate ship. The little girl saw the pirate ship and stunned. At that moment, I felt the little girl isn't normal. She pulled out a knife and cut down her left hand. I screamed. The sea was dye with reddish blood of a little girl. Before I came back to conscious, I was in a weird old worn out place. There was a tiger tied down. I saw stairs. Wide and high until I couldn't see the end of it. I saw that little girl. But she's not a little girl anymore, she's now well grown up. And became a guy. But what doesn't change it's the smile on her face. The moment I woke up, I was in tears. I'm so terrified I just wished to find John to talk to. But why?

团长

16 Dec 2013 

今早去华乐好累哦～原来左边肩膀黑青了，难怪那么痛～谢谢Jw的纪念品～回到家赶快吃了午餐冲凉睡觉～之后欢恩载我去教会～今天练完整首歌了 ^_^ 谢谢佳骏载我回家～ 在车上他跟我说了很多，教我一些做团长要注意的事项。他说团长有2种，一种是manager(比较硬，什么都要全部到位)，或leader(会以别人的角度思考事情，比较柔)。而我觉得自己做不到硬，所以应该是走leader的路。但他也告诉我要坚定自己的目标，不然就很容易被欺负。团长就是教会与少团的中间人，有什么事情都可以吩咐下面的去做，但如果有仼何问题困难或炸蛋，都是团长第一个去挡。佳骏说，我愿意选择并接受这个工作，证明我有一定的信心和勇气。关于欢悦不想来开会的事情，佳骏劝我找她面对面谈。试看去了解别人的立场与感受，让她不好意思拒绝我比起强迫她会更好。佳骏叫我试着去观察每个人的弱点，这样可以更了解大家。谢谢佳骏教了我那么多～回到家爸爸好像很不开心，问我谁是少团指导，为什么要常去练习，星期六或星期日练不就够了吗。我怕他会找指导麻烦就解释给他听，说舞蹈不像唱歌不是一天可以练完的，就算一天学完却不记得也是没用的。爸爸听后就没有跟我讲话了。我把我的问题告诉了John, 他说爸爸也是因为担心/关心我才会这样，鼓励我说一切都会没事的。谢谢你John (: 

发现

15 Dec 2013
今天忘了穿camp shirt!! aaaaaah D: 在少团用Line对John呐喊中…与牧师上课，教导我们洗礼后的生活。在少团里猛拍照～然后录video讲感言。我学会了弹guitar d C chord & F chord xD 之后当我学钢琴时，John 帮我伴奏guitar, heng 就打鼓，谢谢你们！发觉自己最近都跟John很close, 有种对不起Jong的感觉… 最近rong也很奇怪～慧贤叫我不要想那么多 >< 当jw call 我问眀天要不要去华乐的时候我很害怕，我不知道要以一个怎样的心态去与他们相处、去面对这个世界。顿时有这种想法：如果全世界都是基督徒就好了。慧贤之后开导我说，如果是这样，那这里不就是天堂了？我突然醒悟，感谢神因祂借着这句话让我明白到，传福音就是我们的工作！

outing之环游世界

14 Dec 2013 

Today is a very tiring day! Yesterday chat with John until 1am then sleep le. Thank you John today help me sew~ 一开始我们得跑按摩石5圈～PK输了还要再跑过 T.T 之后就start running man ~ 我，John and Rachel 联盟～恭喜我在最后找到复活卡。我和Rong到最后互相残杀～最后他赢了～End 了后，去吃McD, 回教会～ 睡了一觉然后跟他们联天～之后去佳骏店和The Store 买for mif red carpet 的礼物～谢塮John hahaha 我买得很开心因为不用出钱～之后也谢谢你愿意陪我走那么远去吃晚餐～真的几像date下的 哈哈哈哈！之后就练舞然后回家发现好多新衣！好幸福 <3 在outing时我有注意到rong对我好像特别好，他说了“心怡我会保护你的”和当我累得倒下休息时他就拍拍我的头。可能是我不习惯他的主动吧？慧贤叫我不要想太多～ John 也对我好好叻，帮我拿bag, 陪我到那么夜～很谢谢你们，我今天玩得很开心～愿神让少团能够永远那么和睦亲切 <3 我爱你们哦！

care

13 Dec 2013

Yesterday slept at 3 haha. Chatted with John till late night. Oh no we chatted so much he even know my secret le! Haha, but I also know the secret he hiding lol. Arthur say his observation: Rong - A, Me - girl, John - B. So it's like, A likes the girl but the girl likes B and B helping A to like the girl. HAHAHA can write novel :P but i no feel Rong like me wor, just because the angel activity so he treat me nice ma. But John say got wor. Haha no care la, I'm okay with it d (: me and John can be good friend le haha! Hmm, Kylie say John is a cool but gentle person, at lease he will take care people la. I agree d, he really care me a lot ya. Today went PMO then practice and play, then go celebrate with Jong. I even changed as he requested. Wore the new dress I bought, not bad (: quite nice~ Then we had BBQ Plaza then Starbucks :D Then jiu go home liao~ walao he forgot my present left it at restaurant T.T HMPHH! Glad I went home early because it rain heavily later. Chat with Fat and Mi2 randomly~ Looking forward to tomorrow's. Haha feel like date leh, but I shouldn't think so much la (: Got people care for me very good le, can't find one in church except Kylie >< Thank God for giving such a great friend and made today's plan success :) Me can't stop loving you, dear Lord.

energetic mif

12 Dec 2013

Happy Birthday JONG! Yesterday night i was realy sleepy already, yet i still gotta go fb type long long thing .___. me so sorry today no celebrate with you! give you endless hug :) so today normal day as usual, play eat except need do homework, add maths. Thank you John helped me solved some question! Whoa the mif group really energetic == spam liao wechat one night not enough, this morning continue then wechat end liao turn to twitter spam hahaha. Really cute la them :) I hope this energy will continue until forever in mif ^_^ Gossiped about Christine and heng today with Kylie hahaha. Hmm she agreed with me :) so we just sit and observe more la ya~

Shopping!

11 Dec 2013 

Today sleep until 9.30am, glad mom No angry le! Went IKEA, the Curve and GIANT to buy stuff. Took nap again at afternoon. Watched 千与千寻, not bad (: night wrap present and draw pipa. I'm so aorry jong that I break my promise to u.. I don't wanna lie to my parents to go.. I really no good for u.. But still I wish I have a happy year (: even without me..

愿赞美充满 ♡

10 Dec 2013

 最后一天了。昨天工委们开会开到很夜，都很迟睡，在为明天的献心会做最后冲刺。life game 真的让我体验了很多我从未懂得的。当他们说我下地狱时，真的很慌乱不知所措。当我在忙着读书考试作工赚钱时，我有几年都忘了去教会。在小天使活动中我守护的是Irene, 对不起我做到的没有很多，害怕会打扰到她因为她很忙。而守护我的是Rong~ 谢谢你为我做了很多！帮我泡mil0，拿书包行礼等等。当他愿意来跟我说话时，我真的很感动，因为他有改变，也愿意去改变 :) 而在献心会时，我分享了我的感受。一开始营会我就很担心那班小的会投诉说很闷或不想参与。结果都没有，我发现他们都很积极投入去参与每个活动，配合组长。看到他们的改变我真的很感动，感谢赞美主！同时我也在营会当中找到了信心和勇气，因我知道神检选我，我的路祂已为我预备，只等着我去行。感谢神也在我生命当中，为我预备了那么好的朋友和长辈，在我有困难时都扶持着我 :') 主阿，你的名是配得称颂的！回程时我都在睡觉休息，我知道那几个顽皮的小鬼一定会偷拍我睡觉的样子，就借了rong的jacket反穿用hood遮住脸～可怜的John在我旁边睡觉时被偷了～当他们要把我的hood拿下来时被John阻止了，谢谢你保护了我 T.T 在巴士上下大雨时还不错睡 ^_^ 一回到家就腰酸背痛～手指早上被门夹到现在变黑青了 T.T 不知道几时开始跟John变close了，不过希望在感觉方面是我想太多。每次一到这种感情间题，我会很不自主的问上帝，谁才是你为我预备的人？而现在的我在放慢脚步行走，不想走太快，我想多了解身边的人，不想错过任何一个人。不过讲一下内心话，除了不帅一点以外都蛮不错的～又聪眀又体贴又是基督徒，大我一岁所以会比较成熟，值得考虑！哈哈哈哈！！开玩笑 =w= 人家也会有自已喜欢的女生嘛～期待营会的照片和video~ 希望也有下一次这样的营会 ♡ 祷告上帝为我们预备 :) 八卦下：颖慧好像喜欢启恒?! XD

FOLLO ME

9 Dec 2013

Today Is a very tired n busy day >< had cute morning exercise~ then zhuti session, made me realised that I had many to improve. Then workshop 2 Is about check up, then made us know how out situation now. Then station game Is quite fun. First jumping rope, very tired. Then mathematics~ after that Is use chopsticks to get item out from flour. Then Is IQ testing game. Last Is balloon! I manage to blow one T.T but then burst le D: then we went to beach . Final Is crawl on beach hand on friend's shoulder, super tired! Then went to play sea water! Believe or not, my spec drop into ocean. And I got it back! Thank God!! Thank you John for bring my arm rest haha ~ then mid had discussion n revealed our angel secret after dinner hahaha. Then rong treat me So good, So touch, thank you! He made milo and help me take bag <3 haha So happy x) then v had life game, quite fun haha, got to do long earn money like real life ~ bit in the end I went down hell ); only only it Wesley and Kylie went heaven ~ after that had meeting So now quite late already So tired >< I cried when anna pastor prayed for me, So do others (: thank God! Let's sleep, wanan <3 last day left! fighting!

请你跟我这样做

8 Dec 2013

first day of camp! Wheee So excited >< so worry when Kylie still had fever on morning, But Glad she recovered at night (: heng must take care too! Met new friends - Grace and Esther (: Today activity was OK, not too aggressive. The egg one was fun hahaha! But as a naib Pres of the camp, all I did was talk about the rules and nothing more, feel quite unhelpful >< I wish I can learn more! But I believe God Has other plans for me (: well, tomorrow will be busy day! Good night xD

first over night

7 Dec 2013

cried a lot yesterday, my eyes were swallow this morning. Went kylie house to put my luggage, she got sick ): we went church later n decorated mif room. Is quite hard work cause Kylie Is sick she can't move much. Then had pnw n dance practice at night. It was fun, ya haha x) So I overnight at Kylie house Today, together with her other friend. My first overnight! Not bad, different feeling n experience (: tomorrow Is camp! Jia you ohhhh ^_^ fighting!!

feelings

6 Dec 2013

Today PMO was fun, chat with friends, taught by cello guys. When the funny Bernard get serious is quite terrifying. thank you for willing to teach me. Mama won't let me go. I'm So sad that I fall sick again. How could it be like this. I feel So bad. Cried whole night. No one knows. I wish miracle happens.

planing

5 Dec 2013 

Nothing much about Today, spent whole day read manga n do add maths. Then also start planing for jong's birthday. It's really challenging. Thanks God I had liwei manage the guys, and found a great restaurant. Steph is going, I wish Nicole can make it too. Jinwen went Thailand, her absence made so much problem to me zzz papa mama,u must let xinyi go ):!!!

the warmth of friendship

4 Dec 2013

Last night about 12am I just found that I need to go PMO today, get scolded by dad for last minute. Well i really totally forget about it >< So i went PMO today, very early and i practiced myself awhile. Then i played POU with wenyi, shuyi and seemun haha. We used Bluetooth to connect and believe me, it was VERY FUN! Hahaha xD i was alone today, chuting no come, still holiday. Today many people didn’t come too. The song was not too tough beside of its speed. I managed to play it. Glad today no rain, went home peacefully. Then huiyin took half day leave, and others all at home, so it was quite noisy. Fat Wei’s laptop was broke, AGAIN. I wonder how he even use his laptop, such new laptop. Because i didn’t bring my laptop today to sis’s house so I don’t have computer to play T.T Then i just use my handphone to surf net. Then so i decided to bath and sleep. Well, the bath heater broke down .___. I had to go bath at downstairs. Then i nap from 2.30pm to 6.00pm x) bacon for dinner wahahahaha :D at night i just did my usual work. Then Nicole chat with me, so happy to talk to her again :’) I really missed her! Hubby went bed so early today, he must be very tired >< I wonder what I should do with his birthday ): i cannot left him alone again… If only i had one more day!

ADD

3 Dec 2013

Yesterday's practice was fun. I met new people. Learn new dances. I wish I could catch up with others, they danced very very well. I learned a lot. But because of this, I'm sad too. Kylie said that, those who are not involved in anything is chose to dance with yif. I'm the one who not involved in anything? Didn't weiyi asked me to dance tambourine? I knew what happened. I whatsapp weiyi and asked am I and Kylie dancing tambourine, she said she not sure need to ask Jia Hui. She say we dance with yif then dance lo. Silence in the room while i holding my phone gazing at the words. Anger. Disappointment. Despair. At first the one who approached me, to ask me, is you girls! Why did you girls break your promise? Last year I had a lot of fun. I am looking forward so much to dance with you all again. But when they are any events, it's just you girls. You girls who claimed you all as sisters. I wish I could be in there too. Having fun together. Although i didn't dance as well as you all but I worked hard. I am not pretty nor talented. I just wished to be more friend to you girls. Event after events, I waited and waited for chance. Christmas came near. I was so happy when weiyi asked me. I was so glad i can hold tambourine once again. Yet. I just made myself sink into endless well. I liked tambourine dance very long. It's very beautiful and elegant. It looks like a real angel dancing. I wish I can do it too... I told my feelings to hubby and baka. Hubby asked me to give chance to others, to my juniors. Sorry but to tell you I DON'T HAVE JUNIORS IN TAMBOURINE DANCE. I had only danced once. One and once only. If you want to say, I am the junior among them. Baka just asked me to cheer up. It would be after Christmas until I can really drop this down. I had actually made a little cruse for myself. That I would not join tambourine anymore. A punishment to myself for letting hope high and crushing my own deeply. How stupid. An angel can become a devil. But a devil can never become an angel.

lazy

2 Dec 2013

Whao it's December already! 2 more weeks to Christmas :) I've been lazy for today haha. Used too much energy on last week. It had been raining the whole day. It's so cold >< Kylie gave me a call right after i woke up from nap (OKAY U SEE HOW BUSY I AM) last minute informing practice of Christmas dance today on 8pm. OKAY I'M DEATH. But surprisingly Kylie's mom willing to fetch me go (I must thank her afterwards, she doesn't seem happy...) and mom agree to let me go (WHAO). And then this Sunday will be camp. So fast. I need to cramp things AGAIN. I wish later practice will turn out to be fun ^_^ may God lead us charming kiddies <3

JLPT

1 Dec 2013 

Today is the day! JLPT day haha ~ thank God I recovered in the morning (: So I board on sensei car n met new malay friend . We chat a bit. N5 was Okay. N4 was a disaster. I'm So lonely in the exam hall, No fiends. Haha So I just decided not to study for one month! Being So Lazy now haha xD awhhh I wanna go Greece!! Can Lazy there haha x) Anyway have a nice night! MUACK :*

sick

30 Nov 2013 

I woke at 1.30 am today and study. So I end up falling sick: fever, Headache, running nose. Study up whole day, left head was aching throughout the day, Glad the information are in. Ganbatte!! I can do it (: may God bless me <3

practices

29 Nov 2013 

went pmo. Only me and sookyan for senior. I didn't really practice, all the time I was busying my work. Too busy. Concert too. I gotta start my double bass practice very soon! Went home on 12, glad mi2 bought chatime for me. Read le kaichou wa maid sama. Glad rehana sensei willing to fetch me. Mom was mad at dad for late coming home. I was busy to the end with pmo, church, and No time to study for test. I feel sick. Throat burning pain. I hope it's not aedes. Wish it turn normal after a sleep..