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3 Dec 2013

Yesterday's practice was fun. I met new people. Learn new dances. I wish I could catch up with others, they danced very very well. I learned a lot. But because of this, I'm sad too. Kylie said that, those who are not involved in anything is chose to dance with yif. I'm the one who not involved in anything? Didn't weiyi asked me to dance tambourine? I knew what happened. I whatsapp weiyi and asked am I and Kylie dancing tambourine, she said she not sure need to ask Jia Hui. She say we dance with yif then dance lo. Silence in the room while i holding my phone gazing at the words. Anger. Disappointment. Despair. At first the one who approached me, to ask me, is you girls! Why did you girls break your promise? Last year I had a lot of fun. I am looking forward so much to dance with you all again. But when they are any events, it's just you girls. You girls who claimed you all as sisters. I wish I could be in there too. Having fun together. Although i didn't dance as well as you all but I worked hard. I am not pretty nor talented. I just wished to be more friend to you girls. Event after events, I waited and waited for chance. Christmas came near. I was so happy when weiyi asked me. I was so glad i can hold tambourine once again. Yet. I just made myself sink into endless well. I liked tambourine dance very long. It's very beautiful and elegant. It looks like a real angel dancing. I wish I can do it too... I told my feelings to hubby and baka. Hubby asked me to give chance to others, to my juniors. Sorry but to tell you I DON'T HAVE JUNIORS IN TAMBOURINE DANCE. I had only danced once. One and once only. If you want to say, I am the junior among them. Baka just asked me to cheer up. It would be after Christmas until I can really drop this down. I had actually made a little cruse for myself. That I would not join tambourine anymore. A punishment to myself for letting hope high and crushing my own deeply. How stupid. An angel can become a devil. But a devil can never become an angel.