bloody dream

I was in a cold room, a big sized bed. I was hugging some fluffy pillow and turn turn turning around. I couldn't sleep, I was waiting and thinking for something. I felt sad. The door opened, a woman came. I was brought out of a house. The scenery outside was stunning, beautiful. It was near the sea. I was probably in a holiday village. The woman brought her daughter and we went to a seaside roofless cafe. I saw the sea, clearly shinning blue. It was so peaceful. Suddenly the woman picked up her daughter and put her into a bowl. Her tiny daughter fit well inside. Then she pushed her to the sea. I was shocked. What were she doing. The bowl with the little girl float and float towards the sea. I panicked and stood up. But the little girl seems like haven't realize what's going on. She was smiling so happily. Then a big ship appeared. A pirate ship. The little girl saw the pirate ship and stunned. At that moment, I felt the little girl isn't normal. She pulled out a knife and cut down her left hand. I screamed. The sea was dye with reddish blood of a little girl. Before I came back to conscious, I was in a weird old worn out place. There was a tiger tied down. I saw stairs. Wide and high until I couldn't see the end of it. I saw that little girl. But she's not a little girl anymore, she's now well grown up. And became a guy. But what doesn't change it's the smile on her face. The moment I woke up, I was in tears. I'm so terrified I just wished to find John to talk to. But why?