13 Nov 14
我要好像每一天都是最后一天这样来爱你。昨晚哭惨了，今早起来受罪的还不是我那可怜的双眼。愕然发现我正晚都没关data TT 听见他起床关walkie talkie的声音，我也跟着醒来了。看见他在wechat写着“中学生涯。。完美了。。谢谢你 :’)”awwhh.. <3 不懂为什么那么有feel, 弹钢琴去了，每一首歌都触动我内心的一小部分，告诉我这些感觉都是真实的.. <3 慌慌张张出门忘了带手机 TT 到华乐厅，回到熟悉的情景，大家无忧无虑的聊天开玩笑，好希望这样的场景可以持续久一点.. yz告诉我之前yongsiang说ber喜欢聪明类型的女生，也蛮准的嘛~ 哈哈可是他常骂我笨咧 TT 一样的，我们又吵着吵着去到了tapak，开始准备考试咯！幸好是考sej paper 3，我的脑海里一直浮现他对我说的话，我们走过的路.. 放学后一起在食堂吃东西然后去图书馆~ 明明就很累却硬硬不要睡，还握我手握得那么紧，大笨蛋 <3 说他笨蛋还不是假的呢！竟然把自己的书和IC留在可是忘了拿！幸好他的朋友帮他收着了，我说你丫，就那么心急想见我连那么重要的IC都可以忘记啊 :P 乖乖的做physics, 还是免不了遇上S6那一班家伙哈哈！感觉上再这么冷的环境下，又刚好吃饱了，不听歌做功课真的很容易睡着阿.. 他说他下去拿耳机给我听，我却跟着他一起去了，他问我干吗跟着，他自己去就够啦。电梯的门一关，有个笨蛋就傻傻地抱着我，还被我拍了几下才肯放手，你自己应该比我更清楚知道答案吧 :P 突然心动了动，想告诉他，却又不敢.. 借了他的手机上网去找i <3 u 的 equation，然后抄给他做~ cheh没想到他那么聪明，不用作出来就想到答案了，干吗那么聪明啊 =3= 他只是对着我傻笑~ 之后我要睡了，睡前就在calculator打“Ben.Dan……...520”给他看了我就趴下去睡了。他给我戴上耳机让我听歌了这些歌：最后一次，知足，最懂我的人，请你相信，风筝。之前他有给我听到“路要自己走”，歌词大概是我可以牵你手但路你要自己走，我有一天始终要放手..etc 我睡不着了，只是趴在桌子上看着他发呆。哦哦，他换了screen password，换成happy :D 终于能开啦~ 离开前，他给了我calculator叫我打开按A，荧幕上突然出现5202。我笑了 <3 终于要回家了，感谢上帝雨停了，不知道为什么本来走在我们前面的S6ians突然消失没上bus, 不过也好 :P 他总是在巴士上把我抱得牵得很紧很紧.. <3本来我很害羞不要给他抱的，说以后还有机会啦，他告诉我那么以后就少了今天一个机会咯。好吧，我乖乖妥协~ 今天，他也把我抱得很紧很紧，告诉我不要想那么多了。今天他说了很多哦！高诉我他也不想散、不想结束，他怕如果他真的进到Matriks他不能出来没有时间陪我，到时候我身边一个一个朋友都couple了那我怎么办？唉哟，傻瓜！你这样说我真得心疼死了.. 他把我抱得很紧，我真的第一次被人抱得那么那么紧，好像很怕失去我，好像下一秒就没有的再抱我了../// 他也告诉我说为什么我要做pres，为什么他们要选我作，我告诉他没办法啊，我一定要坚强。他说：“所以你在外面坚强了，在我面前就软弱吧。”不要什么事都自己扛。这是他一直跟我重复的一句话 :) 今天以后，我终于确定了，当我问他几时爱上我的，他说“我不知道，不过我们好像没有纪念日叻” 我觉得我真的有够蠢的去问他“我们都还没有开始，哪来的纪念日”他愣着看着我“我们还没开始咩，难道你要我跪下来跟你告白吗”对不起，我笨咯…./// 很喜欢他这样紧紧抱着我，虽然我腰也很痛，可是被他这样紧紧抱着的感觉很幸福啊 <3 也很喜欢他把手放在我肚子，就觉得这样被抱着很有安全感阿，很温暖 <3 即使要到站了，他还是紧紧抱着我不放手，被爱会被珍惜的感觉真的很幸福.. <3 之后我们又去走走了，总觉得我们不像刚在一起的感觉，反而有那种以经常就习惯而在回忆当初的情侣。他握住我的肩膀让我靠着他走，对我说只要他还在我就别想去找另一个男生../// 今天我们只是走了短短的路，就到回头，站在一棵树下聊天。他继续地搂着我，没有放开过，当然我们也像以前一样拼命的吵架 哈哈 :P 忘了为什么会吵到要扫他一巴掌，他说扫阿扫阿，我就叫他把脸靠过来。就这样亲了下去 <3 他大概愣了５秒钟然后笑了出来，害羞的看着我 >w< 我说有人今晚暗爽了咯，他说他已经在暗爽着了 哈哈哈 XD 之后他也亲了我脸霞，害我又脸红了 /// 真的感觉上，虽然还要搭巴士很迟回到家很累，可是他给我的温暖喜乐，让我感觉到很幸福很开心。一路上自己走着走着都会情不自禁的笑出来。多就没有这种恋爱的感觉了？多久没被人这样爱过了？他说我现在是他的笨蛋，呵呵好吧 就永远做你的笨蛋咯～
About Me
11/14/2014
遗憾比失恋更痛
12 Nov 14
Rain came pouring down when i was drowning that’s when i could finally breath.
原来，遗憾比失恋更痛。
遗憾自己，为什么没有更早爱上你。
遗憾我们，为什么那么快就毕业了。
上帝，你给我的挑战，会不会过分了点？
上帝，你把我的所有都拿走了，你留了什么给我？
愕然发现，50张tissue也不够承载我所有的眼泪。
撒旦，你们在笑嘛？
笑我的脆弱，笑我的失败..
我哭成这样，明天还有考试呢。
恨自己，第六感可以不要那么准吗？
“以后我会告诉你男朋友，哪些话不能说，他一定很感激我”
“你千万不要来找我女朋友阿”
每一次着两句话回荡在我脑里，眼泪早就在我控制外，只没想到我的心也渐渐承受不起..
我知道会有这样的结局，可是为什么要这么快，为什么不让我再猜久一点，为什么不让我再笨久一点，为什么不让我再喜欢你久一点，为什么不让我们在一起久一点..
为什么你要那么快画上句点..
“我也害怕。”
你害怕什么？你有什么可以怕的呢？
你有爱你的爸爸妈妈，清晰的未来，你所谓没有伤痛的回忆，你害怕什么。
你又懂我害怕什么？
我留下的只是一个我，单单什么都没有的我，却还要坚强下去只为了活着的我，你知道什么？
我是否可以回到过去，让我重新选择，不认识你..
如果到最后是要放手，当初为什么把我牵得那么紧..
如果到最后是要放手，当初为什么把我抱得窒息..
如果到最后.. 我们不能在一起，当初为什么让我把心交给你…..
为什么带我走merentas desa的track， 然后抓着我的肩膀靠着你，陪我慢慢地走着陌生又熟悉的道路。为什么告诉我其实你都听到了，你都知道了，我那晚哭着对你说的所有事情。为什么你笑我脸红，让后哄我说我别什么都自己扛了。为什么紧紧地抱着我，说我们剩下没多久了，为什么把我弄哭了，让我在你怀里哭了，之后却要我自己离开？
你好残忍。
你竟然告诉我，我们还没开始却已经结束了。
你为什么要这样折磨我？
你能给到我什么完美的结束？
结束，从来没有完美的。
对我来说，今天你给我的，比我之前，分手、父母吵架离婚、弟弟性骚扰、离弃、受伤、生病、自杀..
都还要痛苦、还有辛酸、还要折磨、还要后悔..
为什么你还要出现在我面前，为什么你还要我落泪..
为什么你还要继续给我希望？
“Before 2015, i will not let it be a past..”
为什么你在预言着我下一次的心碎？！
我的心有多大，让你慢慢的玩，慢慢的折磨？
这颗小小的心有多强？可以挨到多久？
我好丑。
好丢脸。
我的心声你都知道..
剩我还笨得什么都不懂！
不要..
再第三次心碎了好吗？……
Rain came pouring down when i was drowning that’s when i could finally breath.
原来，遗憾比失恋更痛。
遗憾自己，为什么没有更早爱上你。
遗憾我们，为什么那么快就毕业了。
上帝，你给我的挑战，会不会过分了点？
上帝，你把我的所有都拿走了，你留了什么给我？
愕然发现，50张tissue也不够承载我所有的眼泪。
撒旦，你们在笑嘛？
笑我的脆弱，笑我的失败..
我哭成这样，明天还有考试呢。
恨自己，第六感可以不要那么准吗？
“以后我会告诉你男朋友，哪些话不能说，他一定很感激我”
“你千万不要来找我女朋友阿”
每一次着两句话回荡在我脑里，眼泪早就在我控制外，只没想到我的心也渐渐承受不起..
我知道会有这样的结局，可是为什么要这么快，为什么不让我再猜久一点，为什么不让我再笨久一点，为什么不让我再喜欢你久一点，为什么不让我们在一起久一点..
为什么你要那么快画上句点..
“我也害怕。”
你害怕什么？你有什么可以怕的呢？
你有爱你的爸爸妈妈，清晰的未来，你所谓没有伤痛的回忆，你害怕什么。
你又懂我害怕什么？
我留下的只是一个我，单单什么都没有的我，却还要坚强下去只为了活着的我，你知道什么？
我是否可以回到过去，让我重新选择，不认识你..
如果到最后是要放手，当初为什么把我牵得那么紧..
如果到最后是要放手，当初为什么把我抱得窒息..
如果到最后.. 我们不能在一起，当初为什么让我把心交给你…..
为什么带我走merentas desa的track， 然后抓着我的肩膀靠着你，陪我慢慢地走着陌生又熟悉的道路。为什么告诉我其实你都听到了，你都知道了，我那晚哭着对你说的所有事情。为什么你笑我脸红，让后哄我说我别什么都自己扛了。为什么紧紧地抱着我，说我们剩下没多久了，为什么把我弄哭了，让我在你怀里哭了，之后却要我自己离开？
你好残忍。
你竟然告诉我，我们还没开始却已经结束了。
你为什么要这样折磨我？
你能给到我什么完美的结束？
结束，从来没有完美的。
对我来说，今天你给我的，比我之前，分手、父母吵架离婚、弟弟性骚扰、离弃、受伤、生病、自杀..
都还要痛苦、还有辛酸、还要折磨、还要后悔..
为什么你还要出现在我面前，为什么你还要我落泪..
为什么你还要继续给我希望？
“Before 2015, i will not let it be a past..”
为什么你在预言着我下一次的心碎？！
我的心有多大，让你慢慢的玩，慢慢的折磨？
这颗小小的心有多强？可以挨到多久？
我好丑。
好丢脸。
我的心声你都知道..
剩我还笨得什么都不懂！
不要..
再第三次心碎了好吗？……
如果能
11 Nov 14
又是幸福满满的一天 :) <3 早上就在711找wenyi，awwh看见她为他准备的spaghetti :P 撩了一下我们就到kanna去，eh 竟然没有看ber, 觉得奇怪咯，开了whatsapp才知道可是过后他也call来了。苦苦在kanna等到9.00am才搭free bus去图书馆，ehh 突然很自私的希望wenyi不在，不过在bus上他还是照样的牵我 /// 早早到了就乖乖读书，不过就不知道为什么特别累 ): 做完了一份他陪我下去喝水，上来的时候去了5楼看看。门一开.. 吓死我了！蜘蛛网一大堆，废铁到处都是，整个鬼屋这样.. 立刻马上关了门，快点按回2楼哈哈哈 TT突然他说“我要抓紧机会”就从后面抱了我，我吓到，问他怎么了。他什么也没说，就把头靠在我肩膀上，把我抱得紧紧的。之后他很小声地在我耳边说“不要动.. 你很好抱..”天哪，我的脸要红得往哪放啊.. /// 之后我催他快点放手因为真的到了，要开门了！他好像真的抱得很爽那样不要松手，一直说多一下多一下.. // 幸好他在关键时刻放手了，一开门就看到peiling和她朋友站在门口 XD 之后出去吃午餐，不知道他为什么那么好帮我拿书包 呵呵 又去吃不健康的东西啦~ 哎呀，撞到S6那班人 .__. 他一直拿我手机来玩，还自己set了password = = nyan :3 他又来闹脾气了，吃饱了又不要走~ yay hehe 拍了好看的照片！拖着长长的身体回去，哎 累死了.. 不知道我为什么那么那么累，根本做不到任何东西。立刻倒下去睡了45分钟.. 哈哈 没想到godwin也来跟我们一起坐，竟然还读sejarah .__. 回家回家，幸好没下雨！怎么有那么绅士的帮我拿书包阿~ 上了bus就立刻靠着他睡去了 <3 子后他也慢慢的牵了我的手，这次我睡得很熟啊 .__. 听到他一直在说话，可是不懂在说什么.. 真的很奇怪，不懂为什么他的肩膀就可以睡得那么舒服 /// 偶尔他还会弄我头发，帮我把头发放到我耳后面 <3可是就他碰到我的脸就很害羞啦 /// 之后他干脆抱着我，让我整个人在他怀里睡 <3 我只能说，真的真的很温暖，很好睡 <3 我可以不要醒来了吗？:P 他突然摸了我额头，才知道原来我发烧了，难怪那么累.. 之后他就一直在我耳边很温柔的骂我，迟睡啊、生病为什么还要出来、为什么还要硬撑、我怎么那么笨、为什么不好好照顾自己etc。他有说到“spm要完了，以后还怎么能这样睡”我竟然懵懵的回答“找你睡..”天哪，哈哈真是服了自己 TT 看得出他也很害羞 呵呵 :P 下车了，他说他要去找他的red bull哈哈，因为前几天发现在天桥隔壁有一个没开过的。刚好那里有很大的banner，他走到banner后面，我也大概猜到他要想什么.. 我走前去，靠在他的胸前面，他也很主动的抱了我.. <3 他问我怎么了，我没说什么只是摇摇头.. 嗯，好想就一直这样.. 虽然我矮但这高度也刚刚好，我的脸碰到他的颈，温温的很好抱 /// 他说他陪我去bus stop，可是却带我去了越野赛跑的track。哇，真的很怀念！好久没有走这条路了，真的充满回忆哦 :) 我们一边走一边聊，聊了很多但我都不是很记得了.. 时间差不多了是时候回去了，我们倒回头走，不知不觉就牵起手来.. 突然聊到chang koon，他说其实我和ck也认识了1年啊，他也是个好人不如跟他在一起咯。我停了下来瞪着他，就上前过去靠在他怀里。“我不要ck…”他抱了抱我，笑了。我弱弱的告诉他“可以不要毕业嘛..”他看着我骂我笨蛋，紧紧地抱了一下我们就继续走了。最后他说，有些话想告诉我，不过明天才能跟我说。我不知道我是不是应该要期待？我大概知道他会说什么.. 但我不想面对，我很怕不是好的那一面。今天我们抱了很多，很开心很温暖，终于觉得有安全感了 ^_^ 很遗憾为什么我们那么迟相识.. 如果能永远在一起，不是很好吗..?
又是幸福满满的一天 :) <3 早上就在711找wenyi，awwh看见她为他准备的spaghetti :P 撩了一下我们就到kanna去，eh 竟然没有看ber, 觉得奇怪咯，开了whatsapp才知道可是过后他也call来了。苦苦在kanna等到9.00am才搭free bus去图书馆，ehh 突然很自私的希望wenyi不在，不过在bus上他还是照样的牵我 /// 早早到了就乖乖读书，不过就不知道为什么特别累 ): 做完了一份他陪我下去喝水，上来的时候去了5楼看看。门一开.. 吓死我了！蜘蛛网一大堆，废铁到处都是，整个鬼屋这样.. 立刻马上关了门，快点按回2楼哈哈哈 TT突然他说“我要抓紧机会”就从后面抱了我，我吓到，问他怎么了。他什么也没说，就把头靠在我肩膀上，把我抱得紧紧的。之后他很小声地在我耳边说“不要动.. 你很好抱..”天哪，我的脸要红得往哪放啊.. /// 之后我催他快点放手因为真的到了，要开门了！他好像真的抱得很爽那样不要松手，一直说多一下多一下.. // 幸好他在关键时刻放手了，一开门就看到peiling和她朋友站在门口 XD 之后出去吃午餐，不知道他为什么那么好帮我拿书包 呵呵 又去吃不健康的东西啦~ 哎呀，撞到S6那班人 .__. 他一直拿我手机来玩，还自己set了password = = nyan :3 他又来闹脾气了，吃饱了又不要走~ yay hehe 拍了好看的照片！拖着长长的身体回去，哎 累死了.. 不知道我为什么那么那么累，根本做不到任何东西。立刻倒下去睡了45分钟.. 哈哈 没想到godwin也来跟我们一起坐，竟然还读sejarah .__. 回家回家，幸好没下雨！怎么有那么绅士的帮我拿书包阿~ 上了bus就立刻靠着他睡去了 <3 子后他也慢慢的牵了我的手，这次我睡得很熟啊 .__. 听到他一直在说话，可是不懂在说什么.. 真的很奇怪，不懂为什么他的肩膀就可以睡得那么舒服 /// 偶尔他还会弄我头发，帮我把头发放到我耳后面 <3可是就他碰到我的脸就很害羞啦 /// 之后他干脆抱着我，让我整个人在他怀里睡 <3 我只能说，真的真的很温暖，很好睡 <3 我可以不要醒来了吗？:P 他突然摸了我额头，才知道原来我发烧了，难怪那么累.. 之后他就一直在我耳边很温柔的骂我，迟睡啊、生病为什么还要出来、为什么还要硬撑、我怎么那么笨、为什么不好好照顾自己etc。他有说到“spm要完了，以后还怎么能这样睡”我竟然懵懵的回答“找你睡..”天哪，哈哈真是服了自己 TT 看得出他也很害羞 呵呵 :P 下车了，他说他要去找他的red bull哈哈，因为前几天发现在天桥隔壁有一个没开过的。刚好那里有很大的banner，他走到banner后面，我也大概猜到他要想什么.. 我走前去，靠在他的胸前面，他也很主动的抱了我.. <3 他问我怎么了，我没说什么只是摇摇头.. 嗯，好想就一直这样.. 虽然我矮但这高度也刚刚好，我的脸碰到他的颈，温温的很好抱 /// 他说他陪我去bus stop，可是却带我去了越野赛跑的track。哇，真的很怀念！好久没有走这条路了，真的充满回忆哦 :) 我们一边走一边聊，聊了很多但我都不是很记得了.. 时间差不多了是时候回去了，我们倒回头走，不知不觉就牵起手来.. 突然聊到chang koon，他说其实我和ck也认识了1年啊，他也是个好人不如跟他在一起咯。我停了下来瞪着他，就上前过去靠在他怀里。“我不要ck…”他抱了抱我，笑了。我弱弱的告诉他“可以不要毕业嘛..”他看着我骂我笨蛋，紧紧地抱了一下我们就继续走了。最后他说，有些话想告诉我，不过明天才能跟我说。我不知道我是不是应该要期待？我大概知道他会说什么.. 但我不想面对，我很怕不是好的那一面。今天我们抱了很多，很开心很温暖，终于觉得有安全感了 ^_^ 很遗憾为什么我们那么迟相识.. 如果能永远在一起，不是很好吗..?
RUN!
10 Nov 14
YAY FINALLY IM DONE WITH SEJ MUAHAHAHA. Okay so I was very tired this morning, even though I slept at 1.30am ytd night. Morning went meet him at 711 lol he discovered i had fever ._. I slept at last half an hour of pp1 , didnt know I was this tired sob. Glad pp2 went well I didnt sleep. Sob I didnt get hug but is ok. Went home and napped straight 4 hrs wow haha. Chatted call with ber before i nap nia why he no sleepy one stupid livita urgh. I hope he didnt say anything i that missed ._. Go home at night 3 hrs non stop whatsapp ing omg so busy finger so damn tired leh hahaha ok la tmr continue study cannot slack down! Promised to sleep early kay lo nights :)
thank God :')
9 Nov 14
Yes gonna make it short because having sej tmr and I gotta sleep now like tired die. Okay so today pianist and facepalm to singer lead who gets all d beat lost. Then fun sharing by huanzong. Thank God for sending Jowix here and she answer all my question abt Isaiah, and gave me really strength and preparation to fight for God. Some best thing in life: playing the grand piano and did some great recording. While studying sej until half dead and ber insta tag me a video of cute baby! Hahaha thanks orhh :3 haih I no touch f4 like shit ler omg how a but my brain couldnt take it anymore.. xinyi u did ur best alright, rest le dont think so much okay.. god prepare u well, dont worry u will be graced!
幸福也是悲伤
8 Nov 14
今天是幸福也是悲伤，而我又向未来迈向了一步。昨晚熬夜的我，4.30am才上床睡觉。你说我太用功读书？那你就错了。整个晚上也只不过在跟人聊天打发时间，可惜的是那个人不是我想要的那个他。又做梦了，我梦见了他，但我不记得是什么了，只庆幸不是个噩梦。早早6.30am就爬起来的我，收拾收拾转眼就到8点了，我们约定的时间。我知道自己会迟到，下雨塞车而且爸爸又迟出门还去打油，尽然还选了最塞车的那条路zzz 他打电话给我问我在哪里，告诉我不用急慢慢来。Wenyi也很担心，因为雨真的很大问我要不要她载。终于到了学校那已经是9.00am的事了，wenyi再一次打来问要不要载我们，被他拒绝了，而拒绝的理由我想我也知道。上了free bus，是我睡觉的时候了。我拉他的手可是他不要给我，就一直deh他 ): 之后他告诉我：“不要deh我，就算你不deh我，我也是会给你睡啦”awwhh <3 就这样我左手被他包着，我右手搂着他的右手，靠在他肩膀上睡去 <3 真的觉得自己很幸福丫 <3 我不睡的时候还是会靠在他肩膀上，他的头会靠着我的头。我不明白都是，明明都是一样的姿势，为什么他的肩膀我睡得比jong的舒服多呢？:P 早在他肩膀，他对我作的任何动作都很很很亲密！有时候他会捏我鼻子，玩我头发，poke下我，拍拍我的头 > < 我害羞了就只能傻傻的笑着，看着我们十指紧扣的双手，真的觉得我们怎么可以这么可爱？到了图书馆，一路上打打闹闹的，吵着吵着很快就到了。进去放书包的地方，原来是我们早啊，只有几个书包没什么人的，找了椅子坐下慢慢的把我的东西拿出来。他就过来跟我坐一样的椅子，然后伸手从背后抱了我.. /// 我吓到了，他从来都没有抱过我，也不曾要抱我。被他这样突然的从背后抱，有点快要幸福开心爆的感觉。我问他怎么了，他没说什么，只是把头靠在我肩膀上然后叫我不要动，静静这样待着一下就好../// 我也没说什么，呆呆的望着前面的镜子，看着他抱着我的样子，我默默的握住了他的手。我们就这样呆了3分钟吧，他好像抱得很爽这样不要放手 TT 又那么幸运一直没有人进来，可是过后还是被我催放手了，他应该不知道那里有CCTV吧 TT 上电梯，他永远都会记得的要弄断我几根rib bone TT 不过这次，他是用另一只手搂着我的腰先才poke我，其实就是在抱我啦.. /// 好吧是时候乖乖的读书咯，今天他的好朋友凯铭没来哈哈，不过还有baik K 读读一下我饿了，他陪我下去然后给我食物吃。不知道为什么今天我都不觉得冷叻，所以他一直牵着我的手跟我取暖 <3 回去专心读书，sej是世界上最棒的催眠剂，才一下子就很困了。慢慢的意识到冷气的来袭，我们都把手放进jac下，一起握着。不知道在别人眼中这样看起来会不会很像我们在做牵手类似的东西？我喜欢每一次我动一下，他就会握得特别紧，不然就是我在睡觉的时候他会突然握得紧紧的，好像在告诉我“我在这里，你安心的睡吧”<3 yay 终于到了午餐时间，到McD去吃，很幸运没有遇到任何人。吃完了他做来我旁边跟我要pou玩，我就跟他要手牵 <3 呵呵很奇怪叻他，讲我说很小其实蛮好的阿，可以抓得完 :3 他就这样一边玩pou一边牵我。好了又是思考时间：明明一样是在公共场合牵手，为什么我会愿意给他牵而不给jong牵？今天他的新招式：poke我肚子说我肥了 TT 什么怀孕两天3胞胎shit 哈哈哈 不然就是我们吵架，突然我瞪着他，他就把脸凑得很近很近，吓死我了，你要亲我么？:P 又开始了他的养肥xinyi计划，拼命喂我吃薯条 TT 虽然以上都从充满了恐惧，但也透露出丝丝的幸福 <3 不开心的事就从这里开始了，谈到了wenyi就谈到了她的ex, 随这话题一个一个延续到很多人，包括yz yl 和他自己的绯闻对象。之后他鼓励我去以赛亚，笑我一定miss掉3个月很多的东西，最多新年找我出来，什么年尾为我办farewell party之类的东西。过后他又告诉了我他不想couple. 他不明白为什么喜欢就一定要couple，他觉得自己没有准备好，也认为他以后都不会。他一直讲一直讲，没有意识到身边的我，脸立刻变了。打从他的第一句，我就已经被打败了。我好想像上次一样把它当耳边风，听了就忘了不去理了，可是这次我做不到。我的不开心全部写在我脸上，他这才意识到我的不对劲。之后的时间我都没说话，偶尔笑笑，其实我脑里一直在转，不停的转，我也希望可以停止。而我想得越多，就越来越失望难过，眼泪差点要跑出来了。他一直在问我怎么了，可是我都没有回答，偶尔ignore偶尔笑着说没事。很快的到了回家的时间，上了free bus他继续的问我。之后他也不逼我了，只是拿着我的pou玩，而我望着窗外偷偷掉泪。用jac擦干了泪， 我动了动他暗示我想牵手，可是他不理我，我也不理他了。之后他不玩pou了，牵了我的手，把我的脸转过来看着他。他看着我问我怎么了，我呆呆的看着他，他问我要不要说，我摇头了。他说：“好好，我不问了，不要逼你回答，借我你的头”之后就推我的头去他的肩膀，也紧紧地握着我的手“舒服吗？”我只是点头没有回答，就这样靠着他，偷偷抽泣.. 过一段时间，我冷静下来了，没有那么伤心了，依然乖乖的靠着他。这次他整个车程都一直握着我的手没放，一直一直握得很紧没有松过。我不懂他心里想得是否跟我一样？明明wenyi可以载我们，但我宁愿跟他一起搭巴士，我宁愿花时间在巴士上，让我们在一起的时间更久一些.. 我很想告诉他“不要放手，行吗？”他之前看着我们十指紧扣的手，跟我说过“我们认识不到一年，为什么会这样？”呵呵，我也不知道，我也没有试过阿。在回程巴士上的那一刻，我很想告诉你“我很喜欢你”可是那5个字还是被我吞了回去。没有勇气吧 ); 终有一天会的！拍了拍我的头，告诉我没事的，也是时候下车了。我们去到711, 他给我看他偷拍我睡他肩膀的照片，哈哈 幸好我头发遮完了我的脸~ 只能说，他越来越大胆了。突然把手往我背后伸然后缩进我的左边的jacket口袋，简单来说：抱了我 /// 他抱得很紧阿，我真的觉得很害羞阿，711里面也有人阿！/// 我看着他告诉他“想抱我就说嘛”他只是笑笑，把我抱得更紧了.. <3 我默默靠在他怀里，真的真的很希望时间就这样停掉好不好。过后我说真的要回了，他叫我靠近一点，我好怕他要亲我哈哈（想太多了~）原来他只是想好好抱我，因为他始终欠我，但最后也没有抱到好好的，太paiseh了/// 依依不舍的道别了，就搭巴士回家去。回到家好累，立刻躺下去就睡了。之后他又叫我醒来，不知道为什么没有以前的好笑了，却而多了温柔疼爱.. <3 至少我是这么觉得的~ 最后，我们是否真的有缘无份？还是只要慢慢等待，这可刚萌芽的种子很快就会开花结果？现在，我只要维持在这样，我们都懂，爱不需要说出口。当两只手握在一起感应到彼此的温度，我们都知道，爱一直存在并把我们俩紧紧拉在一起。
今天是幸福也是悲伤，而我又向未来迈向了一步。昨晚熬夜的我，4.30am才上床睡觉。你说我太用功读书？那你就错了。整个晚上也只不过在跟人聊天打发时间，可惜的是那个人不是我想要的那个他。又做梦了，我梦见了他，但我不记得是什么了，只庆幸不是个噩梦。早早6.30am就爬起来的我，收拾收拾转眼就到8点了，我们约定的时间。我知道自己会迟到，下雨塞车而且爸爸又迟出门还去打油，尽然还选了最塞车的那条路zzz 他打电话给我问我在哪里，告诉我不用急慢慢来。Wenyi也很担心，因为雨真的很大问我要不要她载。终于到了学校那已经是9.00am的事了，wenyi再一次打来问要不要载我们，被他拒绝了，而拒绝的理由我想我也知道。上了free bus，是我睡觉的时候了。我拉他的手可是他不要给我，就一直deh他 ): 之后他告诉我：“不要deh我，就算你不deh我，我也是会给你睡啦”awwhh <3 就这样我左手被他包着，我右手搂着他的右手，靠在他肩膀上睡去 <3 真的觉得自己很幸福丫 <3 我不睡的时候还是会靠在他肩膀上，他的头会靠着我的头。我不明白都是，明明都是一样的姿势，为什么他的肩膀我睡得比jong的舒服多呢？:P 早在他肩膀，他对我作的任何动作都很很很亲密！有时候他会捏我鼻子，玩我头发，poke下我，拍拍我的头 > < 我害羞了就只能傻傻的笑着，看着我们十指紧扣的双手，真的觉得我们怎么可以这么可爱？到了图书馆，一路上打打闹闹的，吵着吵着很快就到了。进去放书包的地方，原来是我们早啊，只有几个书包没什么人的，找了椅子坐下慢慢的把我的东西拿出来。他就过来跟我坐一样的椅子，然后伸手从背后抱了我.. /// 我吓到了，他从来都没有抱过我，也不曾要抱我。被他这样突然的从背后抱，有点快要幸福开心爆的感觉。我问他怎么了，他没说什么，只是把头靠在我肩膀上然后叫我不要动，静静这样待着一下就好../// 我也没说什么，呆呆的望着前面的镜子，看着他抱着我的样子，我默默的握住了他的手。我们就这样呆了3分钟吧，他好像抱得很爽这样不要放手 TT 又那么幸运一直没有人进来，可是过后还是被我催放手了，他应该不知道那里有CCTV吧 TT 上电梯，他永远都会记得的要弄断我几根rib bone TT 不过这次，他是用另一只手搂着我的腰先才poke我，其实就是在抱我啦.. /// 好吧是时候乖乖的读书咯，今天他的好朋友凯铭没来哈哈，不过还有baik K 读读一下我饿了，他陪我下去然后给我食物吃。不知道为什么今天我都不觉得冷叻，所以他一直牵着我的手跟我取暖 <3 回去专心读书，sej是世界上最棒的催眠剂，才一下子就很困了。慢慢的意识到冷气的来袭，我们都把手放进jac下，一起握着。不知道在别人眼中这样看起来会不会很像我们在做牵手类似的东西？我喜欢每一次我动一下，他就会握得特别紧，不然就是我在睡觉的时候他会突然握得紧紧的，好像在告诉我“我在这里，你安心的睡吧”<3 yay 终于到了午餐时间，到McD去吃，很幸运没有遇到任何人。吃完了他做来我旁边跟我要pou玩，我就跟他要手牵 <3 呵呵很奇怪叻他，讲我说很小其实蛮好的阿，可以抓得完 :3 他就这样一边玩pou一边牵我。好了又是思考时间：明明一样是在公共场合牵手，为什么我会愿意给他牵而不给jong牵？今天他的新招式：poke我肚子说我肥了 TT 什么怀孕两天3胞胎shit 哈哈哈 不然就是我们吵架，突然我瞪着他，他就把脸凑得很近很近，吓死我了，你要亲我么？:P 又开始了他的养肥xinyi计划，拼命喂我吃薯条 TT 虽然以上都从充满了恐惧，但也透露出丝丝的幸福 <3 不开心的事就从这里开始了，谈到了wenyi就谈到了她的ex, 随这话题一个一个延续到很多人，包括yz yl 和他自己的绯闻对象。之后他鼓励我去以赛亚，笑我一定miss掉3个月很多的东西，最多新年找我出来，什么年尾为我办farewell party之类的东西。过后他又告诉了我他不想couple. 他不明白为什么喜欢就一定要couple，他觉得自己没有准备好，也认为他以后都不会。他一直讲一直讲，没有意识到身边的我，脸立刻变了。打从他的第一句，我就已经被打败了。我好想像上次一样把它当耳边风，听了就忘了不去理了，可是这次我做不到。我的不开心全部写在我脸上，他这才意识到我的不对劲。之后的时间我都没说话，偶尔笑笑，其实我脑里一直在转，不停的转，我也希望可以停止。而我想得越多，就越来越失望难过，眼泪差点要跑出来了。他一直在问我怎么了，可是我都没有回答，偶尔ignore偶尔笑着说没事。很快的到了回家的时间，上了free bus他继续的问我。之后他也不逼我了，只是拿着我的pou玩，而我望着窗外偷偷掉泪。用jac擦干了泪， 我动了动他暗示我想牵手，可是他不理我，我也不理他了。之后他不玩pou了，牵了我的手，把我的脸转过来看着他。他看着我问我怎么了，我呆呆的看着他，他问我要不要说，我摇头了。他说：“好好，我不问了，不要逼你回答，借我你的头”之后就推我的头去他的肩膀，也紧紧地握着我的手“舒服吗？”我只是点头没有回答，就这样靠着他，偷偷抽泣.. 过一段时间，我冷静下来了，没有那么伤心了，依然乖乖的靠着他。这次他整个车程都一直握着我的手没放，一直一直握得很紧没有松过。我不懂他心里想得是否跟我一样？明明wenyi可以载我们，但我宁愿跟他一起搭巴士，我宁愿花时间在巴士上，让我们在一起的时间更久一些.. 我很想告诉他“不要放手，行吗？”他之前看着我们十指紧扣的手，跟我说过“我们认识不到一年，为什么会这样？”呵呵，我也不知道，我也没有试过阿。在回程巴士上的那一刻，我很想告诉你“我很喜欢你”可是那5个字还是被我吞了回去。没有勇气吧 ); 终有一天会的！拍了拍我的头，告诉我没事的，也是时候下车了。我们去到711, 他给我看他偷拍我睡他肩膀的照片，哈哈 幸好我头发遮完了我的脸~ 只能说，他越来越大胆了。突然把手往我背后伸然后缩进我的左边的jacket口袋，简单来说：抱了我 /// 他抱得很紧阿，我真的觉得很害羞阿，711里面也有人阿！/// 我看着他告诉他“想抱我就说嘛”他只是笑笑，把我抱得更紧了.. <3 我默默靠在他怀里，真的真的很希望时间就这样停掉好不好。过后我说真的要回了，他叫我靠近一点，我好怕他要亲我哈哈（想太多了~）原来他只是想好好抱我，因为他始终欠我，但最后也没有抱到好好的，太paiseh了/// 依依不舍的道别了，就搭巴士回家去。回到家好累，立刻躺下去就睡了。之后他又叫我醒来，不知道为什么没有以前的好笑了，却而多了温柔疼爱.. <3 至少我是这么觉得的~ 最后，我们是否真的有缘无份？还是只要慢慢等待，这可刚萌芽的种子很快就会开花结果？现在，我只要维持在这样，我们都懂，爱不需要说出口。当两只手握在一起感应到彼此的温度，我们都知道，爱一直存在并把我们俩紧紧拉在一起。
whole day call call call hehe
7 Nov 14
Not much today, morning video call with berber. And I fall asleep 2 hr after sej sob. Happy news! Wenyi couple leeeeer xD with ks hohoho aiyer sweet die hehe feel happy for her la. She ytd still say wad need wait 10 yrs, eh now need wait d ppl is me okay... ): then night watch tv play piano help mom nail polishing. Chat with steph n exex. Was initially disappoint that I'll b alone tmr at library, but he say his fren ffk him so.. haha. Okay laa so tired now .. 4am me going find my sweet dream ok.. <3
清楚知道 ///
6 Nov 14
第四天- 道德。坏的开始不代表坏的结束！因为昨晚熬夜读书，结果才睡了3小时就发恶梦去了.. 我不是很记得那些情节了，场景一直在换，感觉上好像做了很长的梦，没什么休息到.. 一开始是在学校block A，如果没有记错的话在跟同学跑来跑去，从一班走到另一半去。就突然看见ber，我们在走廊聊。就突然都不说话了，他看着我，我看着他。突然他就亲了我 // 我吓到了! 他又突然亲了我第二次（有种上瘾的感觉了shit..//） 之后我就跑掉了哈哈 :P 接下来就是恐怖的事了.. 发现自己和一班朋友在博物院，走着走着他们突然都不见了，我很着急。突然那些机械都动了起来，我很害怕，它们好像要猎我的感觉。我赶快躲进了一个小空间，没想到那竟是steph的小房间。不知道为什么躲在那房间里感到好害怕，很担心有谁会突然开门进来。之后steph的妈妈开门进来，误会了我们是同性恋 TT 结果在最后一个情节，我和恩盈和莅佳在一间很久很久的房间里。我们在练舞，突然停下来休息。恩盈问我知不知道???故事，我说知道，那是一个恐怖的鬼故事。正当我要解释的时候.. 闹钟响了。我醒了，吓醒了。一被吓醒的那一刻，心跳得好快好难呼吸。起床了，肚子很痛，吃了东西后就好想好想呕.. 我一直好紧张好害怕，没有办法平静下来。到了学校，wenyi陪我到食堂走走，买麦片巧克力给我吃。安慰了我，我们就回华乐厅去了。铃声响了，大家都走了，剩下我和ber.. 他很温柔的问我怎么了，我告诉了他，他告诉我会没事的，然后拍了我的肩膀（我还以为他要抱我呢 TT）考试开始的那刻很痛苦，一直作呕，谢谢weixin和zhiwei的陪伴，很努力的熬过了2.5小时。放学后我们一起去图书馆，果然看见许多他班的人，各自开始复习sejarah. 哦，我的ex也有来呢。哈哈，kaiming竟然偷拍我们然后whatsapp给Pn Hoon LOL hahaha 今天他们一直在唱“我要飙高音”HAHAHAHA 我累了，就把手包在jac里睡觉去，之后想来想，好想握他的手.. 我起来告诉他我要手，他就把手钻进jac里握着我，我就趴下去睡了。一开始他握得很松，之后我动了动，他就握得很紧了点。每次他这样握着我，总可以很快地睡下去 :) 我们握了很久，手都冰到麻掉了。之后是时候回家了，搭电梯的时候他本来想不要跟任何一起的，等到全部都走了剩下我们俩，他就poke我了 TT 哈哈 之后我就不时很开心咯，不想跟melyssa他们一起走的，不要跟他们一起一辆bus.. 结果我们真的走得特别慢，他们走好快哦，他们上了U66，我们坐free bus hehe. 最喜欢就是这个时候 :) 好像已经很习惯了，我们就这样牵手了，是十指紧扣那种../// 我是很想这样牵阿，可是不懂为什么他跟我有一样的想法呢.. :P 就我很害羞，每次我们牵着牵着，我突然握得特别紧，他问我怎么了，我只是转过头看着窗（超级害羞//）就很喜欢这样被他握着.. <3 他很坏，突然往我耳朵吹，冷死了 TT 结果他用手盖着我耳朵，才发现到我耳朵特别热，问我是不是害羞了///！！天哪，我可以从窗口跳出去吗？！害羞被他发现了好丑阿 TT 之后他问我要不要睡，当然要咯，就靠着他肩膀睡了。感觉上这次睡得比较亲密，我差不多在他怀里了，他的头就正好靠这我的头，然后我们又握着手。这次，他握得我很温暖。我喜欢，抬头看着他，因为这样很靠近很靠近，觉得很亲密，很喜欢 <3 我很喜欢看他的眼睛，其实真的很美.. 我醒来了，他问我怎么不睡了。我说我怕他肩膀会痛，毕竟第一次睡那么靠近，都靠在胸膛了// 他说不会不舒服。我问他，他怎么也不睡。他说他在想东西，一些奇怪的东西，他说可能我想的跟他想的一样。在我靠着他肩膀睡觉又牵着手的情况下，我不知道除了“我们要不要在一起”之外还有什么奇怪的事他可以去想了。他始终也没告诉我。我告诉他，不要想吧，现在考试，等spm过后吧。虽然他也有可能在说以后出国读书的事，不过他最后加了一句“是噢，果然是有经验的人”这句话应该足够证明一切了吧。其实在巴士上他握着我的时候，我有一直在想，他会不会也这样握过别的女生？不过要分开的时候他告诉我“你应该感到荣幸，我把我牵手的第一次给了你”哈哈哈 /// 还有一件很温馨的事，在巴士上我们又在比手大小。他就用他整只手握完我的拳头，就这样握着野蛮温暖的 ^_^ 还差一个站，就要回到学校了。我心想：好想最后一次再牵他的手，十指紧扣那种.. 突然，他问我是不是要到学校了，我说是。他就立刻牵了我的手。这次，他握得很紧很紧。我们十指紧扣，彼此都握得很紧，那一刹那，我觉得我们都清楚知道，彼此的心意了。
第四天- 道德。坏的开始不代表坏的结束！因为昨晚熬夜读书，结果才睡了3小时就发恶梦去了.. 我不是很记得那些情节了，场景一直在换，感觉上好像做了很长的梦，没什么休息到.. 一开始是在学校block A，如果没有记错的话在跟同学跑来跑去，从一班走到另一半去。就突然看见ber，我们在走廊聊。就突然都不说话了，他看着我，我看着他。突然他就亲了我 // 我吓到了! 他又突然亲了我第二次（有种上瘾的感觉了shit..//） 之后我就跑掉了哈哈 :P 接下来就是恐怖的事了.. 发现自己和一班朋友在博物院，走着走着他们突然都不见了，我很着急。突然那些机械都动了起来，我很害怕，它们好像要猎我的感觉。我赶快躲进了一个小空间，没想到那竟是steph的小房间。不知道为什么躲在那房间里感到好害怕，很担心有谁会突然开门进来。之后steph的妈妈开门进来，误会了我们是同性恋 TT 结果在最后一个情节，我和恩盈和莅佳在一间很久很久的房间里。我们在练舞，突然停下来休息。恩盈问我知不知道???故事，我说知道，那是一个恐怖的鬼故事。正当我要解释的时候.. 闹钟响了。我醒了，吓醒了。一被吓醒的那一刻，心跳得好快好难呼吸。起床了，肚子很痛，吃了东西后就好想好想呕.. 我一直好紧张好害怕，没有办法平静下来。到了学校，wenyi陪我到食堂走走，买麦片巧克力给我吃。安慰了我，我们就回华乐厅去了。铃声响了，大家都走了，剩下我和ber.. 他很温柔的问我怎么了，我告诉了他，他告诉我会没事的，然后拍了我的肩膀（我还以为他要抱我呢 TT）考试开始的那刻很痛苦，一直作呕，谢谢weixin和zhiwei的陪伴，很努力的熬过了2.5小时。放学后我们一起去图书馆，果然看见许多他班的人，各自开始复习sejarah. 哦，我的ex也有来呢。哈哈，kaiming竟然偷拍我们然后whatsapp给Pn Hoon LOL hahaha 今天他们一直在唱“我要飙高音”HAHAHAHA 我累了，就把手包在jac里睡觉去，之后想来想，好想握他的手.. 我起来告诉他我要手，他就把手钻进jac里握着我，我就趴下去睡了。一开始他握得很松，之后我动了动，他就握得很紧了点。每次他这样握着我，总可以很快地睡下去 :) 我们握了很久，手都冰到麻掉了。之后是时候回家了，搭电梯的时候他本来想不要跟任何一起的，等到全部都走了剩下我们俩，他就poke我了 TT 哈哈 之后我就不时很开心咯，不想跟melyssa他们一起走的，不要跟他们一起一辆bus.. 结果我们真的走得特别慢，他们走好快哦，他们上了U66，我们坐free bus hehe. 最喜欢就是这个时候 :) 好像已经很习惯了，我们就这样牵手了，是十指紧扣那种../// 我是很想这样牵阿，可是不懂为什么他跟我有一样的想法呢.. :P 就我很害羞，每次我们牵着牵着，我突然握得特别紧，他问我怎么了，我只是转过头看着窗（超级害羞//）就很喜欢这样被他握着.. <3 他很坏，突然往我耳朵吹，冷死了 TT 结果他用手盖着我耳朵，才发现到我耳朵特别热，问我是不是害羞了///！！天哪，我可以从窗口跳出去吗？！害羞被他发现了好丑阿 TT 之后他问我要不要睡，当然要咯，就靠着他肩膀睡了。感觉上这次睡得比较亲密，我差不多在他怀里了，他的头就正好靠这我的头，然后我们又握着手。这次，他握得我很温暖。我喜欢，抬头看着他，因为这样很靠近很靠近，觉得很亲密，很喜欢 <3 我很喜欢看他的眼睛，其实真的很美.. 我醒来了，他问我怎么不睡了。我说我怕他肩膀会痛，毕竟第一次睡那么靠近，都靠在胸膛了// 他说不会不舒服。我问他，他怎么也不睡。他说他在想东西，一些奇怪的东西，他说可能我想的跟他想的一样。在我靠着他肩膀睡觉又牵着手的情况下，我不知道除了“我们要不要在一起”之外还有什么奇怪的事他可以去想了。他始终也没告诉我。我告诉他，不要想吧，现在考试，等spm过后吧。虽然他也有可能在说以后出国读书的事，不过他最后加了一句“是噢，果然是有经验的人”这句话应该足够证明一切了吧。其实在巴士上他握着我的时候，我有一直在想，他会不会也这样握过别的女生？不过要分开的时候他告诉我“你应该感到荣幸，我把我牵手的第一次给了你”哈哈哈 /// 还有一件很温馨的事，在巴士上我们又在比手大小。他就用他整只手握完我的拳头，就这样握着野蛮温暖的 ^_^ 还差一个站，就要回到学校了。我心想：好想最后一次再牵他的手，十指紧扣那种.. 突然，他问我是不是要到学校了，我说是。他就立刻牵了我的手。这次，他握得很紧很紧。我们十指紧扣，彼此都握得很紧，那一刹那，我觉得我们都清楚知道，彼此的心意了。
nyahahaha spm maths
5 Nov 14
3rd day - MATHS! HAHA easy like shit :P no A+ really slap myself okay. But there's rumors abt bocor paper 2 lol need retake hope it's hoax ._. Well today so bad luck period FINALLY came, and true it hurts but glad not as hurt as usual, but still hurt ): I think I couldn't find any other boy like tell me he cant bring chocolate for me because he's out of house ady, but later gave me his spec box. And when I open it there's a chocolate inside, and my fav tiramisu. How can you be so cute? I straight away smiled of happiness <3 we sat side by sideb at pmo staircase. I rest my hand on his shoulder, he raise his book to cover his face and lean on ny hand, haha what a shy guy. But seriously even if u cover it ppl can still see hahaha. Recess tgt like spamming maths and his class d girl like 'OMG BERNARD HOW TO DO? EXPLAIN! TEACH! WHAT HOW I DONT UNDERSTAND!' erm I think you're quite doom to end since it's last 15 mins to maths paper 2 and yet u cant fot transformation.. haha I guess he saw my irritated looks and when we walk back to class he was like "angry ar, dont angry la~" awwhh haha // I glad I did paper 2 quite fast because the chocolate didnt last me for long and started to hurt just when i complete the paper. Then me and ber went canteen persuaded him to lunch since he x recess just now. Yorrr he chor my jacket n sleep on it ._. Then halfway wenyi n yongzheng came. We didnt talk long then jinwen came n ask me go home, walao say dao so bu shuang zomok, maths got so hard meh. Seriously dont understand those people at Twitter, excuse me, maths second question HOTS so what, like that also cannot solve ar. People like you have been too spoon feeding la, glad CHS educate us well by raising us with understanding and applying skills :) maybe HOTS could really raise awareness among future students to be real studying not memorizing lol. Why I study moral until so late ar? Hahaha okay its time to rest :) ber so cute leh, everytime before he wanted to sleep jiu walkie talkie me, then act cute and deh me haha how old u wor big baby. Feel loved la got ppl cares me and wait me to sleep awhh <3 all the best tmr too :D nights
gosh continue spm!
4 Nov 14
2nd day-English! Fancy meeting him downstairs pmo lol shock die me haha. We sat tgt n study idioms. Then v walked back tgt to class n ready for the paper to start. Essay was okay :) recess we met and eat tgt at canteen lol abit awkward. He keep kick me nia = = but it's fun and stress free studying with this pig haha jiu keep.laugh lo. Then paper 2 was okay except flute no came out too sob! After sch we mey again and stayed awhile before going out of school. We walked dow thw stairs back near d guys toilet. Lol he went toilet i jiu wait him downstairs la. Then he went up upstairs again haha I follow up and he turned back and laugh. He thought i was angry and pat my head ask me don angry :3 lol when we walk out junren was there like what are u guys doing. Then v stop at corridor to padang and chat awhile until its abt time went to canteen. Then v walked out tgt and went home. He keep telling me to take care dont get hit by car, wan hit also wait after spm. Haha aiyor wan care ppl jiu say la don.need add last part zat me la. Went home eat and nap. Sob he changed his wa dp, fine lo I put with ruey geh hmph haha tmr maths aaaa dont careless a xinyi pls pls pls ok
SPM 2014 START
3 Nov 14
FIRST DAY OF SPM- BM 1 , BM 2. Woke up so early and I'm all nervous! We walked tgt to dewan and listen yo briefing again. Haha funny is the ketua lembaga peperiksaan told us to enter the pusat peperiksaan with right leg first. Okay so the paper one starts very quickly. I'm too nervous until I forgot to bring in my bottle ._. I liked my place, just beside window, I guess.I feel a lease a bit relax looking at the padang while I'm all stressed up. Done paper and I proceeded to pmo hall with jinwen. Then me jinwen piang sekni peh and derrick cramped in xiao fang. Lol haha so funny non-stress joking while studying with them. Then 12pm received his very kawaii text n we went lunch tgt. Lol so awkward fancing meeting his juniors and meimei in canteen HAHAHA so v switched down to boys canteen and 7 people came by and zat = = lol he keep playing on shengxin so bad la. I poured all the chicken popcorns on plate then he put it back all in the plastic zzz Then we went study at staircase because i havent finish my coffee TT left half for him. Just two of us at staircase their spamming novel and komsas. Many ppl passby sure enough and so do his sis HAHAHA but still no care and continue to study on. True enough we have close interactions, all those poking and tickling. I feel that I've lost fews of my rib bones TT very shun shou used his shoulder as my hand rest, because he was sitting below few steps from me and he also leaned his head on my side. I keep patting his head whenever he's stressed up by komsas, then giving him my hand to hold, shit u la squeezed my hand so hard TT how many bones u wanna break? But also sometime small tiny accident happened where I suddenly knocked my hand towards the wall and he will like sayang for me haha I still cannot stand his act cute and deh to me, seriously i so scare he'll notice I'm all embarrassed very paiseh okay. I think it really looks quite wrong when it actually nothing, I put his hand over my lap. Keep holding on not to Laugh because i felt so itchy he's tickling me the other side. Pinched him so hard on face, very chubby la haha. Until it was time to go off, only realize it was this late already when we saw everyone queuing up outside the classroom. Just slap die me for BM 2, idk wth I was thinking during exam, totally neglected peribahasa part..... like so shit of me wth ok fine dont think abt it.anymore. failed to meet with him after sch. Then went home nap night chiong eng. Seriously not feeling that nervous anymore and I guess just really do my best to whatever upcoming possibilities. Yes babe you could do it! And also the long warming voice record he sent to me.. awwwh pls teach me how to not fall for you? And I checked whatsapp. We're still together, in mine, in yours and pmo F5 group ♡
tmr SPM TT
2 Nov 14
Sunday. One day before SPM. Got church and with Kylie chatting, I felt so stressful. We prayed together at the end of service, I cried, we hugged. I know I'm not mentally prepared but still i have to do this. Read thru the afternoon and napped awhile. Thank God for giving me Bernard who still being good to me no matter what, thanks alot alot alot.. <3 I feel the pressure and I thank those who gave me cheers and all encouragement! I know along this month im not alone , I have friends family and God for are fighting for and with me together! HEY LETS DO THIS TMR! SPM 2014 HERE I COME
live out my best
1 Nov 14
Thank God for starting my November with a lovely day. I woke at 3am and surprisingly ber still on. We chat on walkie talkie and he's going act cute n deh me again. So I hong him go sleep and feel ao loved for he forcing himself to wake to pei me even tou he's so tired ady.. <3 woke at 12.30pm don ask me why haha. Got first msg from in juz woke hehe. Awh I feel loved. sg ahyi keep whatsapp me lol. Studying suddenly dad say later go windmill omg. Yay finally mom is ok and everything back to normal. Ate alot nice nice food, hehe I feel so loved again when ber say aiyo I wea got so bad sure, enjoy la eat bahhh- ice cream yay :D hahaha then when alone at caffe bene chor wifi sambil komsas. Got home continue chiong n its 1.51am gosh tmr got service. Feel so dumb lost to wenyi but what can I do ppl so clever zz aiya I do my best la dont compare okay xinyi LIVE UR BEST OUT JIU ENOUGH LIAO
to: mom
31 Oct 14
Happy birthday mom. Thanks for breaking my heart. Made me cry and fall. Make me feel like suiciding.. if not, today was actually a great day.. morning we met.. I knew.. I can feel.. that you will miss..me maybe. I will miss too.. that we're holding hands.. and u play pou always dont feed it.. and viewing my gallery without asking.. then pinch my face so hard and sayang me later on.. yes I feel loved.. and so you went. And we never meet although i was back to school later on. Another library day with wenyi. It was cold, but I have your jacket. Sorry i havent wash it.. rain was so heavy. Fancy knowing Godwin and v three idiots ran in rain back library. Jac was totally wet. I survived whiteout wearing jac in library at afternoon. So there's one day I need to rely on WiFi too. Got home. Ane I sent that women happy birthday with long text. And I got a thx back and thats all. Yea. My mom. I knew. She gave up on me, on dad, on this family. I just keep lying to myself that we. Will continue together, like forever. But how come my forever so short? If this was a dream just fucking wake me up. Enough bullshit. I was so scared. So terrified. Imso scare that I cant control my emotion, my feelings, my tears... I very scared that I might not able to control myself next from doing.anything stupid.. I tried hard to struggle okay.. god u told me a big joke, but whats the meaning behind just let me know already. I cant bare this I scare I couldn't make it to tmr. How long that I havent have this feeling back where my disappointment lead me straight away to..deadth
jac jac hehehe
30 Oct 14
Fall asleep hugging jac ♡ oh library day with wenyi again. Morning went kanna to look for ber. Arghh a bit wish wenyi not here sob. Jiu kinda awkward cannot talk too sweet lo, then wan hold hand also cannot sobb. Jiu he just keep kiap my leg again haha then 8 he jiu go school le. Was a very productive day at library! Hehe sapu le maths past year woohooo :3 then sms with ber. Awhh I wonder izit he found I wanna be with him then he video call me. Hahah trying out his new front cam. I got so tired rushing back and bath then jiu straight video call. This fat pig seriously love to act cute haha, I've done alot screenshot bwahaha. Then I'm too tired end up lying on bed, he too. Then eventually i fall asleep while he 哄 me // haha later I woke up the call ady end, then saw he Snapchat me while v talking he took d photo haha, oh dear lastly got my sleeping one ._. Then went tuition, last add maths with amanda teacher. Gonna miss her so much, can't have anymore better add maths teacher than this! Who taught me life with add maths ♡ love you :) today ber also very loving la lap die u okay don act cute lee haha
I HAVE GRADUATED FROM HIGHSCHOOL!
29 Oct 14
So I've graduated today haha. Surprisingly no tears. Took photo with every single classmate! Morning went pmo and take photo with then. Too bad ber hand shake if not our photo would be very nice.. nobody cares abt rules anymore just show their phone and walk around taking photos. Wow of course there's rich people walking around with polaroid. Majlis was quite boring until my time on stage. The first step and I heard loud and clear BENARD BERNARD BERNARD xN times. Gosh awkward die! But I did amsong. I was wishing that he would stay but god prove me wrong. But I glad God make me this plan I had fun time with chuting changkoon alvin and jingen in pmo hall. We chat alot and laugh alot abt pretty girls and couples. Cant stand alvin n ah wonh playing hayday like those aunties buying vege at pasar. Gosh that ck chor my IC and student ID and snap zz got home straight away went run, I just wanna get rid this depression. Ya just gone with my tears and tiredness. How I wish I wouldn't reply him, the him who made me fall for him. And too break my in pieces i think will be ashes very soon.
countdownn
28 Oct 14
Cant believe I'm graduating tmr. This mixed feelings in my heart really brought me to a deep down mood. I'm sad of leaving of course and yet keep convincing myself we still meet during spm and class trip next year taking result and lots. I cried while thanking God for these five years. I gave my highschool life nothing but my highschool life gave me everything. Feel so touched by my 5weSom3 looking at our most wonderful class page in magazine. I think i feel really sad too because he seems not onlining today. But we did have a great time after recess where he got caught by Pn teh again. Okay I'm sleeping early again.. nights all the best tmr
last physics tuition
27 Oct 14
Heh surprisingly x tired in d morning :3 its been awhile back to sch days and pmo there. Last assembly, he walked with me :) but they didnt sing d songs loud loud lol, guess they're saving for graduation day. Anyway a boring day sarah and zhiwei both x come to sch zzz. Glad weixin did! Erm he came n find me after assembly before we went to dewan for raptai. At dewan also very sien. I alone lol actually, watching his back and "enjoying" the music. After it ends, then walking out I knew he was looking, after i walked away from chuting v met at door. Then walk back tgt to class, lol I heard many sounds at back but nah no care, one of them was Yongliang. Went back class he play my wallet, steal my coins ); then sat at there play play play n chat with weixin. Haha left 5mins only go recess, I think he purposely coz dw meet dao juniors. Then back to class, he at my class stay quite long. With weixin we three.discuss ing weird topics abt how animals reproduce. Feel quite paiseh when he still play with my hand, hold it and etc in front of weixin // true enough i felt loved. Then start get tired and fall asleep with any pose I could. After sch v walk out tgt lur and then back home. I hope I really x fever leh. Suffering zzz wow last physics tuition! Haha gonna miss Pn Chung and Vanessa :) anyway 6 days to go ALL THE BEST BABE!
hello mif :D
26 Oct 14
Finally back to sweet mif ♡ lol Rachel suddenly scare me off switching me to lead singer, next time can you pls at lease find a ban chang.. today devotion also *faints* hey guy pls at lease show some heart can anot.. even kindly abit sincerity? Not a 13yrs old child anymore pls.. gosh meeting, I dont like zesong always shooting ppl.. tats why everything also prefer huanzong :) ohya heng today suddenly came really did surprised me x) okay me got so feddup when I got home and nobody open door for me. Called dad mom and ber. In the end I need to call huanzong back n fetch me to popo house zzz and what really surprised me is, he only one who called me back is ber.. do my parents even care abt me now? Tying hard to study whole night, but my head my nose wasnt really cooperating, procrastinated with fever and sneezes. Feel so so so loved when he last voice record to me telling me to sleep early. Thanks it's really warming ♡ okay school day tmr lets get some sleep now nights! I wish i could dream u too //
peaceful?
25 Oct 14
Hey failed to wake up at 3am but it's okay. Today whole day at home did bio ttc. Gosh 10 page really kills me off. Because i had Nescafe whole day and I didnt take nap, kinda tired out now, brain stop functioning during night. Hmm basically a day quite peaceful at home, mom keep bring bro out. But this is the peace before the storms. Tmr aijia's dad coming, pray hard that I still can have my roof on. Ber today also treat me very good la haha. Ask him, want me or jacket, the he reply give u jacket lo. Awwwwh what does this mean /// then when he scold ugly I sad, he said a lot a lot to cheer me up awhh feel so loved <3 haha thanks orhh :3 hmm tmr back to church hopes everything well..
nyan
24 Oct 14
Happily fell asleep with ber jacket, morning went to study at jinwen house. Wah didnt know that pig actually put me in storeroom and feed me 20 sleeping pils hor. Kena I scold die heh. Afternoon sibeh bu shuang- sry I pms. He so kelian kena I scold hahaha. Awhh but feel touched when he tried to cheer me up keep say sry n did alot stupid things. Then I fell asleep napping, today repeated 小苹果 abt 40 times le haha. Night guai guai study biooo do TTC haih tmr stay home chiong okay. Awhh berber sho kwet in video call, feel like wanna pinch die him ♡ very like when he sayy 'yaa most guai is u la' hehehe okay nights♡
why u treat me like this.. ///
23 Oct 14
Woke up tired die, wenyi called me lol so gan jiong :3 so v study at 711 sambil chat until 9~ then wait free bus hehe around pj to library. Saw Nicholas, awh today not bad, lengzai. Havent step in library door, at outside canopy walk also can feel d cold ady.. true enough it was freezing inside. I no wear spec x really saw who's there, but I know there's lots S6ians. Then do my add maths, was so worry abt he x reply my sms.. then suddenly 3 missed call shit. While I'm going out to make d call he came in ady, and the S6ians was like wowwwww. He gave me jacket n drag me out then pull me into lift. I tot he wanna talk to me until he started his first sentence-why u slept late ytd? Oh shit. True enough the next moment i got tickled poked n nag die by him T T but actually it was quite close that he's hugging me ler /// then he sat down n studied awhile all his frens were all like *grin* when I say all I really mean all. Then he n Godwin went primary sch find teacher, it was children's day too. About 12 smth michelle came, she was funny. Me n wenyi then went McD, I brought her to visit hedgehog hehe strangely the white one missing eh D: haih too bad they're sleeping on the day again. Arrived at McD, ber n Godwin there too. Hahahaha wenyi Godwin couple tee orh aiyer. Then I laugh at wenyi dont buy a la carte but set just to belanja Godwin lunch haha. Then ber gave me cupcake eat. Wow they chor le many sweet candies back hahaha. Awh thank ber for 撕掉d cupcake plastic before giving me, then he also no let me drink coke, gave me 100 plus + straw instead :') caring oh dear gam dong. Then wenyi n Godwin left, v two still there until 2pm to wait U66. So it began, kena ask and nag die again for sleeping late lurh TT dk why he grab my hand then found I'm very cold, so he held my hand for long. Also he played with my hand haha I know my hand very smooth and keep tickle me ._. Feel so warm n secure when he suddenly grab my hand firmly ♡ then he also pinch my face, my nose.. Force me to promise I'll sleep early.. then we keep playing witg french fries hahaha. Bu shuang jiu throw to him, I didnt expect it result in he feeding me ._. Oh goshh he really did // okay >< rush to U66 dk why super tired ady.. he asked me if I wanna sleep, I nodded. Then he just put his hand on my head and push to his shoulder, oh dear /// he gave me his jacket too, so I fall alseep on his shoulder again :3 umhh dk why I just have the urge. I pulled his left hand out, he also no resist, and held me hand. So the situation is I'm sleeping on his shoulder and he holding my hand ♡ I think I'm really cold or his hand is really warm? I like it very very much when he suddenly grab me tightly, feel so secure like he protecting me ♡ he poke my head and ask me wake, suddenly found my forehead is actually burning. Oh gosh I didnt realize I'm having fever. Yuan ben plan to ask mi2 fetch me back but I end up a lot earlier. Reach home straight fall asleep hugging his jacket ♡ awh I cant forgot that feeling wheb he holding my hand. Jiu feel very worry for him coz he also scare kena mom pms scold for coming out but still he did it for me, ya he said it for me. Thanksss TvT lap die u okayy! Mksss♡
明日恩典 ♡
22 Oct 14
Wow I woke at 11.30am today wth haha tired die. Once woke up got a long 'zao an' voice note from ber hehe umh I tot gonna be a peaceful day until mom n bro came home n proof that I'm wrong. Well although everyone's home but that doesnt mean I cant talk with ber. True enough via wechat voice call, aghhh my data pain die sob sob, door closed earphone up, yay prefect. Lol when I'm done and went out of d room everyone slept zzz he was so cute and childish today again hahaha awhh ♡ my my tmr going library but dk he will go anot.. sob ady promise wenyi so cannot ffk twice le muz go haih.. if he no go I take bus home cannot sleep.. no shoulder for me to lean, no hand to hold me sob sob.. got down for sudden msg like this and went for caffeine.. ah he sick le hope he get well soon.. really hope u can be there library.. umhh I wonder if he utd mks, a very very very very short form for muacks :x its okay if he dont hehehe yay jio me go seoul garden :3 hehe so happy ☆ aiya dk johor trip wanna go or not.. zai confirm with him ba, he no go jiu dw, he go jiu consider la okay :) aduh sleep early lo 3.21am nights world :) #明日恩典 ♡
Sunway Library with Sarah JJ
21 Oct 14
What a lazy down day. Morning waiting sarah. Ah ber woke up late. So jinwen ffk me last min. Then v went to library maths.. junjie got lost but eventually found, I feel being d so big light bulb here.. they're noisy ikr.. then went spaghetti lunch again.. lol they don let me go home sob sob.. today he was as caring as usual, even scold junjie for x being gentleman to take care me haha when got home he also like scold n deh me.. awh new group haha.. then fall asleep halfway while voice recording.. night was awful.. dad n mom continue argue, I cried 3 times.. d last one is because of him.. now my eyes burning pain.. did put warm cloth on it puy I doesnt feel any help.. then.. I wonder If I shud.. keep waiting him..
awwhh zomok ni :3
20 Oct 14
Got scold badly by ber n wenyi for sleeping late ._. Sob sob my neck pain die when I woke up, cant even raise my right hand. I was so so so tired this whole day haih unproductive ttm. We video call this morning :) haha he wan go tuition tat time shuuu me to sleep TT no eat dao breakfast sob. I woke up later at 1.30pm omg. No hear dao his call TT then lunch bath start doing physics hw. Video call again x) awwwh he act cute n dehh me can see his face haha really childish but kwet ♡ sometimes so wrong :x ohh then he shuu me to nap again zzz wake up 7pm?! What my life TT he bit bit weird today, jiu keep call me ar, talk to me ar, macam jealous to yien? Then ask me don fu yan him aa, keep shuu me to sleep ._. Ber ber ni zomok :3 guaaai la hehe ♡
SEMINAR DATE :3
19 Oct 14
好吧，这是我第二次写这篇日记了。为什么？因为我蠢，按了一个键把所有的都delete完啦 TT 首先，警告。如果你是怕糖尿病，请勿读此篇章。准备好了吗？开始咯。昨晚好累，很早就滚到床上睡了。早上醒来的时候，看见ber昨晚3.30am回复我，我很生气的回了他“great, kill yourself”。他也蛮早醒的，不久就哭脸回复我，看吧，这要他这样我就没法对他凶了。他call了我，比我早到，虽然我比他迟出门但还是在5分钟里就到了哈哈。那个笨蛋，call他不接，jinwen call才听了，还找不到看不到我。Eh 被我猜中啦，他果然穿黑色 呵呵 真聪明啊我，就知道你还剩什么衣服能穿。其实我跟ex还蛮有缘的嘛，去图书馆来seminar都看到他，但有缘无份。这次的seminar有跟sarah junjie一起坐，他们两个整个来开food party这样 = = 坐下来一开wifi, eh connect了喔~ 哈哈哈竟然是ex的hotspot! 谢啦 :P 总觉得他真的对我很好，明明比我怕冷（虽然到最后我比他冷）可是还是把厚的那件jacket借了我，自己拿那件昨晚被我当雨衣淋湿完穿回家的jacket，感动满满 :’) 谢谢junjie请的Nescafe! 丫 我又被他beh了咯。不爽我又开始poke我了哦。现在，不管是他poke 我还是我poke他，到最后我们总会抓住对方的手，过了一段时间才放开。有时看到他把左手放在椅子上，我会特地去poke他的手，他就会抓住我的手指，一开始紧紧的抓着，故意弄痛我。之后慢慢放松，好像真的怕我痛了就sayang我的手指这样.. /// Chem seminar还真不错，老师you tian很好笑，讲很多ham yeh，我听不懂他又不要告诉我，我只好问sarah。哈哈真的是可怜他后面就是tino，一直被欺负。也不知道自己是怎么那么不小心，又扭到颈。从午餐走回去canopy walk的时候，一路上他就帮我按摩。在seminar我突然痛他也帮我按摩 >w< 虽然说感觉很幸福，可是应该很多人看到我很害羞lehhh. PHYSICS 真的好闷阿，我有补习老师就够了。吃饱了好累好想睡觉，有break的时候他问我要不要睡，我说要就趴在了桌子上。他叫我躺着睡，把头往后靠，我说不好吧等下妨碍到后面的人。他就问“你要靠着我睡吗？”我看着他说“你不给..”他就“靠过来吧，给你睡啦。”所以我就这样穿这他暖暖的冷衣，靠着他的肩膀睡去 ///。但也没有真正的睡下去，我太害羞了。之后醒了来，头依然靠在他的肩膀看着他玩我的pou。Sarah和junjie看到了好像蛮吃惊的 :P 。不懂是我病了还是他病了，我觉得冷他觉得热。因为我穿jacket是从前面穿的，而且也只有右手穿进衣袖里，左手藏在jacket下面。我告诉他“我要手”。他看了看我，然后他的左手就穿过jacket底握着我左手。“做莫你的手将冷？”（不冷要你握吗？要。）他紧紧地握着，我感受到丝丝的温暖，不多，但也足够 <3 之后他开始松了下来，笑着我说“你的手那么小啊”之后他放开了一次，可是被我握回去了，他好像有看着我，但我没看着他，他也没说什么。之后他放开了第二次。但这次我没握回去，而是他自己又握着我，然后很轻很轻，很温柔的握着（我可以用‘抚摸’这两个字吗？XD）好像很怕会握痛我了.. /// <3我感觉到的，是他的温柔，小心翼翼的在流溢，一点点的，疼我。当时的心情，真的是无比的幸福。被爱的感觉，多久我没体会到了？多久我没有一只暖和的手握着我，一个让我依靠的肩膀，一个关心我疼我骂我吵我又对我撒娇的笨蛋。好想这样握着，一直握着不要放手。最后他手出汗了哈哈 而老师又要我们抄东西，就这样放手了。想想我还是知足好了 :3 时间也过得很快，散了我们在食堂说了几句就各自回家去了。我和他的可爱的亲密动作越来越多了，捏鼻子、拍头、捏脸颊、玩我头发etc.. 回到家我们还继续的聊天，可惜我家的情况不太好，不然今天就皆大欢喜了。妈妈又因为爸爸一直玩电话而生气，之后又翻旧帐吵了起来。怎样都好，不要离婚就对了。把所有进展都告诉了jinwen ,我觉得她需要去医院急救急救。她说：你们这样official 不official真的没差。我不知道，或许我知道，当我不敢承认。直道那天他真的说出口了，我才敢去相信。我不想再第3次心碎了，虽然他已做到很明显了，但我还是害怕，时间还很短，才6个月。我的下一任，一定要是我最后一个了。要么娶我，要么别开始。Wenyi和jinwen在pmo group闹了我们俩 哈哈 随便他们吧。才不见我5个小时就要video call我了吖？ :3 可惜没有wifi,弟弟电话被老爸拿走了，老爸的S4被妈拿了。之后很聪明的我，想到了一个绝世好方法。我call了他，然后接earphone之后开pmo whatsapp group chat. 这样握可以从earphone听他的声音，看着pmo whatsapp group chat，一般的对着电话讲话/笑，好像看着whatsapp才有反应这样。所以其他人走进来，我也还能笑笑带过不被发现。他在我面前还真的是个小孩，需要人疼的小孩。无论它在我面前还是在电话里，他总爱deh我，扮可爱，要我对他无计可施。而他对我的关心也越来越多，更加的温柔。有时我也会做一些小动作，deh他、呆呆地看着他（这样他会捏我脸）、拉着他衣角（他会很很很温柔的看着我问我怎么了）说我也很像小孩子，不会照顾自己。我怎么不会照顾自己啊，也只不过想你更疼我嘛.. 现在ber病倒了，要赶快好起来哦！晚了，该睡了，会不会有缘梦见你？那个在市场里的梦会不会是预言？晚安 :)
好吧，这是我第二次写这篇日记了。为什么？因为我蠢，按了一个键把所有的都delete完啦 TT 首先，警告。如果你是怕糖尿病，请勿读此篇章。准备好了吗？开始咯。昨晚好累，很早就滚到床上睡了。早上醒来的时候，看见ber昨晚3.30am回复我，我很生气的回了他“great, kill yourself”。他也蛮早醒的，不久就哭脸回复我，看吧，这要他这样我就没法对他凶了。他call了我，比我早到，虽然我比他迟出门但还是在5分钟里就到了哈哈。那个笨蛋，call他不接，jinwen call才听了，还找不到看不到我。Eh 被我猜中啦，他果然穿黑色 呵呵 真聪明啊我，就知道你还剩什么衣服能穿。其实我跟ex还蛮有缘的嘛，去图书馆来seminar都看到他，但有缘无份。这次的seminar有跟sarah junjie一起坐，他们两个整个来开food party这样 = = 坐下来一开wifi, eh connect了喔~ 哈哈哈竟然是ex的hotspot! 谢啦 :P 总觉得他真的对我很好，明明比我怕冷（虽然到最后我比他冷）可是还是把厚的那件jacket借了我，自己拿那件昨晚被我当雨衣淋湿完穿回家的jacket，感动满满 :’) 谢谢junjie请的Nescafe! 丫 我又被他beh了咯。不爽我又开始poke我了哦。现在，不管是他poke 我还是我poke他，到最后我们总会抓住对方的手，过了一段时间才放开。有时看到他把左手放在椅子上，我会特地去poke他的手，他就会抓住我的手指，一开始紧紧的抓着，故意弄痛我。之后慢慢放松，好像真的怕我痛了就sayang我的手指这样.. /// Chem seminar还真不错，老师you tian很好笑，讲很多ham yeh，我听不懂他又不要告诉我，我只好问sarah。哈哈真的是可怜他后面就是tino，一直被欺负。也不知道自己是怎么那么不小心，又扭到颈。从午餐走回去canopy walk的时候，一路上他就帮我按摩。在seminar我突然痛他也帮我按摩 >w< 虽然说感觉很幸福，可是应该很多人看到我很害羞lehhh. PHYSICS 真的好闷阿，我有补习老师就够了。吃饱了好累好想睡觉，有break的时候他问我要不要睡，我说要就趴在了桌子上。他叫我躺着睡，把头往后靠，我说不好吧等下妨碍到后面的人。他就问“你要靠着我睡吗？”我看着他说“你不给..”他就“靠过来吧，给你睡啦。”所以我就这样穿这他暖暖的冷衣，靠着他的肩膀睡去 ///。但也没有真正的睡下去，我太害羞了。之后醒了来，头依然靠在他的肩膀看着他玩我的pou。Sarah和junjie看到了好像蛮吃惊的 :P 。不懂是我病了还是他病了，我觉得冷他觉得热。因为我穿jacket是从前面穿的，而且也只有右手穿进衣袖里，左手藏在jacket下面。我告诉他“我要手”。他看了看我，然后他的左手就穿过jacket底握着我左手。“做莫你的手将冷？”（不冷要你握吗？要。）他紧紧地握着，我感受到丝丝的温暖，不多，但也足够 <3 之后他开始松了下来，笑着我说“你的手那么小啊”之后他放开了一次，可是被我握回去了，他好像有看着我，但我没看着他，他也没说什么。之后他放开了第二次。但这次我没握回去，而是他自己又握着我，然后很轻很轻，很温柔的握着（我可以用‘抚摸’这两个字吗？XD）好像很怕会握痛我了.. /// <3我感觉到的，是他的温柔，小心翼翼的在流溢，一点点的，疼我。当时的心情，真的是无比的幸福。被爱的感觉，多久我没体会到了？多久我没有一只暖和的手握着我，一个让我依靠的肩膀，一个关心我疼我骂我吵我又对我撒娇的笨蛋。好想这样握着，一直握着不要放手。最后他手出汗了哈哈 而老师又要我们抄东西，就这样放手了。想想我还是知足好了 :3 时间也过得很快，散了我们在食堂说了几句就各自回家去了。我和他的可爱的亲密动作越来越多了，捏鼻子、拍头、捏脸颊、玩我头发etc.. 回到家我们还继续的聊天，可惜我家的情况不太好，不然今天就皆大欢喜了。妈妈又因为爸爸一直玩电话而生气，之后又翻旧帐吵了起来。怎样都好，不要离婚就对了。把所有进展都告诉了jinwen ,我觉得她需要去医院急救急救。她说：你们这样official 不official真的没差。我不知道，或许我知道，当我不敢承认。直道那天他真的说出口了，我才敢去相信。我不想再第3次心碎了，虽然他已做到很明显了，但我还是害怕，时间还很短，才6个月。我的下一任，一定要是我最后一个了。要么娶我，要么别开始。Wenyi和jinwen在pmo group闹了我们俩 哈哈 随便他们吧。才不见我5个小时就要video call我了吖？ :3 可惜没有wifi,弟弟电话被老爸拿走了，老爸的S4被妈拿了。之后很聪明的我，想到了一个绝世好方法。我call了他，然后接earphone之后开pmo whatsapp group chat. 这样握可以从earphone听他的声音，看着pmo whatsapp group chat，一般的对着电话讲话/笑，好像看着whatsapp才有反应这样。所以其他人走进来，我也还能笑笑带过不被发现。他在我面前还真的是个小孩，需要人疼的小孩。无论它在我面前还是在电话里，他总爱deh我，扮可爱，要我对他无计可施。而他对我的关心也越来越多，更加的温柔。有时我也会做一些小动作，deh他、呆呆地看着他（这样他会捏我脸）、拉着他衣角（他会很很很温柔的看着我问我怎么了）说我也很像小孩子，不会照顾自己。我怎么不会照顾自己啊，也只不过想你更疼我嘛.. 现在ber病倒了，要赶快好起来哦！晚了，该睡了，会不会有缘梦见你？那个在市场里的梦会不会是预言？晚安 :)
oh dear.. ///
18 Oct 14
Warning, if you're reading this, prepare for diabetes. Okay so I slept very late ytd and woke very early today. 8.00AM reached kanna and eventually he came. Arh, wrong guess for clothes, who knows he'll wear back d same shirt. It's still early so v went to pmo, true enough zu Zhang having practice for performance, our appearance to them was shocking haha. Saw yz in xiao fang. Then v laugh n listen le xia jiu went off le. This sick pig haih eat le medicine feel drowsy, take care of ur cough pls! Surprised to find that arent many CHSians today, but ex always here zzz hehe pig lend me jacket again, poke die me for sleeping at 5am TT whenever he wan poke me I just hold his hand, then we're like holding each other's hand .-. When he doesnt grab me hard, he just hold my hand gently /// erm okay so at library coz tis time v sit side by side, and our leg keep crossed. He keep kiap my leg laaa or like support me from below. Then sometimes do dao hen sien so v play, he more n more like to deh me ler ._. Got one tine he deh me like sho cute I just pinches his face so hard haha opps then when I bury my head in my arms on table, he would pat my head :3 got one very sweet d is I put my head down on table n stare at him, he pinched my nose ._. /// omg I wonder how many ppl watching. done studying so went bus stop, he massaged my shoulder awhh I think first time got so special n details d massage way haha he even continue at bus. Way back home, got in pj free bus. Raining again and I'm so tired gotta save energy for later taking bus alone. He use his hand covered my eyes and ask me to sleep. Then he took his jacket out n put on his shoulder. So... I just lean lor >< on his jacket on his shoulder /// oh dear haha then idk whether he got curi take photos or not but he did post Twitter haha what pig hibernating zzz sometimes when d bus stop I sudden awake, look up n his face like so close, continue to be blur n sleep back. Not bad ar actually hehe quite nice to sleep K♡ When reached, it's raining heavily. He lend me his jacket got hood d and v rushed to 711. He bought me two waffles and ask me to eat them only let me go take bus. Wow really thanks to his jacket if not I sure fall asick le. Got home like 4.10PM thank God parents x scold. Phew, he called me when I was bathing, I called him back to report safety. Night went one U to watch Left Behind, abt Christian. Truly need to appreciate ppl around u, u wont know when God will take them away. And I always continue my prayer for him. Long day ahead!! Very tired now good night
wechat chat chat chat
17 Oct 14
School day. Pmo hall saw him, chor wck d phone play 2048 bwahaha break yz record. we walked tgt to tapak, he always complaint me walk very fast ._. Then graduation raptai, oh saw him. Hehe saw all classes video. Yeee he also no go sing haha macam alot pmoians no go. Was with zhiwei n may, sarah ran with junjie, junjie keep gap us dk why ish. Saw him with his S6 gang. Then too boring went to pmo hall gap xia juniors, nobody really choi me. Saw his shoe bag, took his phone urgh stupid password Zzzz When raptai almost end only then I went back. Accompany may to toilet, fancy meeting him. Chat liao xia argue liao xia abt password he go change. After recess he came my class n chat. Hahaha play tgt lol very childish there poke poke poke then macam fa zhan outside class 1 period n talk. He suddenly go hide behind d door, very daibi ar hahaha but need to admit it's a bit cute nia. Then had good chat with weixin sarah zhiwei abt siblings wheee. Lol wc asked me same question again. After sch v walk out tgt haha continue argue hehe. Back home lunch nap. Successfully woke by alarm pig song haha then he called me also, suddenly switch to video call ler. Nowdays v keep talk leh .-. Then he say his classmates keep laugh him abt us lo, next he deh me say 我不要跟你在一起, 我不要~ erggggggg.. etc gosh wth u want. Jinwen say he luan say only wor if not why he everyday video call me ._. Make sense juga haih dk. Yay he play dao SAZ le congratz :3 wah listen to yien's recording, mmg gam dong :') then ber sicky, throat pain ar tat pig he slept early, so I fot chanxe aoye hehe. Wow chat alot with yien abt his prob. Haih I still dk how to go back home later, god I knew u would prepare . I shall sleep like srsly 4.30AM ADDYYYYY D: !
PIG SONG :P
16 Oct 14
Very punctual got on bed 2am haha I so ting hua. Kinda productive day :3 ber went sch today. So I study sendiri. Yien play d melody really (Y) haha so wasted if he doesnt show it out. He came back like 2pm and complaint very tired lol I was abt to sleep ler tat time. Hahaha great new alarm- pig song I woke up straight away! Heheheh oh ya then ber also got call me but I was bathing = = he then called second time ask if I was real awake. Huh of course i am. Then v chatted awhile and change to wechat video call. Garhh it no tell me is video call scare die me coz on zhe my front cam. He laugh me TT meh house full of ppl, go which room also keep got ppl come in eventually i go down outside d house do chem sambil talk TT until his mom came in he had to decline. Lol I wonder did he really call to verify I'm awake or just miss me wan hear my voice? Hahahagaha sorreh tai zi lian :P but really marh.. lol that lazy pig keep stay in bed hmph I know cozy don make me so jealous when j just abt to go tuition ): yay sat can :D then movie with family ^-^ oh sure tired die .-. Haih chem so hard, 18 days left. No faith no confidence at all sob sob. Tmr got sch wheee! Too much story to tell ahahahah hehehe ♡ cant wait :)
laply day ^_^
15 Oct 14
Tiring but lovely day :) so woke up and went to sch today, heavy traffic otw dad keep nag don go out of sch, I guess he no get I go is mbpj library not sch library haih fine lazy explain. He drop me down jalan 10/3 so I walked down d path towards sch gate, when I turned my head lol he was still there fine. So I walk down until he couldn't see me anymore and I called ber ask if he's at kanna where I actually ady saw him. Yay dad went off so I go meet him at kanna, true enough i guessed correctly he wore white shirt and jeans, heh so do I :P roti canai pou zat lai zat qu was daily routine haha I saw his wa with sooyee awh so there never talk before hmm haha laugh die me :P he paided for me first without asking leh awhh gamdong :') bad luck rain while v at bus stop waiting, Snapchat at bus :3 arrived too early at 9am n saw chiyan there alone wow. Yay he brought jacket for meeee :3 awwh it's very comfy, thick enough haha very warming :) but oversize for me too xD so I study chem he study bio. His classmates eventually came and disturb and so as others people who he knows lol haha. Saw zhiyun there, when she left awhile, we went to her table and scribbled at her book first page hahaha sorrehh :P stupid ber arhh keep step on my leg or kiap my leg worry = = then ar purposely chor my stuff and put far far away don let me take back zzz keep zat me make me wanna throw my calculator on his face = = so I got hungry and make all kind of pity act cute face to him haha finally made him bring m out lunch. He made a lot of act cute face, bulp face and all those deh deh d voice at me yeeee haha it's kinda cute I have to say // yay I pull him into pet shop n watch hedgehog hehehe awwwh sho kwet omg saw baby hamsters! No fur one and so so so small! While we're laughing suddenly his bunch of classmates emerged from behind, believe me the situation was very awkward ._. Luckily they went mcd v go food court. Haha met jiaqian there. He helped me to order lol v eat same thing Siew gai fan haha, yer he keep force me to eat vege D: this time he paid for me too :3 so v walked back too bad ice kacang no open sob continue study lo .-. Opps saw jj's bag n bottle there hmm so he was here. When v got back we aren't in jackets, derrick wenyi n Zhiyun laughed straight away, say we couple tee LOL hahahah okay so they noticed. Derrick asked him if we're together, he reply "if i say we werent u also wont believe la" suddenly everyone fall into silence. SOMEONE PLS GET THAT INTERPRET! feeling drowsy after lunch. He let me hear songs from his phone, light song wow purposely make me feel sleepy. Then keep press stop play forward repeat walao my ears = = finally i beh tahan and hugged his jacket and sleep :3 kyaa warm ♡ He woke me at 3.20 smth and asked if I can still study if not just leave lor. I just nodded then v left. He took me to a kinda bakery shop and introduced me 爱玉冰 a sour jelly iced dessert. Told him I x like sour but he say there's sweet, but I end up finishing the whole thing haha I think he's the first who make me drank sour thing at once. He say next time come eat cream puff if I wan heheh :3 paid for me too omg hahaha happy die. Went bus stop argh stupid bo shelter d then stand below bridge. Heh we're so close that he could rest his hand on my head = = v got up free bus and its 1 hour travel. Raining plus air cond colddd ._. It would b better if he let me sit inside hmph ): haha I wasnt brave enough to sleep at his shoulder :x he say let me sleep but end up forcing me to promise him sleep early with his poking attack T T sob on bus leh so many ppl watching omg, but if I'm outsiders i would like walao so sweet can don play at bus mah? everytime he wan poke me I will grab his hand like very tight, he just let me .-. Then when I poke him he grabbed my hand too. Tightly, until I can feel his warmth where i was abt to cold die, he just grabbed me for long // v sat kinda close he keep doing stuff to annoy me laaa. Play my phone pou and play piano etc, when v reach it was still raining. The moment i get down d bus he straight poke attack me omg zzz poke me dao up the crossing bridge T T Keep ask me when will I sleep, I say 3 he jiu poke me TT then I say 12 he like wah so early, erm 12pm hahaha walao kena he poke again. Okok so 12 am, next day hahaha shit kena poke die twice T T then he keep grabbing my hand dont let me go down bridge and force me to promise sleep on 2 T T it's sweet but dangerous tou .-. Reach back sch and it's raining ao heavily. V went up pmo hall but no open sob if not can plap piano tgt.. then v went canteen lur, haha he let me listen to 猪之歌, now I'm addicted, even new alarm hahaha erm so I pay him back all the fees, haha he need to buy dinner for his sis. I remember well how he actually say 'guai la' so so so gentle to ask and persuade me sleep early // haha when jinwen called in v let her hear d pig song xD hehe basically thats our one day date :) sweet ma? Ehhh ppl say sweet lurh I feel happy too laaa but dk him leh. He say he wont couple until 20 but it's kinda hard to believe he doesnt like me when he did all this with me, we're so unofficial. Maybe he takes the wait, where last time I said, dont really need to b couple. Hmm idk if it's worth waiting? For now my answer is, yes :)
lazy day hahaha
14 Oct 14
Hey slept at 6am and woke at 7am hahaha went sis house continue sleep zzz. He called me twice at 11am but phone lag no pick dao. Then he called again at 12pm, the first thing i heard is piano melody. So I had 15 mins piano live show thru phone haha and rest of the 17mins he tried to wake me up and get me out of bed. What a warming morning ♡ afternoon do chemistry and we also video call, my phone restart twice before that T T umh it was fun haha he can straight away help me solve problems, and live piano show again. He took me a tour to her sister's flush toy haha so cute. Headache at night i hope it wasnt real fever. Arghh I wish I could go up pmo hall tmr and play d piano ): haih dk la umh gonna see hedgehog again yay ^-^ I really really wish my chemistry would be better better better ):
eheheh :P not poductive
13 Oct 14
Morning hehe Monday but holiday. Jinwen overslept lol ok so end up late 1 hr start revising. Believe me it was not productive at all. Aiyor this gal forgot hee wallet zz oh dear the blue prom long dress looks nice, doki doki hehe. Ahh go home nap ♡ 'morning call' by pig eh he really got mo qi dao scary, initially d question that I want to ask him, he asked me first le. Haha opps sry jinwen gonna left u out liao wheee hedgehog wait for meeee. Tuition tuition. Haih ber changed wa photo sob sob. Then night chiong chem! Paper 1 only ady wan do dao cry liao zzz thanks ber pei me dao 4am TT it's 5.35am now glad no sch for a week. Okay get some good rest and hardcore continue later, worth it worth it yoooo
SEMINARRR :D
12 Oct 14
Seminar day! Went sunway college very early and I was kinda alone at first. Went to popular but it isn't open so I went ice skating there and watch. Ber called and ask where am I then I went to mcd. When I'm taking order suddenly he emerged from inside mcd. FML I was just abt to scare to death. He say he wan gimme surprise haha then breakfast and study bio there. Keep saying his coffee is tea lol am I blind, and would someone add sugar and cream into tea? Snapchat hehe. Thanks for helping me refill :D he actually likes kids :3 he helped a boy to get the sauces awhh so daddy feel. Then whenever he see child around 3-6 he will stare at them and smile x) awwwhh so lovely I wore his spec and took pic, amazingly I look alot like puiling ._. He said I'm cute with dimples // everytime junjie called he answer it haha and lie to junjie that i'm not there. Ochado yay he went just to charge his phone, glad v no mind saliva haha shared his. Wintermelon err ok la. Walked thru canopy walk, he asked me abt couple thing. I said best fren dont really need to be couple to get tgt, he said puiling think d same thing. He say he wont couple until he gets 20 because he'll just cause trouble for it. So..telling me to wait? Haha 2 years TT anyway v got in the hall, saw some chsians but not those who will make fun of us. We sat separately from sarah junjie, they came late from garage 51. Ermm seminar was interesting, I did expect more on targeting question but the notes was helpful. Study with him sure is happy :) is like idk just ask him and keep getting reminders and confirmation, for him too. We joke alot haha thanks for lending jacket :) I know u're cold too. But still u lend to me and help me to put on // xie laaa :) strangely that he doesnt want to junjie sarah to sit with us, evwn though there is space but he just keep reject. Lunch too, he dw eat with them too no matter how they persuaded. I actually wonder why too, sarah guess maybe he doesnt want to be with them. But my 6 sense tell me that, it might be part of d reason but not d main one. What I think really is, me. He wants to be with me, like together and have privacy. And just two us laughing and sharing. Well at lease this is d feeling i got from him, when he's beside me taking care of me, joking with me. Maybe I did interprete it wrong but just let it be like that in my mind // at lease a warm one ♡ departing was hard when seminar ends. He take taxi back and I sent him back to canopy walk, we struggle but end up I'm the one who watching his back. Sarah fetched me back and again family brought us to sunway shopping lol. I called him to make sure he arrived and glad he's. Bought my shoe for prom yay RM50 haha dark pink. I was really tired and headache. Not feeling that well maybe the coffee behind all of these. Got home and v argued long to shuu him to sleep early. I'm not sure whether he listen. He seems to listen when I said 'pig, i trust u' haha sorreh it's kinda odd but its true. I keep having this in my mind- 好朋友不一定要成为情人才能在一起, 但有些好朋友真的不能不让你心动。seriously pig, I hate you very much.
Saturday but school day
11 Oct 14
Saturday but school day. I was freaking tired in d morning, slept thru at pmo hall. I heard peh came up and they start joking abt him n piang, then they asked ber to move and laugh pulled me in. Gosh just lemme sleep. Zhiwei n weixin ffk ): so I'm with Sarah, apparently junjie absent too. Fancy meeting him during recess. 转角遇到 :x then he came n find me to seminar~ but I was too awkward to sit tgt /// well a lot ppl there larhh.. after seminar v walked out and its abt to sch end so v walked outside too. He knows how to whistle ._. Ok lorh fine idk n I dont need hmph. Over napping grr idk why I cant hear the alarms! Keep thinking how they was turned off. Very very demotivate at night, keep watching tv only. I wonder what mom is angry over. Nobody gets it zzz why make life so hard? Anyway TTC seminar tmr wow this would be our first Sunday tgt? A week seeing each other :) hmm today his wa photo is us :3 well didnt really feel what lurh unless he put it for long. But he wont d la cheh. Sometimes he should really be more honest to himself, or he really think I'm so stupid to be fooled over .-.
my soul
10 Oct 14
Happy day ^-^ happy birthday Yongliang mom! Yay got cheese cake eat, even though I don like berries, but still it's nice :D having dessert in d morning really does brighten ur mood up. Yongliang said ber suddenly show up in front of his house ytd night to deliver the cake haha, no wonder he gone missing last night. Ber walked me back to class, well we almost reach class then Melvin grabbed him away ._. Weixin ffk me sob. And I found out that derrick used to like zhiwei xD form 4 haha oh no this is so unexpected. We chatted during recess, hahah he get played by wengcheong and yien them opps. Then moral seminar tgt so pack lol. I tried hard to listen but too boring end up completing one bio paper 1 haha. Sarah half way nose bleed really freak me out, I havent nose bleed before i didnt really knkw what to do beside tissue, Ice, lye back ur head. End of seminar chat with him, true enough got kacau by a lot of ppl aiks ._. He waited me after sch too, most us pmoians there, wished Yongliang happy birthday again :3 I cant remember whether v get disturb when going out of sch but I knew his bye are alwahs so gentle :x nap at 2 today and he woke me uo at 4, he didnt make it long this time, rushing out to exercise i guess. But he did make a lot of noise thru wa hahaha. Hm night continue bio and play my soul :3 addicted to it now love da melody sho sho sho much ♡
CAPTAIN BALL!
9 Oct 14
Today zhiwei no come to school. Ber gave me prom ticket this morning, true enough he helped others to take too. We walked back together, his sister saw us. Last pj class of my highschool life :) CAPTAIN BALL! YAY haha awesomely fun x) hehr sweat a lot. Played too hard I'm so tired rest of the day. Slept thru physics period because Pn Loo x come. Yay made soap at chem today. Last period we future predicting with sarah, june and qian chern. He didnt look for me during recess.. hmm but he did wait for me after school, we walk out tgt :) owhh he did my bulp face xD sho kwet hehe fat die hahaha when v walking out many his classmates disturbing and making noise, he scolded and shuu them away. Walao fierce dao ._. Haha but he said bye to me very wen rou ^-^ went home lunch bath nap! HAIH YA I MISSED HIS CALL FOR 4 TIMES SOBBBB. tuition was so so, not really happy he macam x choi me. So I went hardcore on piano- july's my soul. 2 hours I've finally done the intro hahahaha but it's okay good achievement.
chick chick
8 Oct 14
Woke up in despair. He didnt reply me. Got to school, met him on stairs, then i staright fall asleep at pmo hall. Didnt wait him and I sprint to tapak. Emo le whole day, for why idk. Maybe ytd he dw tell me d reason for staying bah. Then went bio seminar, I was quite cheered after that. Cried in class haih. Last period went reading corner 2 because form 2s having exam. I walked d long path out of sch thought i could have hope meeting him but end up in own disappointment of expectation. I saw ruey but he was with his fren so I gave up. Got home eat study bath sleep. Again, alarm fail to wake me up. Beh tahan finally wa and wechat pig. He replied ._. Lol he didnt c my wa ytd zzz and he overslept almost late to sch this morning okay lurh. Was feeling ok after chatting with pig :) haha got in chick topic :P think he's going prom ^-^ yay he help me take ticket from mj lalala. Getting closer with ruey recently, I think it's time to set border.
too tired
7 Oct 14
Back to sch tired like hell. Was kinda panic when I got to pmo hall n he wasnt there. I was quite sure he x tell me he will ponteng. True enough he came up later and walked me back to class. Sarah ponteng today. Spent my day with zhiwei n weixin. X see him recess n after sch haih. Purata 76 ._. 16 in class. Got home lunch bath staright away nap 3 hrs oh dear. Night do bio but wasn't productive. Too tired ar today so sleep early ba. Hope I wasnt trying too hard, started to get tired for being zhu dong ady.. and ruey taught me smth fun today haha
tired dayyy
6 Oct 14
Woke up an hour earlier before my alarm rang. Went to zhongbu meeting with huanzong. Too long, very tiring. They discussed abt camp. Haih too bad next year went Isaiah, if not I really hope to be involved in committee. Told huanzong abt mif new committee list d problems, welk v reli need to find a day and discuss with pastor. I think ber understand I'm super worn out when I first reply his wa today "tired" he asked me to sleep at car and he can wake me up later. Ermm I'll do that if you're d one driving haha. Sleeping beside huanzong too weird la, is better to talk :P lunch so late like 2.30 I hungry die yay McD well not that happy too. Then straight away fall asleep on bed. Woke up prepare do tuition hw then go tuition le. Today tuition so busy. No time to slack to wa to chat ._. Teacher keep giving answer, and I'm doing double work copying last 2 week paper d ans. Sej night today, haih all alone. Ber n ruey both slept early. well at lease I'm done with all objectives! Okay it's late now gotta sleep nights :)
high high high
5 Oct 14
Im kinda high today .-. Went church nth much special, just that pastor say I can be pres even when I'm gone 3 months. Dk why mom got mad haih and I tried to study in d afternoon. But my eyes wouldn't allow me to. I hope it gets better.. today ber isnt very like wanna talk to me but nvm. Okay ruey was like so slack today keep chatting with me lol. Haih tmr meeting, felt tired suddenly for all of this. I wish I could get some real rest. And heal my eyes.
missed a chance
4 Oct 14
Okay so woke up and finally replied ber's wa. His reply make me felt cared :) haih too bad he no early tell me he go library today sob. I went to ikea, bought many books and free juice because of my name. I hurted my middle finger, it's doesn't really hurt but the skin came off and the flesh n blood burst out, thats very ewwww. Umh how to say. Out relationship became weird again? Or I'm thinking it weird. We dont talk much. Sometime i feel loved. Like I can imagine if he talk to me in reality like d way he talk to me in wa, thats kinda warming. But he said abt confession today. I was guessing the song's lyrics, then he was asking am I confessing. Wth why would I. Idk why I'm so mad but maybe I'm just too shy, but I really have no intention to confess like srsly. So I scolded him badly (sorry) , then he act cute and got over it. Argh pig would confess to u kay. Besides that, I talked very frequently with ruey too. Too bad. He was nice. But the timing just too late. My pig came first :P
was happy
3 Oct 14
I was very happy in the morning. He wa me, then I went up pmo hall, chatted but no walk back tgt. I was really cheer at class, singing doing add maths. Then recess. He told me his camp crashed with prom. He seems very troubled by it. Said he dw go, cannot leave early, he hold important pose, very rush. Everything he said, I said nothing just replied with smile. Fake ones. Then he left, I turned down. Felt so down that I couldn't study and got all headache. Weixin zhiwei Sarah them tried to cheer me up. But still I couldn't think of any better solutions. I'm preparing for the worse. Gazed in d air when it's already end of school, he emerged at back doot of my class. I dont know how should I face him. What expression should i write on my face. It's not his fault that I know, but I'm sad because of him, and I feel stupid abt it. Jinwen went pyramid. It was not such a good day but thanks jinwen n ruey tried hard to cheer me up. Still cruel is cruel, reality is reality. I feel bad for ignoring him now. I felt tired. I dont really feel well. Physical and mental. Save me
angry xinyi is angry
2 Oct 14
Nommm angry ber. X went up pmo hall, and I hid from him during recess :x seriously if I x show up in d morning, he tot I x come to sch ady. Yet he still came to find me after recess. Then I was beeea him in class thru window bu shuang him liddat, he say ytd when I call he got things to do. Then he dk what to reply me, he dw reply lol or :P what shit etc. Nahhh nvm then after sch he keep asking what I said in phone i just ignore ignore ignore and ignore hehe. Today pjk basketball again haih sien chat with zhiwei, now chats might get boring too. I tried to study in class but it wont works. Weng cheong asked me abt ber again, and ge even remind me thats he's outside d class after recess urghhh. I tot he wont come find me but zhiwei n sarah say he will. Finneee >< back home lunch do bit hw, fight quarrel abit with that noisy crow but it always end up in laughter haha. Nap because it was a nice weather ♡ ohh he woke me up, and I think I super 赖床 today oppss haha sorreh used up yr $ :3 too bad I uninstalled viber ._. I dont think any people could answer the question "梁山伯是你的谁" when they just woke up. I do wonder why he so willing to wake me up, although sometimes he doesn't. If he did this to any girls who request? Maybe I'm too afraid to hear the answer. Tuition tuition tuition. Yay hedgehog wallpaper ♡ cute daooo ahya I changed his name again, very cute lehhh everytime he scold me I also bu ren xin scold back awwh :3
Hi October, surprise me.
1 Oct 14
Hi October, surprise me. Wednesday is a chatting day. Together with zhiwei today. We chatted abt future, studies. Then my ex, and our stories again. I went up pmo hall as usual but v didnt talk, yl grabbed him away and walk their own. So I walked mine, but before seperate, he called me and ask when to give back me the ttc money. So I think he wasn't that bad to ignore me in the beginning of the day. He came to me in recess and return d money, we talked for awhile, and then I realized S6ians really like to hang out at my class. I got question by wengcheong abt our relationship, I dont know how to answer. Still I said friends, I myself laughed over that later on, I knew we wasnt, but we aren't others too. After school chatting session with yien, time flies slowly, and my period start today. That ugly crow remembered it well, my last period. They said he like me, what I think, sometime ya sometime no. Like now, no. I called him in the afternoon, he said he was doing some project. I knew he wouldn't tell, so I call off. And he didnt even reply after that. Maybe, thats what I fear if we are together. I fear I would start to mind, care, angry that he doesn't reply or he wasnt giving out time with me. Like now, I dont have the position to question anything so I couldn't care much. Even if I do. Maybe, its good to be just friend, it cost too much to lost a friend like him. Too much.
Hi October, surprise me. Wednesday is a chatting day. Together with zhiwei today. We chatted abt future, studies. Then my ex, and our stories again. I went up pmo hall as usual but v didnt talk, yl grabbed him away and walk their own. So I walked mine, but before seperate, he called me and ask when to give back me the ttc money. So I think he wasn't that bad to ignore me in the beginning of the day. He came to me in recess and return d money, we talked for awhile, and then I realized S6ians really like to hang out at my class. I got question by wengcheong abt our relationship, I dont know how to answer. Still I said friends, I myself laughed over that later on, I knew we wasnt, but we aren't others too. After school chatting session with yien, time flies slowly, and my period start today. That ugly crow remembered it well, my last period. They said he like me, what I think, sometime ya sometime no. Like now, no. I called him in the afternoon, he said he was doing some project. I knew he wouldn't tell, so I call off. And he didnt even reply after that. Maybe, thats what I fear if we are together. I fear I would start to mind, care, angry that he doesn't reply or he wasnt giving out time with me. Like now, I dont have the position to question anything so I couldn't care much. Even if I do. Maybe, its good to be just friend, it cost too much to lost a friend like him. Too much.
11/07/2014
he do remember that I'm crazy over it
30 Sep 14
Super unproductive in the morning, but after i heard the fact that next two weeks is holiday and left 9 days to school. I'm really really tense up and nervous. Super productive in the afternoon and night. I dont even consider napping anymore so time wasting! I've done physics set, moral set, sej paper one, 概述, bio typing. Met ugly crow in morning at kanna haih glad he calm quite my moos because i was in a very mad mood when I wake up idk why, pms probably. Haha feel so loved when he pei me to sch gate /// umh and saw his wa msg me, mehh miss ppl jiu say lah haha then night before sleep he usher me and send hedgehog photo to me awhh cute dao ♡ wow he remember to take photo of hedgehog when he went library pass by the pet shop today, so he do remember that I'm crazy over it :3 okayyy ♡ ttc seminar settle, 2 days date awaiting? Nohhhh study pleaser
sleep is a luxury
29 Sep 14
Always fall sick on Monday night. Well great credits expired today. School was fun chatting around, umh there are people who around you constantly make u jealous like wtf ok none of your business telling me and showing off so what, I'll give u brightest smile and stab u deeply if I could. So love counsel by prof zhiwei n sarah abt how to know a guy like u. Basically they agreed he likes me but weixin also suggested i might think too much. Okay not putting hopes up, things are great this way, although i do wished.. nvm. Still cant resist to nap ): I think even now sleep is a luxury. Tuition, goddamit he reali no buy for me ): okayyy I no credit use, bro data expired too. Sniff TT thought of studying with coffee tonight but too sick now /.\ haih today he too cute ler, morning tgt, recess find me, chem lab back to class find me, after sch tgt :3 stupid ugly pig
nominations meeting
28 Sep 14
What a day. Got scolded like I murdered someone while actually i splited milo container. Had nominations meeting today. The result was not that satisfy, they still think me for the best choice, got to ask pastor for it. I wonder if I should adjust my napping habit? I slept too much recently! Example today from 4 smth to 7 gosh. So I did chem at night haih. Yay finally got dad to sponsor me to TTC seminar :3 one anf a half day hmm :) I think I so pianxin larh. Last time jong ask me I just straight away shut him down waste money waste time hahaha oppps :P okay la gonna sleep soon too tired to continue chem bye nights
brainstorm
27 Sep 14
Hi Saturday no go school study chem in the morning, weird that my period havent come but ber say not so early, like seriously he remember when was my last time = = nothing much happened, night when parents out he called me. Idk how long we talked, 1 hr? I've been shouting thru d phone for long, he keep bully my hedgehog ): oh ya I think I'll b going as same ttc seminar with him :) he asked me first d, then he say want him pei me chem anot haha okay lurhhh then brainstorm abt tmr 提名委员会议 haih.. I really dk who to put.. weijun put Madeline, Kylie say I'm the best n it's okay for me to gone 3 months, ber no give shit, now talking to huanen lur.. future zhi dao? Hahahaha. Hand over to God, please lead someone to lead mif.
Happy birthday zhiwei!
26 Sep 14
Happy birthday zhiwei! Tired die I only slept for half an hour, record broke haha. Today no perhimpunan, he walked me back class too :) sarah kena susan catch because she went find melyssa ): but she no go discipline room find her. After sch v walked tgt, kena ruey kacau = = okayy got home watch 最烂学生2 cried :'( why he dieeeeee >< then follow mi2 go IMU, very small ._. Afternoon keep wa with ber :3 abt hedgehog = = I scold dao him ar hahaha then finally got tired, caffeine effect gone le slept n nap yay not going sch tmr heh :)
chiong zhiwei's bday card!!
25 Sep 14
What a funny day. Morning everyone was busy filling testimony form. Susan today diao us again for not moving when 2nd bell rings. Then me n ber walk back tgt, he send me to class :3 haha I didnt get to pjk because my pinafore d zip wouldn't open. Glad zhiwei later help me to force it unzip n I got to change bck sch u. Yay maths was great, physics too :) well those hard ones havent return back. Recess no eat but went around to find teacher sign d testimony paper. Cedric was best hahaha. Then after sch I got to walk out with ber too, he remembers me omg so gamdong hahaha haiya too bad yl was there ish. So night back from tuition chiong zhiwei's bday card. And guess what, it's 4.47am now HAHAHAHA I'll be so so so regret when I wake up later. She better cry gamdong n love die me ya. Called ber when I'm done and he's like wth what's the time now faster go sleep, opps :x I can feel my stomach hurting, urgh caffeine.. haha just now yz ask me help him print music sheet, then he ask who I find, I told him is ber. Then yz is like LOL I msg him he no choi me, hamsap etc HAHAHA opppps x) dont know why I felt happy heh :P
prom problems urgh
24 Sep 14
No wear pmo shirt, no go up pmo hall, no perhimpunan too hehe lucky me. Today was busying zhiwei's card, get everyone to write wishes. Great day for add maths, sejarah and english :) alvin searched for me to ask abt prom ticket. I thought i made it clear enough to meijing? Then ber recess also find me, ask abt same thing too. Then v chat very long even when jamie n melyssa called but still he talking with me until susan came then run haha. After sch with yien chat, feel so bad to make him stuck between me n his brothers. I'm glad I had such a thinkable fren, while others stil take me as bad guy for no reason. Even my frens here supporting me doesnt hate him, why his fren does? This show how immature they are. We had fun chatting abt relationship, my bro etc. Rain whenever i wanted to go home, glad i sat my bro's transporter's car home. Watch anime again hehe night chiong testimony. Take me hours to figure that out oh dear haha. Tmr only continue bah. Haha finally ber asked me going to ttc seminar anot and tmr staying anot and sat sunway library when open :3 aduh that peh changed pmo group into mona leong lisa = = and with my form 2 class photo Zzz
Japanese exam shit
23 Sep 14
JAPANESE EXAM TEST TODAY. Dad fetch me to SMK (P) Sri Aman in d morning, jam, but I was d second to arrive after peiji. Unluckily my credit expired, needa use bro's. The exam was okay, hard okay TT poster at last section was so shocking, I hope I pass! Then rehana sensei fetch me back sch, before tat v went lost in search for kfc. Free hamburger from teacher and I ate outside pmo stairs there, waiting pig reply my sms. Haih wait bu dao le then I went back class, everyone was so shock that I came haha. The only exam paper given today is bio, I got quite well. Finally he replied my sms during bio because he having wkk's period. Went for ice cream takotao n ochado with jinwen hehehe. Night go tuition, first time Tuesday class, saw qicheng, jiawen n a S1 girl. Quite boring touu, everyone so serious nobody joking one zz chat with ber n ruey hehe. That pig arrr more n more caring le haha :x
back to schoooool
22 Sep 14
Back to school, ah it's pmo hall again. He was there laughing, eye small small. Umh assembly was ok. Except for OBP said too much abt UPSR ya but its fun hearing jia qian zat haha. Got some of the papers back. I didnt get A for BM and Chem, but I got A for moral. Pn too just encouraged me thru my section B and C, haha thanks. Then chiong for Japanese. So damn lost and bad I know how worse I am. Haih what can I do for last minite? Do my best. Unlucky fall sick at night, but glad I have u guys (i mean really all guy) encouraging n cheering all the time with me, thanks a lot! Ruey n ber who I always annoy thanks for letting me annoy and yien n john who zhu dong came n encouraged me, xie xie ni men :) glad I felt better after going home. Haha all the best la I know u can d xinyi. Two time lucky is enough
happy mif dayyy :D
21 Sep 14
Oh it's sunday and last day of holiday! Last night was crazy and I had so much of fun, woke up late today ._. Pianist after so long, I couldn't say I did well haih. Tried to minimize the mistake i could made. Today's game was fun too. Writing everything on majong paper, at lease my group members are hehe. Me Rachel weijun liuen william zongyi haha everyone participated! We laughed so hard x) meeting, we made it in 2hrs. It was okay and I was not that tense anymore hehe. Pastor suggested me to Isaiah.. gotta think abt it. Then heng fetch me to weijun's shop! Yay first time sit his car xD hahaha steady worr :) then v chat n had lunch. Dad rush me home bcoz mom rage mood. Rush enough i reach home then she keep guak and seriously u have car u can drive ur darling son to exercise, or u can let ur dear son to follow dad out so v one way go. Did u even think of the solutions before u start shutting ur damn brain off. Seriously, childish. Napped. Nights study Japanese, I just PASSED. Da hell, with dictionary somemore. So dommed. And Tuesday is exam le, wait me cry la okay. Today ber also quite happy. Keep wa me and say after spm play d horror game again (no idw zz) then I told him abt Isaiah, he say go la if I want to. If I confirm wan go le he dec bring me ioi seoul garden worrr x) I told him not to ffk me agian hahaha he say he will start to starve aduh. And also the cafe he always went, Vchat. Keep saying the guy they sang well n lengzai haha. He say next time bring me too? But need wait dao 9.30 only got song hear, I need to overnight for that, since he dk how to drive yet. Haha these better not empty promises ok. Oh well, sch reopen. Good night :)
PMO BBQ PARTY
20 Sep 14
WHAT A FUN CRAZY DAY HAHAHAHA. Okay so we f5 pmoians went to ruoyi house bbq. Glad my parents no nag or question me abt alvin coz he came my house n car pool. V arrived quite late, the chickens and sausage were done so I juz eat saja hehe. Too bad it rains. So v ate and chat in d room, me n ck sit on each sofa like a boss yay. And I almost laughed and spilled my coke when ck say all need 75kg above only can do probay hahahaha then they say I macam drink alcohol coz my face all red. Second cook was bacon yay but v went in house to play games instead. This time ber Bluetooth me his photo n use my phone to edit them, eventually v stood n sat tgt side by side. So they off all lights and use tv screen to play EYE, a horror game where u need to collect bags when a ghost is wondering at corridors. Everyone take turns to play and luckily ber won the game and I donnid to play! Haha all the awhile we were sitting tgt on floor n he use my phone to edit photos. Whatsapp ruey. And then erm he also took some crips for me coz I'm sitting quite far from d table. Oh ya v shared same cup of water too, v dont care laaa. And he actually wanted to feed me chocolate, but end up he didnt haih. Others sometime so busybody sat beside us n push us tgt closer lol. Haha later he went up and sit at sofa, which directly above me, and I lean on sofa then he 趴着 on it, quite close. Later v used selfie stick n selfie n take photos. We talked quite alot n it's very fun tgt with everyone. Idk but I think he's quite close with me today, not sure izit less ppl or in d dark? Stomach pain haha. Listen to him guai sleep early good night. Best holiday ever ♡ being with someone I wanted tos ee more than 24hours a day. Hahaha opps
MBSJ Sunway Library date?
19 Sep 14
If one word is needed to describe today, that would be miracle. I stayed up 4.30am yesterday to emo and continuously listening 等一个人. Woke up in d morning and went to sch aimlessly, I was praying for it. Somehow this feeling is getting so realistic. I sat at reading cornet and read Let it Snow. My junior was few table away instead of talking but she facebook me. Twitter, he woke and stupidly. True enough he whatsapp me and what I predicted just happened. So he suddenly can go ler. Great and I'm not wearing long pants. So called melyssa whether she could borrow me but unfortunately no. Jing xuan more geng, afternoon only reply my msg. And so suddenly he decided he'll come sunway ._. Er I was really surprised ya. So I rushed home and change and go scout library path glad it's open and sat there read my novel. Constantly sms him, I'm actually so worried he'll get lost, rushed to get him at pyramid. Hot sun urgh sweat like hell and v had lunch at food court :3 true enough, play my phone, pou because v heard a lil gal behind us playing too haha. He cut his hair, pffft. Then v walked to library he keep nag me on d way urgh crow. So he very 厚脸皮 d share table with other ppl, n make d guy leave = = haha I study jap and he moral. Lol v keep Snapchat here n there then whatsapp. Opps he saw his name in my phone :x nagged me for that too. Haha thanks for taking d WiFi password! I was so tired fall asleep soundly for 30 mins lol. I have no idea why but I can fall asleep really fast and deeply beside him (recall last time at pmo hall, hari kemerdekaan) and he sneak shot me = = yay v got selfie tgt hehe. Although i look so blur urgh. We walked off by 3.30pm and to bus stop. I didnt know he actually felt bad and noticed i was feeling really sad. Thats why he kept his promise, ktm from bukit jalil to mid then bus to sunway with traffic jam. Awwh so gam dong :') and he asked why I was feeling so insanely down emo, so I told him and he.. just listen lol. V memang like two kids. Fight n quarrel here n there all d way, I can say v actually very noisy -.- bus stop hahaha he missed 2 bus laugh die me. So I chatted with him all d time until he get up d bus. He do have ways to make me.listen and go according to his plan d wor. Like I was actually sitting on bench then he said there smth behind me so of coz I'll walk towards him right, clever boy. After he up at bus, I msg him "be careful" , and he replied me like quite long and feel so protective /// get home yz replied whatsapp and say walao ber scold me etc hahaha opps he didnt know that was me. Well v actually playing each others phone. I sent to yz yl and some girls. Then he sent to john and prank him abt meeting wth hahaha. And john actually believed it ._. I must really be a blessed child because parents just let me go BBQ party tmr! Yay :D thank you sekni for fetching me home and thank you ber for actually trying to help me solve transport problem. Tmr origiv can b tgt like whole day, but its okay. I had enough fun today ^^ it looks like a real date
I lost to myself
18 Sep 14
Not a good day. Thank God for 11 hours sleep watched 6 episode of oremoi today. Studied some Japanese. Well those unhappy things, if I could just care less, ignore, it would be nothing, but I just couldn't. And so it's like this. Snapchat. Story.and I saw and opened JJ's. With a girl eating. Then Twitter he said he actually enjoyed. Wow. enjoy what. Okay. That dont really hurt, he free to do what he wants. Zhiwei Snapchat me. She said he asked someone to be his promdate. I dont think I need to know who and that's enough for me to break down. Thanks very much. Because i do care. Very. And I lost. To myself. So pathetic. If this not enough for me to sad, there's more. I was well ffk by crow 3 times in a row, thanks for breaking my hopes u gave me, I'm so silly for putting them up high and pray for it. I slept nap after first break down, spammed 48 snaps to crow and I'm done. After tuition, when I open wa. Oh wow so surprise. Another girl. Who is she idw know and idw to care. Please just make me blind. Make me deaf. Idw these stupid feelings. Thanks yieruey, kylie, yien being there for me . Ya. I cried. Like how many times I dont know. Thank u ruey pei me until so late. Listening 等一个人 repeatly. I wonder, if he's worth waiting. Worth the tears. Worth for me. I pray, would be prayer come true, or I'm on the wrong track, that's why it's painful. Im so stupid. Xinyi u stupid girl. Get up and be strong n independent alright. No one will be there for u. U knew it. Get those stupid feelings aside. U cant be weak. Where's ur courage....
If prayers works
16 Sep 14
Bad day, it couldn't get worse. Mom mad at my clothes. He asked me out on sat and sun, but I'm doubting it now as bubbles. Stupid headache. I think the only thing I'm happy with tmr's schedule, and the comfy cozy oversized class tee I'm wearing. I'd wished for better, sincerly. If prayers works, will I feel better?
ipohhh model day
14 Sep 14
Last day at ipoh! Woke up once at 3am and saw my data is still on and he replied my wa at 1am. Fall back sleep and woke up at 8 smth, they say it rained heavily last night, well I had a good sleep :) went eat pan mee then go take photos with mural around ipoh old road. Thanks ah bah for being my professional photographer! Then went my childhood best memory-di ah gong yuan hehe. Awwh I lost many of those memories but still some never fade in my mind and heart :) I feel sorry for rejecting to buy ice cream from that indian guy, before I knew he was handicapped, lost his leg but still working hard, I'm sorry ): after lunch went visit grandpa. Then napped at ahpo house before v went back KL. Gosh I still dk how to ride bicycle. Got back home and it was 9 ady, opened and read all those papers from juniors, haha thank u so much! Great happy tired day :) hehe wish tmr better! Nights.
What holiday is this
13 Sep 14
Going back ipoh! Morning went church, with my dear kylie again. Got catch to b waiter today. My hand got swollen because of ant bite zzz ao itchy and it hurts when apply cream. Today ber treat me quite good la~ went back ipoh n ate alot nice food. Idk how to ride bicycle TT then sleeping alone at luan sis's house. Glad I clever enuf no let ahyi got chance brainwash me abt Japan trip hehe. Ok lah tmr jiu yao go back le TT haih too much to do sien. What holiday is this
PMO INSTALLATION BYE F5
12 Sep 14
Finally it's pmo installation. Wah tat 3 guy no sleep wor, so yolo. Morning wake up very tired, sneeze a lot. Then arrived liao jiu register. I'm same group with jinwen. Start hiding all the clues, thav selfie at hideout. I kena ant sting when hiding zz game time yay! Haha so happy my group got first! Then lunh was nice~ LOL they yam sing for me ber ao awkward, he didnt know n he did it too hahahaha. Video was ok~ many ber sd photo a hahaha. Then sharing session from teacher, talk abt relationship love. Then when start group sharing, too boring n went in xiao fang n chat with cello guys . Yl sleeping yz went out left us awake. He lying down cha dian jiu sleep in my lap ler ._. Then he keeo poke me so j slap hin, walao he ke tis builly me then I smash his face n stomach, reli love tis kind of situation, where v can play so much hehe. Then sharing tay time I cried a lot. I don wish man leng to quit.. but I'll respect her decision, as she so dedicated to KK. night movie with jinwen n yien, cafe waiting love. Cried again hahahaa. Main actor so kwet! Gam dong. Thx yien for helping n giving opinion abt prom dress! Hehe ber tmr jiayou a!
last chs exam paper!
11 Sep 14
Hi okay last chs paper of the year. Maths was tough. Mr tee's retirement was grand. The performance was great. Diabolo improved alot with minimum mistake. After sch v pmoians f5 went mid. I didnt have much interaction with him today. Part of emo reasons. Haih v did alot for our juniors. I hope they did their best to us too? Amazingly v met when going back from mid to bus stop. V really no say to meet d but they don believe ok. Chia zhi shan asked me whether i like ber anot. I didnt answer. I guess I don like ppl asking me liddat too. Whole night emo. He was trying to cheer me. But he's busy too. Idk. Jinwen first time overnight here. Hehe so v do tgt. She slept earlier. I finishing my last sentence for zhao yu. Haih its 3 ady. Good night.
LEGOLAS ♡
10 Sep 14
Yaaaaay bio n eng paper was not bad x) LEGOLAS haha ♡ smiled thru d paper, so lengzai~ yes this would b d last time v lunch tgt after sch for trials~ yerrr he ah so childish play with my stuffs = = hmm but felt happy got this 脑残 d boy make me happy hehe. Aiya also dk he wan go mid or ioi d ): hmph don ffk me a zz physics was a lot to read, surprisingly i ady holiday mood omg. No mood to study at all TT haha sleeping earlier everyday. 12.38am, #RIPPHYSICS
we're not but yet
9 Sep 14
长长久久哦~ today's paper was okay :3 after sch with fat fat ber hahaha. Aiya this time spot by sarah n ck >< haha chated happily. Eat nuggets also kena him scold o ): bu shi couple d couple opps x) zhu dong asked me what time to wake worr hehe but end up he sleeping himself = = ok la 1.21am ler so sleepy no give shit to literature le larhh nights babe.
gosh boss game down
8 Sep 14
Okay today is kinda boss game day- both chem paper. Yup so I did all I could, actually felt more confident than last exam, hope it will turn out well! Must improve! Hehe so we're together after school again :) awh this time kena spot by many ppl ._. Erm yz lo then chia zi zhan then sums and zi xuan. Haha they both say infront got couple so v oso couple then very lengzai blah blah blah. Then ber say like walao I'm here who lengzai oh hahahaha. He macam don wan me too early go out sch say what scare sun then stand at there dw go ._. Okay got home upstairs floor renovate so I no bed sleep. Ke lian d me went sleep sofa sob. Luckily i managed to fall asleep? Like so noisy in d living room lol. Awh he woke me up :3 then chiong add maths before going tuition, sarah ffk. Back home continue chiong rawr. Bio tmr suan la. Its 1.41am now. I need energy for add maths tmr! Go xinyi >< u can do this!
what sunday is this
7 Sep 14
Didnt go church haih headache ttm. Erin sis came today n so I read very less chem, went out for lunch n dinner then pyramid cendol hahaha. Ber woke me up when I nap for 30mins late = = ah nvm thats d only close contact v had today. Yay happy kena praise by teacher. A lil confidence gained heh. Erm sis say mom no allow go Jap, I heard mom said over phone abt "they hav to listen to me not I listen to them" ya la watever shit la not d time to think abt this hmm. Tmr GG no need sleep idk how to study bio n add maths in same day with tuition argh, okay jiayou babe.
i don't want just
6 Sep 14
Library day with berber n jinwen. Woke up early and regret sleeping late last night. Got down from car the first thing I heard is GUAK GUAK GUAK oh dear stupid crow. Breakfast at kanna, I'm so so so sleepy. Gosh we wore d same white and black style ._. So take bus to mbpj, I very shunshou let him take my jacket. Too bad v sat separately haih. Chor his powerbank to use hehehe, opps he left charge until half saja :) ish worse thing is jj was here. I shock seeing him, he too, I bet he knew berber was here with me. When v out for lunch, gam gam hou they bunch of guys coming back. lol that ugly crow no wear spec didnt c dao is him, he still push me to walk in d middle = = oh ya he found out I put his name as ugly crow haha. We went pet shop and I found hedgehog!! So kwet ♡ haha not enough tall to see the highest cage, borrowed his shoulder :3 back from lunch kelian d ugly crow's table kena malay sat, so he finally sat with us. I keep stepping n kicking him hehe. The most funny part of today is when he Snapchat my face n draw a pig, I Snapchat back him and draw a crow with guak HAHAHAHA I laughed so badly. Haha they both keep laughing at me for asking why why why over every question, so gamdong when I finally utd smth. No nap dao I was so tired when I was going back, slept in bus, he woke me up. Haih today would b perfect date if jinwen wasnt here, haha but weren't dating either. Not sure if I felt that he acted normally and talked with jw very much in public, I bu shuang ni lo. But when he alone with me jiu very close ler ._. // haha what chu wan worr. Emm I x like it when he like keep talking with jw n left out me la, but he's style lol what can I do haih. I knew I was gonna get guak alot when I reached home. Rush to church. No join them but alone at upstairs study chem n play instrument. Ah kinda emo but idk why. Can dont wan just best fren ma?
sej paper 3
5 Sep 14
It's sej paper 3 day hahahaha. Okay so basically we had the exactly same question and same skema from sugu's book. She came in n ask who dont hav d book she borrow haha. Morning when going back class, to me dewan kuliah. He walked with me, and we chatted quite long outside dewan kuliah. I gave him d phone case he said thanks for d first time wow. Haha then he banyak 乌鸦嘴 say laugh dao 停经, halfway i doing sej paper 3 I really came le = = at dewan kuliah keep chat with steph n abt my future gosh need to rethink again.. she say psychologist no job to do.. so i back to design or teacher haih.. then after sej paper 3 done I straight rush to toilet, ish my pinafore zz then when I back I quickly pack my things n keep searching for him thru window but I couldn't find. When I turned back I saw jw n him yam xiu. This morning he say what wan go sunway d library, at d end also make me go mbpj lol zz stupid period make me feel sho die. Walao ber send those wechat post photo thing n ask. He post a lenglui gal one say dao so nice, post my one jiu say I pig, df? = =
sexy free n of course single
4 Sep 14
HI TOTALLY DONE WITH ADDM N BIO HAHAHAHHAHA DONT ASK ME HOW I SCREWED IT. Okay so basically today was sexy free n of course single. I mean like really single because i no talk to him for d whole day. And Yongliang gave me cold shoulder when I hi to him. df? = = okay so went home lunch chat n watch half movie. Oh dear please dont go back hometown on sat! I hate his I no care attitude where sometime I really do feel hurted. But thats him, if he doesnt behave liddat, I'll say he's abnormal again ._. Okay sleeping early :)
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